Thursday, August 07, 2008
oh yeah! finally i saw something which i love. haha. a new blogskin to indicate my feeling now. haha! relax is how i am feeling now. =)
and something is bothering me right now. i am really feeling very vexed. i dont noe what i should do. i told sweetie and her replied was put a full stop to it. i dont noe if i should do that. this matter actually came to a full stop after several months. and it had been 6 months. i thought i already put it behind my mind. but it doesnt seems that i really put it behind. haish.
after several months of not contacting, suddenly he came back again. he started all his talking and chatting with me again. initally i felt that okay lah since we are still frenx. but later i realised i no longer treat him as frenx. there are other meaning to it. and plus he actually said things which made me feel very regret. i became the middle of his and his gf relationship. somehow i feel bad. later today i said something which i think i shouldnt. he told me he was sick and my replied was ya then what you want me to do. i know i deserve the scolding lah. i dont usually do that to my frenx. and i feel hurt from the way he said things. i dont noe why. i actually cried cause of what he said. sweetie told me to ignore but i cant. i tried to say sorry and asked him how is he feeling. but no reply. maybe i am really very guo fen bah.
haish. what should i do? continue all this? apologise again? i dont noe. haish. i tried all i can. but i dont think i will be able to turn back again. =( it made me feel sad and hurt. ='(
and something is bothering me right now. i am really feeling very vexed. i dont noe what i should do. i told sweetie and her replied was put a full stop to it. i dont noe if i should do that. this matter actually came to a full stop after several months. and it had been 6 months. i thought i already put it behind my mind. but it doesnt seems that i really put it behind. haish.
after several months of not contacting, suddenly he came back again. he started all his talking and chatting with me again. initally i felt that okay lah since we are still frenx. but later i realised i no longer treat him as frenx. there are other meaning to it. and plus he actually said things which made me feel very regret. i became the middle of his and his gf relationship. somehow i feel bad. later today i said something which i think i shouldnt. he told me he was sick and my replied was ya then what you want me to do. i know i deserve the scolding lah. i dont usually do that to my frenx. and i feel hurt from the way he said things. i dont noe why. i actually cried cause of what he said. sweetie told me to ignore but i cant. i tried to say sorry and asked him how is he feeling. but no reply. maybe i am really very guo fen bah.
haish. what should i do? continue all this? apologise again? i dont noe. haish. i tried all i can. but i dont think i will be able to turn back again. =( it made me feel sad and hurt. ='(
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