i also dont understand why.. my mood is currently sooo high.. haha.. ever since yesterday.. i couldnt get to sleep until it reached 6am.. imagine.. 6am!!!

i told jazz about going to club.. and she said i made her xin yang yang.. gosh.. ever since i see her "xin yang yang".. i became so excited.. it was already 4plus in the morning.. i called up xinyi and told her.. hoho.. she seems so sleepy.. but i was so high.. dont allow her to hung up the call still insist on her talking to me.. wahaha.. but i still hung up quite soon..

trying very hard to chat with jazz again.. but she didnt even bother to reply me.. wah thinking that forget it lah.. since she kinda so busy.. arrrrrr.. nevermind no one for me to turn to for some excitement.. haha!! ^_____^ now my brain is full of fun and excitement..

i really hope to go back club once again.. i want to enjoy once more.. just once more before my school start.. hopefully i can bah.. =))

later going back to ah ma house le.. cause tomorrow morning needa wake up early to go sao mu.. qing ming jie is coming.. yao pai pai oh.. in weeks time will be going together with po po to pai pai also.. take care everyone.. see ya soon!! =)

hello!!! yvonne went clubbing yesterday!! can you imagine it.. haha.. xinyi finally fulfill her promise to bring yvonne to club.. okay should say is i finally agree with xinyi to go club with her.. i should say one should go club at least once bah.. haha.. happy.. overall it was sooo fun.. that was a date with xinyi and xinyi's frenz amanda.. =D no one will noe the mood there unless you went there once.. somehow not all people will like the atmosphere there.. at first i also dont really like but i found that it was really fun and high.. =)) let me tell everyone what happened yesterday bah..

met up with xinyi at bukit gombak at 8.45pm.. but i was a bit late.. i reached at about 9pm.. but that ger she more worse.. she reached at only 9.15pm.. waited at the platform until i rot again.. oh my.. when i saw her she was so high lah.. she was talking excitedly lah.. but i totally had no mood cause i was still feeling abit worry and scared.. afterall this was the first time i went club mah.. then we took the train and met amanda at dover.. soon amanda reached and we headed down to tiong bahru.. took a cab and off we went to zouk.. heex.. =))

once we reached zouk.. my feeling was like so mix lah.. -.- we also loitered outside for quite a while thinking of which entrance should we go.. as there are 3 entrances mah.. to different club.. but finally we went in one and it was linked so it didnt really matter much.. i kept holding on to xinyi hands wherever we went.. she also holding me tight.. and really have to thank her cause she really bao hu wo neh.. *sMiLe* both amanda and xinyi are not first time clubber so both of them protect me oh.. =)) i had one drink at zouk and off we went for some walking.. we were like going zouk and phuture.. like so busy lah.. haha.. dance floor finally was opened when it was around 11.30pm at phuture.. xinyi and amanda were dancing and being first time clubber.. i was quite afraid so i didnt really dance.. furthermore i saw my frenz there from ECH too.. haha.. but it is a guy lah.. feeling a bit scared.. so i just stood there and see.. it seems like both of them were having fun.. i felt so high when every music was being played.. ^__^ music was high but i still dont have the courage to dance bah.. but we didnt stay there for long.. we took a cab down to MOS.. woohoo.. MOS was fun!!! wahahaha..

MOS was filled with many many people.. youngster too.. but not that much as compared to zouk.. really zouk had many shuai ge but not MOS.. oops.. haha.. i tried the dance floor at MOS.. woohoo.. fun fun.. initailly i told xinyi no matter what i wouldnt go dance floor with her.. i rather stayed outside alone.. but somehow she persuaded me.. and without any choices i was dragged into the dance floor by xinyi that ger.. first time step onto the dance floor and xinyi was protecting me not to allow me to being touch.. once she saw some guys behind like very what she changed place with me.. haha.. but there was one guy who kept rotating behind me lah.. wherever i turn he was like behind me jiu dui le loh.. -___- so i realised it was quite useless in keep telling xinyi about it.. so i kept silence about it.. that guy was getting closer and closer to me.. somehow making me feeling a bit uncomfortable.. i tried to turn away from him but with no use.. so i was thinking forget it.. since he wanted to be sooo close.. but he was doing disgusted act.. his hands was onto me.. and i got a shock k.. gosh.. luckily i was save.. amanda was feeling tired so we went out for a rest after dancing for some time.. we had drinks again.. holding onto our drink then we walked up to the main arena and found some seat.. wah the music there was definitely high!! haha.. i got so high after i heard the song there.. hoho.. so we rest for a while..

we went back to the dance floor once again and this time i really got high.. oopss.. we were like dancing nobody business.. haha.. hug onto each other and dance.. so high!! wahaha.. guys were like all surrounding you and dance.. -____- the crowd was getting more and more.. people stepping on your legs when they either wanted to walk out or walk in.. that was pain k.. -___-" but still having lot of fun.. the moment we just step in the dance floor.. we couldnt find a better spot.. so we went back to the side we went in earlier on.. and i was shocked to see the same guy before that dancing with xinyi de.. and the moment he saw us.. he was behind me.. -__- and you noe we 3 were like dancing in a circle facing one another.. and that guy definitely was behind xinyi once again.. and that gong ger.. she didnt even noe it was the same old guy.. we were kinda like trying to pull her away from that guy.. cause he wasnt that shuai afterall.. haha.. this is gers bah i can say.. wahaha.. out of the sudden i realised that someone hands is on my butt.. initially i thought it was xinyi.. but i realised xinyi as still dancing with that guy.. and i had a touch of the hands it was guys hands.. okay fine.. so did dance with him for a while until amanda pulled me away cause she saw.. then another guy came and he was somehow tall and wearing a cap.. and his cap kept making my hair.. kinda irritating lah.. but was rather feeling high when dancing with him bah.. he is a good dance i guess.. he asked for my name but i didnt say as was being pulled away once again to some other spot..

and the moment we stepped onto next spot.. another person came.. he was touching my shoulders.. slowly to waist.. trying to tell xinyi about it.. but she wasnt really listening bah.. i didnt even noe who was at my back.. dancing with him again and finally amanda saw.. i was being pulled away again.. but that guy was still following.. there he was again.. hands on me again.. feeling damn uncomfortable lah.. he was like a what lah.. wherever we went he will be behind.. gosh.. his next target was xinyi lah.. actually she did dance with him bah.. we were like trying to get away from him.. and thankfully 3 guys saved us.. but he was still around us lah.. =.= dont understand why he liked to do that lah.. finally i got to see his face and he is NOT a youngster like us.. oh gosh.. feeling so disgusted lah.. -___- but still had to thank those who saved us.. =))

everything stopped at 5am.. music was off and lights were on.. that was the end of everything.. we took a cab home after buying mineral water from 7-11.. i went to xinyi's house later on.. she took a bath and around 7am we went for macdonald breakfast.. i was sharing big breakfast with her.. after that jiu went home le..

even though things were being said until like to scary.. but i still find clubbing fun.. cause it allows you to be high and forget about certain things.. the best is you wouldnt feel sad or unhappy.. you will enjoy.. =)) people will be thinking what.. yvonne went clubbing.. are you sure.. yah.. to sum up.. clubbing is fun but i promise not to get hook on it.. =)) i shall try out other nights to see how fun it is going to be.. =)) xinyi will you still promise to bring me there once again?? i promise i dont hook on it but to find fun there.. =)) next time we go find shuai shuai de guys k.. cute i also dont mind.. haha.. kidding.. =))

gosh.. i dont even what day is today.. i got tonnes of sms coming in.. the earliest one is from my secondary school frenz asking me about the missing puzzle.. i ignored the message thinking that i will reply her when i wake up.. but who noes.. there come another one.. leen.. haha.. asking about the agency thingy.. lolx.. i didnt reply her too.. then another important ger come.. rain.. saying that she will be coming to my house at 11plus.. i shock dao lah.. i get off from my bed and slowly to wait for her.. she came at around 11.10am and i met her at the void deck.. she passed me all the things and off she went in her brother car.. the very next person on the sms list is xinyi lah.. she also very early today man.. cause she going out.. dont noe what the hell happen today.. everyone waking so early man!!

after rain came and went off.. i went back home.. trying to get some nap.. but xinyi messages keep coming in.. -___- she is bored lah i guess.. so without any choices.. i rather stay awake.. watched tv too.. but very sianz.. lazy to on lappie and watch my last episode de hanakimi.. haha..

today meeting is kinda like i am so extra lah.. cause i need to meet up with yanxian.. without any choices.. i went.. bu ran i wouldnt go too.. cause mostly is those main committee discussing things.. i also dont noe anything.. cant help too.. and meeting ended at around 7plus.. and i am stuck.. i meeting xinyi at 10pm.. and what should i do next.. call her and told her she was shocked.. i cant blame her this time round.. so i was walking aimlessly from school to the shell bus stop.. and waited there for quite long and watch all the buses that i could get on to pass in front of me.. how stupid i am today.. finally took 985 after i saw yubin and nicholas at the bus stop.. alight in front of westmall and once again i walked aimlessly everywhere.. the whole westmall from basement to top level i walked once.. so i decided to take a seat outside the software shop.. sms-ing xinyi and noe-ing she was on her way.. couldnt bear with the cold.. walked all the way out again to MRT station.. saw maxine and she was asking why i looked so sianz.. i told her about me walking around waiting for xinyi from 8.30pm.. her face go @_@ haha..

finally met xinyi at 10pm.. initially going to macdonald to have something.. but i dont feel like having anything.. so we went to sit at the MRT platform there and see one train pass us.. how stupid once again..

i realised that today i am damn stupid.. walking around not noe-ing what i actually want.. LOL.. but i still feel happy cause i got the things that we bought from online.. nice nice.. =DD thank you!!

i was once again awake by phone call.. this time round is eileen.. LOL.. yesterday was on call with xinyi and she was still asking me to wake up at 8am today to date leen out.. i rejected xinyi cause i going out in the late afternoon.. but who noes.. leen came and date me.. wahaha.. but once again.. i rejected it.. feeling so bad about it.. cause she called me already 12plus.. and i prepared dao lai dont noe what time liao.. still need rush for BBQ.. so loh.. sorry ar leen.. always also cant make it for the date..

wrapped up the pressie and drew up a bdae card for farhana.. it took me an hour to finish both things.. bath liao jiu already 4plus.. called up jazz and asked her to call me once she finished ice skating.. and i left house at 5.30pm.. i was around 15minutes late when meeting jazz.. and she was shivering when waiting for me.. cause she was far too cold after her stay at ice skate there..

finally reached east coast park and we walked another 15minutes to reach the BBQ pit.. korkor and marvin already reached.. hasanah helmi aisha and yusoff were already there chit chatting le.. haha.. soon lingkwee and jieying also came le.. only 6 of us turn up for the chinese students in 5/1.. so little!!! but nevermind cause we had fun chit chatting.. korkor was the main one serving me.. muahaha.. i asked him to get me things to eat.. heex.. thank my korkor.. he is such a nice one.. but he is BAD!!! he bully me all the way.. -_______- nonsense korkor.. but still i enjoyed myself over there.. hehe.. then lingkwee bbq for us neh.. so nan de loh.. but her chicken wings some were not fully cooked.. and thus i am having a bad stomach now.. =(( hopefully i can get well soon!!

alright jazz daddy came over and drive us to causeway point.. by the way jazz daddy is a taxi driver.. ^_^ her daddy only charge us $15 from east coast to causeway point.. actually i $17.90.. lolx.. but still must thank him ar.. =)) me and jieying took the same bus home.. we had a heart to heart chat man.. i felt quite sad for her.. guys are stupid and idiot.. they only noe how to cheat on gers feeling.. so gers dont fall into their traps!! and guys from that particular course in NP are all bad guys.. they dont take relationship seriously.. so sometime it is always the best that you didnt even step into the relationship.. i am glad both of us are free from the trap.. ^___^ we sure jia you bah!! =)) nice guys will be out there waiting for us and coming over guys.. haha.. =D finally i noe what a ger should actually look for when looking for a guy.. we shall move towards that direction bah.. wahaha..

suddenly.. i am feeling useless again.. i was being scolded once again by daddy today.. he scolded me for going out everyday and using lot of money.. but holiday dont have allowance.. i only get $5 everytime i went out.. haish.. feeling a bit down.. if i manage to find a job.. i wouldnt have this kind of stupid scolding.. i wanted to look for jobs.. but i am not that independent.. sales jobs are not suitable as i am those type who is afraid to open my mouth to strangers.. office work will kill me.. i only enjoy jobs which are in contact with kids.. but without certification.. no one will hired you and they need de is full time not quit after 2 months.. so i cant find job... haish.. everytime what i wish for never come true lah.. so i dont wish for anything now.. i wanted to sign up for home tutor under an agency.. but mummy forbit me to do so.. she said she asked around for me rather than going to an agency.. if i cant get the job she will say i am wasting money.. gosh.. what actually they want.. haish.. currently still waiting for my godma de reply.. hmm.. if not i really want to sign up man.. no one will noe how terrible it feel when you go shopping without money.. and how xing ku it is to see somethings you like but you have to consider and consider before buying.. haish.. my pockets are dried.. i need to top it up.. help help help!!! =((

today i wake up damn early okay! all because i had to meet up with jazz as yesterday she forgot to bring the frame along with her when she came to my house.. make me had to walk all the way to MRT station to meet her up.. -.-

still very upset about the missing puzzle and i did turn my room upside down by pulling all the cupboard out to see whether it had "fly" inside.. but it was no where to be found.. such a headache lah.. without any choices.. i took all the surrounding 8 pieces of puzzles and glue the rest up and frame it up liao.. going to wrap it up later on and draw the bdae card.. wah i got such a big responsibility.. ^__^

today my house is going through some renovation man.. daddy is "destroying" the extra things at the dining room there.. dont really noe how to explain it.. just need to noe my house now become very funny and weird without that thing there.. currently daddy said that the ceiling might fall and no one dare to sit under there.. so mummy pushed the sofa back in case it really fall.. piangz.. our lives are currently very dangerous.. LOL!!

sometimes i thinking right i really hate to be alone.. wherever i go i sure ask my frenz to accompany.. be it a group of frenz or just 2 of us.. i also find it fun.. but you can never ask me to go alone.. i rather stay at home and do nothing than going alone.. it will kill me.. but time is changing.. everyone is busy with their own stuff and i cant force them to stay with me always.. i cant be that selfish.. i have to think.. but i just cant learn to be independent.. maybe i simply lurv relying on someone.. i am afraid things might go wrong.. i am worry.. i hate to admit but i have to say everytime things will be pu mei mei in front of me and let me go through.. i never dream of conquering anything by myself.. my frenz always hen take care of me.. so i must thank them too.. must i really learn to be independent?? actually i can say to be quite independent.. but not an extend that i can go anywhere to shop alone.. haish..

what is future.. no one noes.. and no one can expect what will happen in the future.. you not going to noe what will happen to you next moment.. so we always will be ask to treasure whatever you have now.. but some people dont really treasure.. they just treasure it as and when they like.. haish.. whatever happened last year were all memorises.. i am afraid to accept the reality.. special festives are celebrated with lovely frenz last year.. will it change this year?? will i be alone?? people around me are all leaving me.. some are attached some are busy with new frenz.. some are like becoming strangers.. why is this so?? i thought we used to be very close together de.. why why?? i hate to see this.. i tears whenever i think of this.. but it is useless.. to think i can even cried bitterly when frenzship are breaking among other frenz and not me.. why am i so foolish.. even i myself i also dont.. it break my heart to see people quarrelling.. even if that something involve me i also will try all my way to keep quiet and dont talk about it.. but somehow there are frenz who always will help me to find the way i should be treat.. they are nice.. only me is useless.. haish.. what am i for man.. =((

today is such an emo post lah.. i also dont noe why i have this kind of thinking.. i am really a useless ger.. this is for sure de.. i cant defend myself.. i need people to protect me.. even someone younger than me also will protect me.. there.. this means i am very very useless.. let accept this fate bah..

early morning was awaken by jazz.. cause actually she today not coming to my house liao as she got to go give tuition but last minute she cancelled her tuition and came.. so met her at 768 at around 1pm.. she went to cut her fringe.. after which jiu go home rush the puzzle.. but who noes one piece of the puzzle went missing!! and this makes me feel very upset.. we spent so long to fix the puzzle and now one piece is gone.. if need replacement it will take up to 6 to 8 weeks before it arrive from japan.. sadded lah.. it took us so long to complete it and thinking that wah monday when give it to farhana how will she feel.. but now.. the hope is tarnish lah.. giving a puzzle as a pressie and with 9 missing pieces of puzzle.. what is this.. haish.. sad sad ar..

okay nevermind.. forget it.. i will make my way down to causeway point on monday to ask for replacement if tomorrow i turn my room upside down and still cant find the puzzle.. then i shall ask farhana to collect the puzzle and fix it completely by herself.. maybe that is a better choice rather than delaying someone pressie for so long..

hmm.. today went for ice age outing.. was rather late when meeting half an hour.. haha.. cause i slowly make my way there mah.. wahaha.. then went to check movie time slot but mr bean is fully book.. every time slot.. except for 11plus de which is rather late.. so give up on watching movie and we were arguing where to go and have dinner.. initially sakae sushi then too expensive due to me who is broke.. change to marina south steamboat but thinking that no more place to sit.. change to king gary but i dont feel like going there.. so change to seoul garden but too expensive as i am broke.. fine we change to pizza hut but plaza singapura full house.. so we change macdonald but no different.. burger king sianz.. so finally.. we went one place.. LONG JOHN SILVER!! kinda stupid lah.. from high class to fast food.. LOL.. waste MRT fare lah.. haiyo.. cause of the MRT fare thingy.. stupid choonheng called me auntie.. excuse me.. i am still xiao mei mei k!! went to dohby ghaut to have our dinner and after which.. junwei fulfill his promise by bringing us to ben and jerry for ice-cream which he promise to treat us.. so we went to the grand cathay but ben and jerry was full house.. so we went up to the fourth level to some unknown cafe to have ice-cream.. yum yum.. but only one flavour which makes us feel like vomitting.. lolx.. went pool later on at parkling mall.. wah piangz.. i play one game with lynette.. both of us are newbies.. who noes she is better than me.. i keep aim wrongly and the white ball went in the hole 3 to 4 times.. i can say i am a LOUSY player for pool lah.. choonheng jasper daryl and sheryl are all pro!! haha.. i shall find a teacher for pool man.. to improve my skill.. wahaha.. we shall arrange one day to complete this pool play again!!! went home at round 11plus and reached home at 12plus.. took a bus home as it was drizzling.. wanted to take walk up the stairs but suddenly one loud bang shock me so took a lift home instead and this is horrible.. my heart is jumping like mad.. haha.. foolish me..

let see the pictures we took today!!

oh my god!! i am currently feeling damn tired and sleepy.. but with no choice.. i feel like blogging.. haha.. so here i am again loh.. *yawnz*

today went for CCA fiesta briefing.. accompany yeeshan to go cause she thought melvina isnt going.. but later melvina went.. so i just sit there for fun.. LOL.. i hope i do help dao them bah.. cause i told them agar agar what shuling did during the open house.. =)) after which went lunch with them and we settled at canteen one for quite some time before heading home..

actually suppose to meet xinyi at 1pm at the bus stop near school.. but she put an aeroplane to me.. she was still sleeping at that moment.. and she asked me to go home.. as you noe my pattern.. i will be ever lazy to come out of the house after i went home.. so i took the risk of calling jazz out.. luckily.. she was at zaijie house doing facial which is located above my house.. this means she can be out soon.. haha.. so i met her up and accompanied her to eat lunch.. then we shop for farhana bdae pressie.. we took very long to look for the pressie.. finally!! we decided to make a puzzle for her.. and this puzzle is currently at my house and i need to get it fix before monday.. oh man.. rushing like mad liao lah.. but hengz ar jazz is coming over tomorrow to help me out.. yippee!! then 4plus sms that xinyi xiao jie!! she finally woke up and we are meeting up to head to town.. i pull jazz to accompany me and wait for that da xiao jie to come.. both of us are tired of walking so we settled down outside TS and watch Eragon.. woohoo shiok sia.. i want to buy that dvd.. haha.. we sit there very long and the show is repeating and repeating.. LOL..

finally nearly 7pm that da xiao jie arrived.. and jazz left before us.. she heading down to her office to meet her BF.. hmm.. initially heading to town but later we changed the venue and went to marina square instead.. we had yoshinoya.. yum yum.. heex.. then shop awhile she got her accessories.. but i didnt.. sobx.. no money go shopping hen xing ku neh.. =(( wah today got fashion show.. got shuai ge neh.. ang moh shuai ge so cool lah.. *drooling* haha.. oops.. i not that crazy lah.. wahaha.. we went esplanade after that and settled down.. i saw a BAT!!! oh my god.. i was so pa lah.. then that ger was talking on phone.. i had no way to run and that bat is flying just above my head.. scary.. so i chao chao chao and finally she agreed to leave that scary place.. =D then sit at another place where saw one couple.. erm you should noe lah.. haha.. but we left very soon.. haha..

finally today without any choices.. i walked back home from the MRT station!! first time man.. as in got bus i dont take.. haha.. and i broke the promise.. i took the lift home.. cause i scared later walk halfway the stairs got people sit there drink alcohol.. so i better take the lift straight home.. heex.. XD

happy happy!! i also dont noe why.. i am turning crazy!! haha.. =DD

oh hello!! my internet is back to service again.. and i dont need to get to macdonald just to surf the net.. boo hoo!! i simply lurv my internet a lot! yippee~~

i must say singtel do really have a very busy hotline yah.. i have been waiting for the people to pick up my call for 10mins.. after which i had to call the technical service hotline.. and i waited once again.. wah.. overall it took me half an hour to finish everything.. in the end there is nothing wrong with the broadband.. guess what.. the technical people said that it could be their service problem and asked me to reconnect to internet an hour later.. and i did.. internet was okay.. but wireless isnt detected.. i thought i am going to stay out of internet once again.. but luckily.. called the hotline again and they havent end work.. hengz!! so there.. everything is done and i am here.. =))

today i woke up at 1pm when eileen called.. she is really very bored at home neh.. she went bugis all alone to shop.. asking me whether i want to go down bugis to meet her.. but i wasnt ready and i havent called singnet.. so i gave it a miss.. hmm.. i was tired actually cause i only slept at 6plus yesterday.. cause of that miss xinyi loh.. she came back from clubbing jiu yi zhi gen wo jiang hua as she was waiting for her hair to dye.. then suddenly stop sms liao.. i didnt noe still gong gong de wait for her sms.. =.= in the end i received message from one of my ice age participant after which then i go to sleep.. tiring day man.. yawnz!!

wah currently feeling damn bored.. and whenever i see the time table of mine.. i feel like slapping myself.. it is really very nonsense de loh.. having FP on monday from 9am to 12noon.. and continously i am having financial management at 12noon.. how to fly back to school?? from my house to school already need an hour.. even i took a cab down also need 20mins.. and i am not that stupid to go school by cab.. really very pissed off by this semester time table.. arghz.. how i wish i can have shorter time table.. everyday either from 8am or 9am until 5pm or 6pm.. it really can kill me.. and i am returning to a no life timing again.. haish.. actually i can say i am very scare.. i worry too.. imagine every monday having FP and i has to teach during those session.. i wonder how long i can survive.. eileen will be there always with me and i will never feel bored during lesson.. but xinyi wouldnt be there.. she is going to make a disappearing act in school.. no one accompany me for dinner at night and no one to hang out during weekdays.. oh gosh.. die le die le.. then my days will be tight down with assignments and assignments.. ahh.. no more outing with rain.. no more outing with frenz.. mummy ah!! help help!!! school is restarting in 3weeks time.. sobx sobx.. =(( i dont want ar..

hmm.. currently i am at macdonald which is located at 768 lah.. kaoz.. all becauseof my stupid internet at home.. today is the start of the new internet plan.. from yesterday i couldnt get online.. without noe-ing why.. i thought maybe today i might online but who noes.. it got worse today.. tried to change the modem but nothing help.. arghz.. and i am in the rush to send the MOB file to evelyn.. so i have no choice but to goto macdonald.. haish..

yesterday went to attend a MOB briefing.. the briefing was for those clubs de treasurer.. i was so shocked lah.. i didnt even noe i was the treasurer.. just went for briefing as evelyn asked me to.. hmm.. need to do all those budget for the whole year but i dont noe how to.. so evelyn helped me out.. have to thank her man.. =)) then after the briefing.. initially it was going to end at around 5pm.. but they were kind enough to split the group up and so it ended at around 12noon.. lunch was provided but i wasnt hungry at that time so didnt eat much.. went to clubhouse and waited for awhile.. thought of going home soon.. but who noes shuling they all need to go art friend and i happened to have the discount.. so went with them too.. wah.. it was so tiring.. i only reached home at around 9pm.. hmm..

tml outreach is postponed.. due to some of the school which actually put aeoplane on us..so had no choice but to postpone it.. and i am free tml!! lolx.. yesterday asking shuling whether breadtalk still want to hire part timer mah.. she said ya.. i wonder should i go and interview?? i am terribly broke le.. haish.. let me think over it again bah.. =))

i think i should blog till here jiu hao.. it is getting late le.. and i need to get home soon.. the path home is so dark and scary.. and i had to climb stairs home.. hmm.. hopefully everything will be fine by tml.. and i can see my hua yang soon!!! =)) *praying*

hello~~ today i went dating with xinyi and sockping ar.. hehe.. we went to clarke quay that central.. many many shops not open.. therefore it seems boring over there.. we took a long time to decide what to eat for lunch.. hmm.. we also had a small "fight".. haha.. xinyi wanted t eat pepper lunch.. but i dont want to.. then sockping she said anything.. so it became me and xinyi arguing what to eat lah.. she very bad de loh.. she said that i actually promise to eat pepper lunch the other day when i went out with her.. but hor i dont remember i ever said that.. hmph!! but in the end i still lose.. ended up we went to eat pepper lunch.. i was so full after that.. we walked around at the shopping centre but nothing attract us.. so we went vivo city after that.. haha.. hmm.. vivo city also nothing to walk de.. but it kills our time there.. haha.. i saw that adidas purple colour de sling bag.. i like it.. but far too expensive le.. so i didnt dare to tell mummy about it.. even i do have the money i also she bu de buy.. haish..

we went in topshop.. piangz.. i am still waiting to buy that shirt from the shop.. haiyoyo.. how long do i need to take just to buy that shirt wor.. haha.. and guess what.. i saw that shirt i want in I.P. Zone.. that day went with rain at causeway point de no size le.. now i saw.. but i never bring extra money.. so i didnt buy.. i shall buy it when i go vivo city on sat to have my ice age gathering.. haha.. hopefully still got bah.. hmm..

we went choa chu kang after that to eat KFC for dinner.. after dinner we went to arcade.. wah piangz.. i didnt go to arcade for so long le.. then i had a lot of fun lah.. we played a lot of games.. but sockping dont let me play puzzle bobble.. sobx sobx.. i very very long never play le.. ever since daddy no longer working at sembawang air base.. but nevermind ar.. haha.. next time i go play.. hoho.. wah kaoz.. i am really lousy in driving lah.. i kept banging onto the wall de leh then the car go upside down.. =.= still lose to sockping also.. this means if i really drive care i am dead man.. haha.. lousy driver is me liao.. hoho..

went home then they very bad lah.. dont wait for me to board first and they just left.. sobx.. okay fine loh.. then on the way home inside MRT.. got one guai guai de bei bei kept talking cantonese to me lah.. he asked me to go and sit on a seat which was empty.. wah piangs i was thinking isnt it better that he sit as he is an elderly.. then he talked to me in cantonese again.. even though i understand him.. but my speaking of cantonese isnt that good so to be polite.. i just kept smiling to him.. i was thinking oh gosh will he continue talking and i couldnt get down when it reaches my stop.. but thank god.. he walked away when the MRT was about to reach woodlands.. to be save.. i get down at woodlands and took a bus home..

today i didnt take the lift home.. i took the stairs instead.. and i was shocked by the black cat when i was at level 3.. wah kaoz.. xia si wo lah.. i thought what thing black black de over there.. then when i walked a bit more.. the cat eyes look at me.. i felt so scared.. the cat ran away and i quickly walked up.. the cat stared at me even though i was at the next level.. everytime seems to be scary today.. pray hard that i become more brave bah.. =))

what actually is happening man?? nobody noes.. even i myself also dont noe.. so difficult to noe myself nowadays.. but why am i showing my smiling face to others when i dont actually feel happy?? haiz..

i realised that recently i had said something which were not suppose to be said.. and i dont actually means what i said.. then now what should i do?? haish.. i wanted to tell the rest i dont mean what i say.. i said those words cause i care and i lurv.. i worry and i feel concern.. i am afraid things might happened which makes me regret.. i dont want to live with regret.. i want to live with happiness.. i really wish this can happen.. but can i??

okay okay.. stop it yvonne.. you are making people worry once again.. so dont bother about saying that again.. =)

yesterday right.. police cars and ambulance appeared at my block downstair.. i felt so curious so i stood down there and see.. then suddenly some noise came outside of my house.. took a look from the eyehole there.. i was surprised to see a few polices outside and a guy.. then got one guy who has bandage on his head was being push into the ambulance.. this seems scary.. i stood there and watch but i left after awhile.. then i heard a loud voice coming from downstair and that guy was been ya zhu by the police and brought inside the police car.. then awhile they left.. i wondered what actually happened??

currently watching ren ci show.. sometimes it really touch my heart when i saw those video of those people who are ill.. so this year i called.. i called one for the ren ci show.. and daddy approved this.. i hope this one call can help those people bah.. i am not rich so that is what i can do bah.. ming yi fa shi somehow also touch my heart.. he tried all his best to get to the top of the building.. he had to get to level 15.. all the way from first level to 15 level.. not just climbing the stairs and is using his hands and legs to climb the rope and get to his destination.. he shivers every moment he stops for awhile to rest.. this is only the first round.. he finally did it.. he get to the top of the resting station.. i smile for him.. now he is climbing to the last floor using only one rope.. just wishing him all the best and jia you!! if i got more money.. i will call more.. but i guess i cant.. haish.. all the actors and actresses are doing their best and some even risking their life.. let pray hard for them and many people donate!!

maybe sometimes throw throw tantrums is a good thing bah.. then you will noe actually there is someone for you out there and they really care about you.. =) i feel so happy.. heex.. everytime i thought no one will care.. but i am wrong.. cause people will care.. they lurv me as much as i lurv them i guess.. hehex.. hopefully this week i will be having fun bah.. =))

should i say the chalet was a success?? i totally have no ideas.. i am at a lost again.. many people turn up for the chalet.. but many left after that.. my heart was went sinking when i noe not much people staying overnight.. but i guess afterall i had fun bah.. =))

let's start about the whole day event.. hmm met up with clement and dionne in the morning and went to sheng song to buy those things that we needed for the chalet.. it was sooo heavy.. so we took a cab back to school.. reached school got all the things down at canteen 1 and i was rushing the idenmity form.. finaaly it was done and had my lunch.. after that submit the idenmity form to our advisor and waited patiently at canteen 1.. finally many people turn up and we left shortly.. reached the chalet put down all the things and we left to play at the beach.. captain ball!! but somehow it was unfair.. the guys were in a group and left the gers and tommy in group.. this was a unfair match.. the guys are all tall and played basketball de loh.. hmm.. but we had fun bah.. =)) then some went to play pool le while me shuling and clement wanted to cycle and blade.. but who noes i only rent it for 5mins.. which means i cycled for 5mins only.. cause it rain and then the rest of the time dionne took the bike.. luckily it was a free rent.. heex.. 5plus the food arrived and we rent the bbq pit.. then we played cards inside the room.. then at 6pm those guys who lose in playing cards start the bbq fire for us.. after that it was bbq time.. everyone was eating and chit chatting away.. people arrived too.. ha!! at 7pm.. everyone squeezed in front of the tv just to watch hua yang shao nian shao nv.. wahaha.. the show was getting excited as monday it will end.. nice show with jing xiuyi shuai ge!! haha.. some people left around 8plus.. quite sad but no choice they left.. went chit chatting with jasper and tommy.. then yeeshan chuxiang sp and qiuwen also join in the chat.. laughing and giggling all the way.. hmm.. this is so called bonding i guess.. then saw a female cat with 5 kittens.. really cute.. they fed the cat with the fried rice.. around 10plus many left.. and some came after their work.. some went night gazing while some stay and play cards.. took a shower after sq and qiuwen shower.. shuling was outside the bathroom guarding for me.. cause i noe some of the guys will be up to mischief and this really happened.. angry!! midnight they were all watching the ghost movie.. and it shocked me out of my life.. shuling watched while i tried to do things to move away my attention.. then shuling shouted suddenly when she saw something horrible.. this leads to me shout too.. then everyone was laughing lah.. okay then i shouted of out the sudden she also shout.. piangz.. so we decided not to watch liao when it was 2am.. went up to the room and sleep.. sq qiuwen and henry were sleeping on the bed while me shuling and clement were sleeping on the floor.. but it was really painful on our butt.. so we decided to squeeze everyone on the bed.. and i was so ke lian!! henry slept the most outside one.. then shuling and clement.. then me then sq and qiuwen.. piangz.. stuck in between 2 couples.. one couple were mumbering while one couple were talking loudly.. i couldnt tahan.. so i went downstair thinking that forget it dont want to sleep.. but henry came down and i took his place.. then everyone came up and talking loudly.. so sq and qiuwen went downstair to eat chocolate.. lolx.. and me shuling clement and henry slept on the bed.. okay everyone went to sleep and no one stay up the whole night..

hmm.. after hearing everything.. do you think it is a success?? hmm.. i doubt so bah.. =

okay something has been bothering me yesterday.. many things happened and i dont noe what to do.. maybe it was only me who is thinking too much bah.. but i swear i dont have any other intention.. i feel scare and i dont noe what to do.. i did drink vodka yesterday.. i took a mouthful of different flavour of vodka.. got raspberry.. blackcurrent.. green tea with whiskey and i forget the other one.. just a few mouths so i didnt drunk.. haha.. but it makes me stop thinking for awhile.. so still thankful to those who give me drink.. =))

i cut my finger!! liu le hao duo de blood oh.. so painful!! not only one cut.. but 4 to 5 cut.. 2 major cuts the rest are minor de.. quite a long and deep cut bah.. all because i was washing the tongs.. haish.. it hurt terribly when the cut touches water.. unbearable!! i want cry!! sobx sobx..

finally!! i had my macdonald breakfast!! me shuling clement sq qiuwen and sockping went mac breakfast after we came back from chalet.. thinking that we wouldnt be able to eat breakfast as it was already 11am when we reached KAP.. but luckily we still have.. yum yum!! hotcake with sasuage.. so nice.. so long didnt eat le.. haha.. went home after breakfast but i couldnt sleep even i was tired.. maybe i was still thinking about the matter bah.. suan le.. after today i will not think it again.. i sure promise myself!! =)) yvonne is a good ger orh!!

my cousin came my house today.. he just bought lappie.. and today got one more person fighting the internet speed with me!! arghz.. becoming damn lag le loh.. i pester him again for my purple colour slippers!! hoho.. i dont care.. he owed me one pair.. i will be waiting.. hoho.. i must get my slippers before school start!!

wah.. can you imagine?? xinyi is earlier than me today.. cause she cheat me lah.. she said that she will be late so i slowly slowly prepare.. who noes.. when i was just about to change shirt she sms said that she was already on her way.. =.= she cheat!! then ended up i was late and she waited for me at the platform.. oops..

okay went to taka and walk walk.. got nothing then left to wisma but she couldnt get the things she wanted.. so we went far east!! imagine she go far east?!?! oops.. so nan de lah.. haha.. she going to kill me lah.. wahaha.. okay she bought those things that she want and now she complaint that she was broke.. but somehow she noe how to bian money de.. so dont worry.. haha.. we went marina square after that just to eat burger king lah.. gosh.. waste MRT fare lah.. stupid.. she got concession and i dont have.. slap!! chit chat at burger king until 9pm and we went home.. haha.. i forced her to take the red line with me cause i wanted to get off the train first.. at first she dont want but in the end i win!! she took an hour de MRT home.. heex..

something shocking happened lah!! i was almost stuck in the lift.. gosh i panicked!! the door of the lift wouldnt open and the alarm went on.. it had been long since i take a lift home cause normally i take the stairs de.. wah lau so stupid lah.. i press the bell and then kept pressing the door open but it still didnt open.. i thought i was dead.. i will be stuck inside.. i will cry de lah.. but luckily lah.. after pressing the bell for awhile.. it open up.. wah hengz man.. bu ran no need see me liao.. i will cry dao dont noe how sia.. scary.. i dont want take the lift anymore lah.. that is why i always scare taking lift.. cause last time i also stuck in lift before.. at least that time is with my frenz lah.. now is i alone leh.. kaoz!! i swear i dont want take lift unless with someone..

up till now i still feeling afraid.. i will never forget this de.. =S okay now i am scare of another thing.. tml will be the chalet.. gosh.. will i survive through?? i am so worry.. hopefully everything turn out well bah..let's pray hard k.. and hope lao tian ye hear my praying.. tml dont rain and let it be a sunny day!! =D

i was unable to sleep yesterday night.. i was feeling nervous as i noe i will be getting my results back at 9am.. the whole night i was thinking when will my message ring..

at 8.55am.. finally my phone ring.. i was awake by the sound and took a look at it.. out of my surprise.. i passed all my modules.. i was overjoyed.. but then i was far too tired so i went back to sleep after looking at the message.. woke up at 12noon and message eileen.. she also passed all her modules.. wah realy hengz man.. lao tian ye really helping me.. heex.. went online as soon as i woke up and checked on my GPA.. but i was not really happy about my GPA.. although it still hit my target of GPA 3.. i still not really happy about it.. but i guess i should be contented bah.. =)) this semester was not a good semester bah.. many things happened but i still feel a big relieve that i can promote to year 2.. a person should really feel contented even though is not what he/she wish for bah.. shall strive harder next time.. =))

today should be a happy day.. but of out the sudden.. i was feeling dam moody lah.. all thanks to my mummy.. she was nagging at me once again.. wah piangz.. feel so irritated lah.. i was watching hanakimi on my lappie and she was sweeping my room.. then she just nag me out of the sudden lah.. wah kaoz.. siao de leh.. i watched show also never say anything mah.. piangz.. she must be mad today lah.. arghz!! okay nevermind dont care about her jiu can liao.. crazy her.. =X haish..

another thing is dont noe what the hell happen to my lappie lah.. it is getting very lag.. and some of the keys could not be type out.. arghz.. i shall backup all my files and asked acer for servicing.. i dont care le lah.. it is getting out of hands.. even now i cant file share without any reasons.. i think i better cure it fast.. hmm..

just now my junior daniel called and asked whether i wanted to attend the SJAB BBQ today at vista park.. but when he called.. it was already 7pm.. and i havent prepare hao so i told him i see how first but in the end.. i didnt go.. it was rather late le.. and no one was there for my batch except for him.. hmm so didnt go in the end le..

tml having a date with xinyi and sockping but.. until now.. no news at all lah.. who noes what will happen next.. so i shall not go for high possiblity of going out tml.. and i rejected leen date.. arghz.. so stupid.. haiyoyoyo.. what should i do??? hmm..

in just 2 weeks time.. i went sentosa once again.. haha.. everytime with different groups of people.. hmm.. i wonder when will i go with this group of gers and guys.. ha!! today went with godsisters all.. wah.. quite fun.. cause we cooked there.. haha.. cant imagine bah..

when we reached it was drizzling.. gosh.. the kids were complaining about not having fun cause it was raining.. but i guess the rain gd heard their complain.. it stopped raining after awhile.. then when we reached palawan beach.. we found ourselves a shady spot and settle down.. godpa did the cooking there.. mummy and may auntie bought food and stuffs.. then godpa started cooking fishball.. hotdogs.. wu chan rou.. cheese toufu.. eggs.. alot neh.. then we ate it.. all busy chatting and laughing.. the kids were the most busy one.. haha.. running here and there.. playing with sands.. actually i dont really intend to go down into the sea.. but with no choice.. cause annabelle and wendy were splashing water at me.. i was all wet.. they poured water de lah.. it was mummy who saved me.. lolx.. after eating.. i brought them to the sea water and played.. aileen was afraid.. she was clinging so tightly on me.. then godpa came over.. carried her down the sea.. she cried man.. but awhile jiu okay le.. then godma came over and brought her to the children play area.. she was having fun.. haha.. we were like so busy.. rushing here and there.. running all around.. then really go sun burn man.. hmm.. went washing up at around 4pm.. then it started to drizzle again.. gosh.. this time round it was heavy rain.. we ran quickly into the shelter.. but soon it was bright again.. went to put the things in the car and left to the musical fountain..

it was the very first time i watched the musical fountain raining heavily.. ended up godpa had to buy 8 disposable raincoat which cost $16.. so expensive.. we had no choice.. intially it wasnt that heavy rain.. but out of the sudden.. it came pouring down.. everyone didnt leave their seats.. but we left.. cause godma insisted to leave.. as our butt are all wet cause of the sudden downpour.. but later we didnt go off.. we stand by the side as the musical was about to begin.. you noe what.. it seems so funny.. when the musical starts.. the rain actually stop.. issit it weird?? but overall.. it was nice.. heex.. i lurv it man.. =D my wish was finally granted.. haha.. later we went to newton circle to have our dinner.. we went home after that.. the kids were tired.. all fell asleep during the journey.. i was tired too.. lie on annabelle's back and sleep.. haha..

tml is the day.. i am getting my result.. will it be a bad one?? i am feeling scared.. i enjoyed myself for the past few weeks and now it is going to be time to panick.. haish.. i pray hard to the god that i dont fail any of my modules.. i pray hard to the god that i can get at least GPA of 3.. will you help me to pray too?? i hope you do..

i having this thinking once again after reading something.. does she really means what she say?? who noe.. haish.. i promise myself not to think all this.. but i cant.. why am i so stupid?? i have no one to confess to.. i feel bad.. where are all my listeners and frenz?? are they gone?? i am feeling sad and lonely once again.. why?? why is my mood keep changing?? i thought i told myself to be happy and life should be use to enjoy?? but i cant do that.. i felt that i am missing something.. what is it?? no one noes.. will keeping myself busy useful?? will numbing myself useful?? i dont think so.. so i bet nothing can help actually.. my soul is slowly disappearing from the world.. =(

wah.. i am early today man.. hahaha.. i am feeling very tired and sleepy.. i shall sleep early today bah.. hmm.. went to sentosa again with my secondary frenz.. heex.. i miss them neh.. today quite a lot of them turn up.. got jazzreel weeling lihui gary weelong faizal yusoff helmi hasanah nadiah farhana kah khoon heye marvin tinshen zhikuan jolyon amaluna cheewei.. i hope i didnt left anyone out.. i got short term memory lah.. cannot blame.. heex.. weiyang did turn up by he left before we even step into sentosa.. he went to meet his gf.. haha..

wah today was like really sun tanning man.. i am turning charcoal le lah.. hmm.. but i had fun with them.. we played captain ball.. my favourite game!! haha.. i did score 2 balls.. haha.. we played 2 rounds of games with different partners.. each round was 10 balls.. really very fun neh.. so long didnt play le.. i lurv playing by the beach but i hate becoming charcoal.. oops.. then after the games we rest awhile and went to play water.. intitially i do not wish to go down.. only wanted to wet the legs.. but somehow cause of jolyon.. he actually wanted to push me down then i walked away lah.. the sands too soft.. so i fell.. and i was wet.. so stupid lah.. then jolyon kept splashing water.. arghz.. we stayed in the water for awhile then went to the opposite side of sentosa.. took photos.. then went bathing.. when i came out after bathing.. then i realised it was 5pm liao.. so we went out and had our dinner.. after dinner.. some went to choa chu kang kbox while me and lihui went home.. the malays went dont noe where.. kah khoon korkor and heye went home without having dinner..

my hands are feeling hot.. my face too.. i guess i got sun burn bah.. and tml i am returning there again with my godsisters all.. hmm.. feel tired le.. yawnz.. next time then i post out the pictures bah.. =))

hoho.. this is the first time i went to IKEA and Courts located at Tampiness.. haha.. sound so sua ku lah.. oops.. heex..

went to courts first and was looking around at level 1.. later which went up to level 2 and had our tea break.. haha.. godpa ordered fish n chips while mummy and godma ordered satay and curry chicken.. quite nice but the bread wasnt that nice.. later we proceeded to level 3 and we spent a lot of time there.. i bought the creative ear pieces.. mummy wanted to buy washing machine as our house de going to spoil le.. so she looked around.. she wanted to buy one $500plus de but daddy said very expensive asked her go see see first.. so ended up didnt buy.. then godpa went to try one OTO machine which will make the whole body shake de.. i also tried mummy and godma also tried.. wah like really very good.. actually really buying de liao.. but somehow dont noe what happen ended up never buy loh.. bu ran i got place to go for slimming down liao.. and that is godma's house.. but too bad lah.. we also had the homemade waffles with ice-cream.. yummy man.. heex.. later went down to level 2 to look at those furniture.. but with no interest.. we went to IKEA next..

wah IKEA really sell lot of things neh.. first time i been to IKEA.. and i saw children play area.. no wonder my 2 godsisters lurv going IKEA.. cause they can play there.. hmm.. IKEA is also very big.. like cant walk finish de lah.. saw one cabinet.. told mummy that next time i wanted to buy that then throw away my 2 lousy cabinets.. it cost $129.. quite expensive ar.. then still buy one small table put beside my bed.. which i can put my handphone alarm clock all.. it costs $19.90.. this one can buy.. haha.. mummy said that next time wait for daddy come then say.. oops.. means i have to wait quite long.. haha..

went to east coast park de food village and had our dinner.. was very full after that.. then we went walk walk.. my 2 godsisters were playing with sands.. mummy they all were talking to may auntie on phone asking her whether tuesday want to go sentosa.. haha.. and we are heading down to sentosa on tuesday.. wahahaha.. tml i also going sentosa.. wah.. mad man.. but i am enjoying myself.. heex.. =))

meet up with rain kuku and her stead.. off we went to suntec for the IT fair and movie.. it took us a very very long time to reach suntec convention centre man.. everywhere was jam due to a lot of people.. wah.. maddie de lah.. we didnt go to the IT fair first as we wanted to book the movie tickets first.. but who noe.. it was totally full and so no movie today.. quite sad.. actually going to kbox but kinda late liao.. like so bo hua lah.. so cancelled it too.. told rain i felt like eating sushi.. so our final decision was.. YUKI YAKI!!! hehe..

went to IT fair and felt disappointed and walked out.. the people there were like cannot move de loh.. very squeezy and cannot even asked things.. the ear piece that i wanted to buy from creative was sold out.. i squeezed all my way in but nothing to buy in the end.. many people were buying printers and LCD screen.. the stuffs there really very cheap as compared to outside.. the ear piece only cost $10 at IT fair.. but cost $39 at the creative shop.. see the BIG different?? it was such a waste that i didnt get the ear piece.. haish.. then i squeezed all the way out once again..

headed to yuki yaki.. have our breakfast lunch and dinner there.. haha.. ate those food until so full lah.. now dont have the baby octopus le.. sad sad.. change to squid.. but still taste quite nice lah.. heex.. after eating walked walked awhile then go home le.. then me and rain went to causeway point walked walked.. she bought some cereal home to eat.. and finally after so long not schooling.. i drank bubbles tea again.. hehe.. yummy.. then went I.P Zone to buy shirt cause having offer.. rain bought one while i also bought one.. actually want to buy that purple de.. but all left with small size.. so didnt buy.. but i sure go to other outlets and see.. lot one de should have bah.. =))

anyway.. today i got my last year xmas de pressie from rain and kuku.. they bought me the wallet i want.. thanks.. at first i still blur blur lah.. kuku asked that time i want that wallet now still have mah.. i thought she wanted to see.. so i bring her go see.. then she just took it to the counter and got a new one.. i shocked lah.. but still thank them for giving me the wallet.. =DD

okay i was late when meeting up with clement and dionne for our sheng song trip.. haha.. i was only at admiratly mrt when it was 2pm.. haha.. nevermind.. this is the usual me when i meeting other people except for some..

today woke up rather late as yesterday only slept at 5am after listening to xinyi clubbing trip.. she sounded so high.. haha.. 6plus was being woken up by someone message no choice i woke up and replied.. who noes.. he called at 7plus and thinking that i was awake.. when noe-ing i wasnt awake he aplogised and said that i should be like him wake up early.. gosh.. but he noe that i only slept at 5am so cannot blame ar..

went to sheng song and searched for those things that we need.. went back to school and had our meeting.. we ordered the food and do out the budget list and da ta.. we are done.. hehe.. now just hoping that this activity can be carry out smoothly.. *pray*

tml i will be going on a movie trip.. yippee.. quite long didnt watch movie le.. one month.. haha.. not too bad afterall ar.. then going down to IT fair to get my creative ear piece.. mine is spoilt.. hmm.. how i wish i got lot of money now and i can buy a camera home.. haish.. mummy said that it was kinda useless to buy camera cause we already have one.. but i hope to buy a better one.. mummy said if she got money she will buy a video camera cause it can video and take pictures.. yup quite true but it is kinda heavy.. haha.. but i will wait for the day to come.. =))

after astro went to macdonald again!! gosh.. fat fat fat!!! die le lah.. how am i going to slim down if i continue like that.. arghz.. let's go exercise.. who want to join me?? haha.. say say only.. bleahx.. when we are signing the idenmity form i felt so gek lah.. that person ar keep playing around.. gek!! shall slap him one day.. LOL~ now i have to call him again to complete the form.. arrr...

i must control myself man.. i need to sleep before 2am everyday and i must keep this target.. my hei yan quan getting darker and pimples coming out.. cannot!! it must come to a STOP!! jia you ger.. keep to the time!! =)

i did something wrong once again.. i made people worry i made people shock.. sorry once again but i return to my ownself once again..

when i was feeling really moody and down.. i left my lappie for one hour to watch wanyu.. and it indeed made my day.. i had a great laugh when renfu they all were playing some mo qi game.. after which i forget everything and i smile.. sometimes i really feel that whenever i see shows host by 5566 all.. i will always get a good laugh.. how i wish whenever i am feeling moody and down.. i can see 5566 around.. they always make my days however sometimes they dont.. that is when during chasing.. but i shall always remember the happy moment.. =))

i feel touch when xinyi say she willing to pao milo for me.. and will make me smile and not frown.. hehex.. she is the best neh.. she never fail to make me smile.. but sometimes she make me feel worry.. she is the only ger who always make me worry.. cause i cant catch what she is thinking.. she kept everything in herself and i wouldnt be able to noe what she is thinking.. she is too secretive.. heex.. i pang-sehed her once again today.. daddy called at around 6pm and told mummy that he had asked his frenz what kind of place is MOS.. so he got his answer and he allowed me to go.. but it was kinda late and i havent even call those people to confirm the chalet thingy.. and most importantly i mei you confidence to go to that place.. even though i noe xinyi will protect me but i am still afraid.. haish.. hope she went there and have lot of fun bah.. =))

things have been going round my mind for this few days.. i have been wondering if one really have to give up on something.. what will it be?? lurv frenz family studies are all things which i cant give up.. i dont mind giving up others but surely not those 4.. especially frenz and family.. that why i always lurv my frenz and family.. i treat them more than any other things.. i cant survive without them.. but sometimes i dont noe how to express my lurv for them.. i am lousy in this.. i think i should need to give up on certain things one day.. this is to make sure i have a happier life.. but currently i wouldnt give up anything.. =))

it shall be a busy week for me next week.. gambatah!! =D

oh ya.. sat is my nephew raidon bdae party.. haish.. i make a decision and i am not going in.. my cousin was kinda shock.. this also isnt the first time i not going for my nephews bdae party.. haha.. last time xiangfeng one year old bdae party i also never go cause i was heading to my 5566 de concert.. then when chunjie one year old bdae i also didnt go cause i was having exam.. then now is cause i got date.. so not much different.. but i shall make myself free when it come to xuanxuan bdae.. heex.. cause i dote her most.. haha.. what a bad ECH educator.. oops.. =X

today date was cancelled yesterday night.. eileen was unable to make it as her bf is sick.. so we cancelled our date..

rushing my proposal and send it to the rest of the in-charges.. but none of them read through my proposal yet.. haish.. hopefully either one of them will reply me soon bah.. then i am able to send it to evelyn as soon as possible.. wishing that i never do a bad job..

currently my mood totally change.. i am not longer feeling happy.. i am worried and afraid.. many many things for me to worry.. what should i do.. nothing i guess.. hmm.. today shall be an emo post whereby people will come by killing me if possible.. well kill me le i die isnt it be good?? no one will ever pity you de.. i am lost once again in the woods without knowing what i should do.. who want to pull me out of the woods once again and be my jiu xing??

i had enough of complains.. i am tired.. why cant i stop having complains for just one day?? i have lot of things to do but people are just coming in telling what what what.. i had enough.. i want to make a stop.. but it doesnt stop at all.. no one noe how tough it is inside me.. no one.. and none noe what to do.. leaving it to me and i start to feel the stress.. i dont noe what is going on.. i begin to worry.. next week astro chalet no one come and it is not a success.. why am i always the one worrying while the rest can still freely go anywhere they like?? they never ask.. they dont even bother.. i feel scared.. things go wrong whoes fault? all mine.. just mine.. no one will care.. i am also lousy.. i feel lousy too.. why am i so lousy that everyone tend to comment so much?? haiz..

i cried once again for some stupid reasons.. cried twice for another stupid thing.. why am i always that foolish one to keep crying?? =((

actually should be going to club with xinyi tml de.. but somehow daddy says i can go if i will be back around 12am.. i was like.. huh.. how can that be.. it is totally impossible.. cause entering time is 9pm and maybe later queue until 9plus go in.. which means i need to go home at 10plus.. maddie.. so i choose the path of not going.. daddy didnt scold but he just worry that i am going home alone in cab.. haish.. and i guess i made xinyi disappointed bah.. honestly.. i did want to go.. but somehow cause of certain things.. i am unable to go.. ger.. sorry.. i noe somehow you feel irritated lah cause last minute you got a group of frenz not going.. even now i am not going.. your msn-ing to me seems angry.. just now when i called you also not like that de.. that why i noe.. haish..

what should i do?? i am useless.. i am sad.. =((

oh yeah!! where did yvonne went today?? haha.. she had become a normal kid and went to the ZOO!!! haha.. everything there was fun.. i enjoyed watching the animals.. hehe.. so let start my day rolling..

meet up with rain.. kuku and jiabao at 10.3oam at our lao di fang.. somehow i was late again.. but i was not the latest in this case.. haha.. rain and kuku were the latest.. haha.. headed down to macdonald once again to have our breakfast cum lunch.. i told myself not to eat mac again.. but i ate it again.. haiyoyo.. cannot!! hmph.. anyway after eating took a cab to zoo.. but it was not a nice trip.. the taxi uncle was rude.. me jiabao and rain boarded the taxi and the uncle just drove off.. we shouted cause kuku had not boarded yet and the uncle was like what still said we should have one person to go to the front and sit first so he noe.. kaoz.. got like that de meh.. pig de leh..

okay fine reached zoo and got inside.. first station was the white tiger.. they are so big and huge.. gosh.. it had been 2 years since i last see a white tiger.. haha.. i actually forgotten where i went after that.. but most scary part was during the animal show.. wah liew jiabao insisted to sit in front of the box and there is a big python inside.. wah piangz.. then the zoo keeper was making everyone feeling nervous.. then it was so scary when the person took out the python.. guess where i went.. i actually went to the far end and only went back to my seat after the zoo keeper took the python away.. the python is really huge.. it look scary too!!! gosh.. but this time round.. the animals show doesnt have orang utan performing.. i wanted to see that but it dont have.. haiyo.. so stupid.. i guess they cancel that part already.. not good de.. haha.. really have fun today seeing all thoe animals.. some of them are cute.. some of them are scary.. eeee.. haha.. no pictures for now cause rain hasnt send me yet.. we wait slowly for her to send k.. =))

after zoo trip we went to kbox!! haha.. i just told xinyi yesterday how i wish i am able to go kbox.. so today rain they all allow me to fulfill my dream.. yippee.. sing really lot of songs.. actually our timing is until 3am.. but we didnt stay there that long.. we left at 11.20pm.. quite satisfied with today singing.. haha.. have fun man.. i want to go back again soon!!

rain had been asking what happened to me today.. do i really look like i am having some problems inside me?? actually i also dont really noe what is happening.. i just feeling abit moody.. but i guess it will be alright soon bah.. just feel like crying and after crying i will be fine.. but i dont dare to cry.. many many things bothering me and i am unable to solve it.. what should i do?? sobx sobx.. :'( will crying out help?? i wonder..

wah.. today i went to SENTOSA!!! hehe.. really great to go there man.. it has been around half a year i never been there.. but last time i went.. i only went to the palawan beach.. but now.. i went to the underwater world.. dolphin lagoon and the skyride.. cool man.. really fun.. but somehow.. it was like so pathetic.. cause hannah actually wei le some people.. she changed the class outing date to today.. actually it was last week.. but who noe.. it turn out to be only me.. eileen.. liyu and hannah.. i dont understand why some people last minute dont come.. but i shall not say much bah cause people have their own activity..

anyway was late when meeting leen.. haha.. reached habour front at 11.45am and the meeting time is 11.30am!! haha.. hannah was standing there waiting alone.. we saw liyu at outram park mrt and she shocked me out of my life.. someone suddenly tap me on my arms while i am talking to leen.. lolx..

took a bus in to sentosa and our first station is UNDERWATER WORLD!!! haha.. spent a lot of time there at the touch pool sia.. and first time in my life.. i touched a SHARK!! but it just a baby shark.. haha.. the skin of the shark was rather rough and somehow it was a bit frightening man.. they just rushed here and there.. they will also come out to the surface man.. scary!! saw otter too.. they actually kiss.. haha.. so sweet right?? below is the picture they kissed.. hehe..

saw many different kinds of fishes and sharks today.. really had a lot of fun there too.. we also had some photos taken and made it into a keychain.. haha.. quite nice.. hehex.. shall put it on my pencil case.. haha..

our next stop was to the dolphin lagoon to see the show.. but the time is still early.. so we went to take the sentosa express.. but to me.. last time de tram was better.. cause it was one cabinet by one cabinet de.. now is like MRT.. just that it is shorter in length only.. we took one big round and reached vivo city.. but was asked to come down by one of the worker there.. but somehow when the next train come.. they dont asked those inside to come out.. and we were like.. what.. they just now said we were not allow to stay in the train!! arghz.. nevermind.. suan le.. so we went to dolphin lagoon.. haha.. we stopped at imbiah station and took a red line there.. and wah.. so many people waiting to see the show.. we had no chairs to sit so we sat on the table.. it was burning hot too.. the pink dolphins are really cute and adorable.. how i wished i am able to go down to touch them.. but it needs money.. $13 for two people.. wah.. so expensive.. so we gave it a miss..

headed to the beach tram and to the beach station.. took the sentosa express to imbiah station and off we went to the luge and skyride.. luge was fun.. eileen was screaming all along.. haha.. but she was having lot of fun too ar.. but most scary was the skyride.. and we forgot to take off our shoes.. so me and eileen were like.. oh my god how how how.. we couldnt relax lah.. then the skyride stopped suddenly and we shouted lah.. haha.. we waved hi to those ang mohs.. haha.. they must thought we were crazy!! haha.. after the skyride.. went to coffee beans to have a drink.. wah.. nice ice blended chocolate.. but quite expensive.. luckily is long long one time.. haha..

that marked the end of our outing today.. we went home after that.. had a lot of fun and enjoyed myself lot lot.. =)) i lurv ya guys!! muackz..

wah.. today i got a damn last minutes date!! daddy woke me up at 1.10pm and asking whether i wanted to go chinatown with godma all to see fire cracker.. i was like what.. i woke up and asked mummy what time they going.. to my surprise.. she said 2pm.. what the hell.. now already 1.15pm and 2pm we are leaving.. gosh.. thought of not going de.. but mummy said you now go prepared lah.. so i quickly bathed and prepared hao hao.. ate my lunch and i was ready to go by 2pm.. so zun lah.. and broke record man!! but mummy was slow.. haha.. she 2.05pm then finished eating..

meet up with godma and we went to chinatown.. reached chinatown only they went to eat kong ba pau at OG de.. then walked walked at OG.. saw many many cute cute de stuffs.. but didnt buy lah.. no money.. haha.. nothing at chinatown also.. cause new year is ending and there is no stall selling things liao.. 6pm jiu went for dinner at the CK there.. after dinner jiu book place at the performance there.. stand until my legs hurts man.. shouldnt have wore heels out lah cause i didnt noe i had to stand there so long.. but still worth it bah.. cause it is really beautifly.. my godsis all like crazy lah.. shout here shout there.. but got some aunties and uncles dont noe how to zhi dong de lah.. small kids want stand in front then can see mah.. they go squeezed in and the kids have to go out lah.. dont they noe they are tall enough to see while kids are all so short and small.. gosh.. this people ar.. dont noe how to think de leh..

wah not very happy lah.. we supposed to call those people from astro to confirm their attendance whether they will be attending the overnight activity.. now someone took the excuse of going to genting and pass all the contacts to me.. i am very angry lah.. i already said to call yesterday or today afternoon.. but that person didnt even bother.. what is this lah.. now i had to call again for him.. do i look like a slave?? i have to do all that for everyone?? then why did we agree to split job.. if i didnt split to the other 2.. then doesnt it means i have to contact 90plus people all by myself?? hate it man.. no one understand how fearful i am when i had to call those people whom i not really noe.. those people who are actually seniors of mine.. arghz.. angry angry!!

no one in msn chatting with me.. how pitiful i am today.. i am feeling bored.. i am angry.. no one seems to be there to listen to me.. fine.. i shall turn in early today!! i have to remain cool.. i cannot burst out all my anger!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

today woke up at 12plus.. cause daddy go open my room de door!!! once i heard noise i will wake up de lah.. so no choice.. woke up liao.. then waited for my lunch until 3pm.. wah hungry lah.. haha..

there have been an intruder in my house today.. but this intruder look beautiful.. da ta.. it was a butterfly.. it was a blue butterfly.. look really beautifly.. daddy was the first one who saw it when he was leaving for work.. then he called out for mummy to see.. but i went out instead cause mumy taking the clothes back after hanging.. so me and didi went out to see.. haha.. mummy came out later.. she was shocked.. she said "eeyer.. she meh lai de.. oh.. hu die ar.. wei shen meh lan she de??" wah.. her question very funny lah.. how we noe why blue.. -.-"

went godma house today.. godma finally give hongbao.. oops.. haha.. then heard from mummy yesterday godpa got win toto.. around 1k plus.. so he treat us eat hao liao today.. got crabs all man.. but i hardly eat.. cause i dont really like bah.. i only like the sauce.. yum yum.. dip it with bread.. haha.. that my dinner for today.. hehex..

took photo with aileen and had lot of fun and laughter today.. haha.. i had a mini tatoo fair today!! haha.. at first start asking annabelle whether she wanted to write her name on her arm.. she agreed and i wrote and drew.. then aileen came over and shouted all over for just a tatoo on her arm too.. wrote for her and then here come amelia and aaron.. haha.. after that i thought it was done.. but.. annabelle came over and wanted more.. so i suggested drawing on legs.. and everyone had tatoo on legs too.. haha.. they are like all become so high lah.. for just a washable tatoo.. haha.. but it was fun anyway..

didnt gamble today.. haha.. no win no lose.. actually playing de.. but dont noe why there dont want play liao.. so only chatting chatting.. godsis gu ma asking me to join her insurance company when i turn 21.. but.. that is not what my goal for life.. my goal is to operate my own childcare centre.. gu ma talked a lot.. but that dont interest me.. she even tell mummy about it.. what do you think mummy will think?? haa.. bet she also wouldnt agree on it de.. wahaha.. then they venture out to opening childcare.. gu ma said that she also thought of opening a childcare but lack of someone to operate.. ask me to study degree and be the principal of the childcare.. wah.. talk until like so real.. haha.. i will be waiting for this day to come.. wahaha..

just did a test again.. haha..

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today is another day which wascraining.. gosh.. when i was about to leave house.. it started pouring so heavily lah.. and i had no choice but to bring an umbrella out.. which i dont like.. arghz.. whose fault?? xinyi fault.. cause she said she dont like sun.. ger ar.. please say that you like the sun and ask mr sun to come out again k?? haha..

dont noe what happened to the MRT today.. admiratly going towards kranji was out of use.. i was in amaze when i saw so many SMRT buses at the bus stop.. still thinking there was some events going on.. then was told that no MRT going to jurong east unless take bus to kranji take MRT.. what the hell.. i was thinking will i be able to reach school in time.. in the end.. took bus to school.. no choice.. later night xinyi then told me cause someone was being hit by the MRT.. gosh.. what is happening.. nowadays many cases either people committing sucide by jumping down the track.. dont understand what people are thinking.. why they like to do this way.. life should be fully enjoy.. even meet with certain problems must also be strong to solve it.. dont think about ending life.. life is precious man..

attended astro meeting.. and everything was almost settle for our activity.. except for the confirmation of the numbers of people going for the activity.. was actually quite good ba.. hopefully everything turn out to be fine..

meet up with xinyi at night after astro.. went for supper at chua chu kang lot one macdonald.. very very full man.. haha.. left home at 11pm..

nothing to blog le.. just wanted to show my pictures again.. haha.. have a look!!

this is my precious kuku family!! we always see 5566 together.. during chasing time was always fun and enjoyable.. we never fail to enlighten one another everytime.. i lurv them i miss them.. when will we meet our again and play?? anway.. having a date with some of kuku family and we are heading for a movie!! yippee.. finally.. dont ever forget our date!!

hello people.. my meeting was cancel today and i was at home having nothing to do bu to watch my dvd and do up my alphabets chart.. haha.. meeting was cancel due to the rain.. cause we cant do anything in the park when it was raining like mad.. shouldnt it suppose to be sunny season now?? but the rain hasnt been stopping since yesterday.. gosh.. when will it stop?? this rain will cause flooding in some parts of malaysia.. please stop raining!!

astro meeting tomorrow again.. hmm.. hopefully our plan will work out well bah.. and imagine.. i have to come out with $40 for the activity first.. haish.. i am left with $20 only!! how am i going to survive man.. no need head down to wendy there too.. arghz.. die die die.. next week still needa go out with my kuku family and eileen and my poly classmates!! gosh.. i am totally broke..
dont care le lah.. shall post up some pictures which i made..

this is my ice age participants.. i always had lot of fun when i was with them.. thinking back.. during the first day of the camp.. none of them response to me when i talk to them.. it was kinda sad.. at first thought there was nothing i can do to help.. but they change totally during the second day.. and it was fun.. we had a lot of cheers and fun together.. but too bad.. i couldnt have all the pictures.. they havent send it to us.. they really make my day during the camp.. i dont regret attending the camp and becoming a GL for my dear ice age.. miss them liao.. going to organise an outing again soon!!! =))

this is my childcare kids.. arent they adorable?? haha.. i do miss them neh.. it had been a month since i left the centre.. hmm.. wondering when will i have a chance to see them.. but i guess this is really impossible ba.. cause i will never see them liao.. unless one day i go back to the centre.. also dont noe whether the centre will allow us to go back mah.. hopefully they are doing fine in the centre and enjoying their life there.. =))

there are some tests did by me too.. haha..too bored le lah.. so do all the tests...

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today is a super bored day.. actually had to do something.. but in the end.. i didnt go and do..

wanted to post the pictures that i had create yesterday online de.. but it somehow dont alone me to upload it.. kept giving me all sort of problems.. dont noe what happened to blogger today man.. haish..

today didnt eat dinner.. cause had my lunch cum breakfast at 2pm.. and was eating the new year cookies while i was watching xin niang 18 shui.. haha.. so in the end wasnt hungry at all when mummy and godma went dinner at 6pm.. just had a bowl of bo bo char char.. haha..

went to spectacle shop to see the spect mummy said.. and i saw the identical one with the one i wanted to buy at toa payoh.. so mummy asked the price of it.. oh gosh.. it cost $198.. toa payoh that shop only $160.. but i still dont when i will go and make spect.. hopefully before the astro chalet ba.. cause surely wouldnt be wearing lenses out.. cause there will be bbq.. dont wish to be like last time.. play and eat while people bbq for us.. so bad loh.. heex..

ting ting sent me one story.. which is written by her.. quite a nice story.. that was only the shang ji and i was waiting patiently for the xia ji.. hehe.. this kin of story will never ever happen in real life.. but i dont noe why i hoping that it will actually happen.. romantic lurv story seems to be attracting me.. this is how a ger react to a romantic lurv story?? maybe i am abnormal ba.. haha.. i lack of this kind of lurv so i am wishing for it.. oops.. being too desperate le oh.. haha.. if i have a peaceful life i will be happy le ar.. hoho..

leen is going mad!!!! she is getting more and more lame nowadays.. i dont noe how to help her man.. still dont want help me take back my precious VCD from her company manager.. pig her de lah.. oops.. =SsSs everyday waiting for the VCD to come back to me lah.. haha.. i think she really too bored le lah.. come online only mad liao.. haha.. must make her return to her real self somehow.. haha.. oopss.. she going to kill me when she see this.. hehex..

tml early in the morning da jie will come my house to sleep for awhile before leaving for work.. she starting to work from tml onwards.. and xuanxuan will be staying at san yi house until friday night.. san yi will be taking care of her.. hmm.. san yi requested me to go in and help her.. cause she need to take care of lei lei too.. but i still dont noe my schedule.. so i cant promise to help her out.. i still not sure neh.. haish.. if i am really going to help her out.. should be after astro outreach program for primary school kids ba.. see how ba.. if i really go there.. i will miss all my frenz man.. cannot go out.. cannot online.. gosh.. i will die lah.. haish..

that all bah.. going to sleep early today.. tml going to pasir ris park for meeting.. got to wake up early.. hmm..

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