haiz.. another boring day at home le.. haiz.. no job for me too.. wat should i do lei?? arghz.. dunno.. haha.. today suppose to clear room de.. BUT!!! i was too engross in the korea show kim sam soon.. so la.. den end up didnt clear room.. so stupid.. haiz..
ytd ganna force to webcam wit ppl sia.. so pig de.. i swear no more webcam forever sia.. tis is settle.. so i shall not go on wit the story on wat happen.. cos dun wan say le.. lolx.. hehe.. tml going back to rss le.. yeah!!!! going to see my lovely teachers.. but quite bad lei.. cos i nv buy anything for him.. only miss ong and mrs lee got cos i share money wit the rest of my frenz lo.. haiz.. feel bad abt it neh.. arghz.. and oso hope tat all my teachers are still there la.. cos i really miss them alot neh..haiz.. i wonder how wun tml be like??? *wondering in process* hehe.. den maybe tml going out wit jazz they all to hav lunch together ba.. hehe.. must hav a lot of fun oh..
den today another guy from friendster add me again in msn.. lolx.. nowadays keep got ppl add me in friendster sia.. so stupid.. haha.. suan le la.. nv meet them can le.. hehe.. jus be online frenz ba.. lolx.. wahaha.. hehe.. hoho.. i think i am getting abit siao liao.. haiz.. k la.. i go see my kim sam soon le.. hehe.. until ep 9 le oh.. wahahah..

ya ya ya.. come back from chalet le.. hehe.. but veyr very tired.. cos of 2 ppl la.. dun wan make them ma lu la.. so decided not to write their name down.. so jus name them a & b lo.. wah piangz.. whole chalet they were like cling together le lo.. cant fen kai de.. den reach chalet straight go up to the room den lie down hug together liao.. wah piangz.. like we dun exist de sia.. den after awhile we go out walk walk.. haiz.. really damn sianz sia.. nth to do de.. arghz.. den nite go eat dinner lo.. after dinner come back le.. den nth to do.. bath den say wan go to the park to walk walk.. den all the rest of them got bf to hand their hands.. so romantic sia.. bleah.. den i alone sia.. walk alone.. den so dark.. so scary oso.. den jian siang very stupid de lo.. keep wan scare me.. i alrdy so sacre le.. still wan scare me.. arghz.. den we say hurry go back la.. cos some of us are scare lo.. so we u turn go back chalet.. go back chalet we talk and talk play and play.. but mostly is couple play de.. so lo.. den at nite.. a & b say wan sleep le.. cos veyr tired.. so we off light.. off light they talk and talk.. make ppl cant sleep.. den we on back the light.. den we play for a while.. actually decide to ton whole nite de.. a & b keep saying every tired.. wan sleep.. so we off light again.. but who kn.. they keep kissing and makin all sort of sound lo.. arghz.. den i cnat tahan le.. i call jazz call me.. den we talk and talk for 1 hr plus.. i oso dun wan chao her le.. so ask her go sleep ba.. den i alone sit on the chair for very long.. until 5plus ppl drag me go sleep lo.. den sleep awhile until 8plus decided to wake up and bath and go home.. den today gastric very pain.. cos the nite b4 hungry le but no eat lo.. haiz.. den morning breakfast eat yakun den still drink ice milo.. so lo.. den very xin ku.. den afternoon come back sleep le.. sleep until 7pm lo.. den gastric still pain.. den a bit cough oso lo.. haiz.. wan bdae le lei.. still sick.. arghz.. cannot!!! haiz.. den today cindy they all go far east lo.. must say sorry to them first.. i decided not to go de.. den i guess they angry le.. haiz.. SORRY!! =(

yes!!!.. congrat myself.. cos i finally decided to give up.. ytd thinking abt it le.. but today when he online he talk to me.. den think twice again.. den jus now.. sq was saying let fate decide ba.. den i suddenly come to mind tat i should give up on him.. tat it!!! I AM GIVING UP LE!!!! no more abt him.. he is my frenz now.. so lo... haha.. i feel very relax now.. dunno why.. maybe a heavy stone hav been remove le ba.. hehe.. soo happy.. think him as a guy who make me kn wat is lurv all abt ba.. must congrat me oh.. hehe..

haiz.. i dunno wat happen sia recently.. jue de zi ji hen bu xiang zi ji lo.. haiz.. today afternoon start to online.. den see him online so chat wit him lo.. den he playing games.. can u imagine.. he have beed askin wat i am doing for 3 times lo.. dunno wat he doing sia.. lolx.. but feel quite happy.. cos he jin ran will ask me lo.. den he oso say i use too much emotion le.. so hen nan understand wat i talkin.. so i change all le.. tis help me cos maybe next time can talk more le lo.. hehe.. quite happy lo.. cos he playing games but he still reply me in msn.. haha..
but one more thing which make me sad.. i knew a guy from friendster u oso kn.. tat guy i today ask pics from him.. den he say he dun have ot.. he say le.. he need until oct den will have pics ma.. but i keep ask him let me see.. if not let me see den i wun talk to him le lo.. den he take it for real lo.. cos he say he dun hav any pics now.. den he oso say if i wei le yao kan pics den dun talk to him den forget it lo.. still say like i say real de lo.. make me sad lo.. den oso very scare too.. den he online dun wan talk to me lo.. i dunno why sia.. den forget it lo.. i say suan le lo.. since u dun wan talk den dun talk lo.. i cant force him to talk.. hmm..
dun care abt all tis le.. arghz.. nvm.. today watch kim sam soon on youtube.. she damn funny sia.. and oso cute.. but sometimes i think she quite ke lian neh.. haiz.. so lo.. if i was her.. i sure die.. 30yrs old le still no bf.. haiz.. me 18 le oso no bf.. so cant say ppl de.. haha..

wah.. today damn tired sia.. ytd 4am sleep.. den today 9plus daddy open my bedroom de door den i wake up le.. less den 6hrs de sleep ar.. so TIRED!!! haiz.. den today tv arrive le.. wah.. very big sia.. the box.. but lei.. the tv look so small den the box.. wahaha.. cos i guess got alot of protection ba.. haha.. so lo.. den 2plus got ppl come to hang the tv on the wall le.. wah... the sound effect from the tv not good de... so we open dvd de speaker.. haha.. den so loud lo.. wahha.. so shuang.. hehe.. den after tat left me and bro at hm lo.. mummy go msia den daddy go out le.. haha..
ytd i knew a new guy.. i view him in friendster den he view me back den we become frenz le.. hehe.. den in less den an hr time we chat alot le wor.. how i wish i can do tat wit him.. but he no chat i oso no choice le.. haiz.. den we exchange no le.. haha.. den we sms each other lo.. haha.. i realise he is quite a good ppl to chat wit.. haha.. quite good lo.. he say i cute.. LOLX.. not funny rite.. sorry ar.. i dun think i am cute.. haiz.. haha..
wah.. so sianz sia.. today whole day dunno do wat.. my holi start from wed den like doing nth tis few days sia.. tat day say i wan clean room.. den end up until now.. still haven lo.. haiz.. so stupid.. arghzz.. den within mon to wed next week must really go clean up le.. TIS IS A MUST!!!! haiz.. den jus now heard ah yi say my cousin go back wit her stead again.. wah sia.. very stupid de lo.. he lie to her still wan go stead wit him.. haiz.. dunno wat she is thinkin oso lo.. she is really a fool sia.. if me i sure wun turn back.. haiz.. i oso dunno wat to say abt her le la.. if she think tat she is happy den i oso nth to say le lo.. haiz..

wahaha.. toda wake up at 11plus.. very early lei.. cos "ah gong" call me lo.. haiyo.. wahaha.. he call me den i tot who sia.. lolx.. he ask me go lunch wit him lo.. so i say ok lo.. since he had alrdy ask me quite a few times the other day.. so i today agreed to have lunch wit him.. den he today last paper le.. and his bdae oso neh today.. haha.. so must pei him eat lunch.. if not he very sad de.. bdae no ppl pei him.. so i xi sheng.. go wit him.. lolx.. better dun let him saw tis.. if not.. sure die.. diaoz.. hehe.. den meet him at 12 at wlds mart lo.. he is late.. =( hehe.. den he eat chicken rice.. i eat prawn noodles.. wah sia.. the prawn i lazy peel off the skin so i nv eat.. haha.. 2 big prawns left inside the bowl.. diaoz.. den after tat.. we chat for a while.. den he need go off to mos le.. so we say buaix buaix lo.. hehe.. den when eatin.. saw mummy and may auntie lo.. siao sia.. they 2.. anyhow say me go pa tor.. siao.. lolx.. he my ah gong sia.. how to pa tor.. lolx.. wan pa tor oso not him ma.. bleah.. my prince charming will be him lo.. diaoz.. hehe..
den after lunch.. come home online le.. wah sia.. online do nth.. chat wit hazel den after tat see my dl de show.. after tat.. suddenly headache sia.. dunno why.. maybe sleep not enough lo.. so lo.. wah damn pain sia.. suddenly de lei.. long time no headache le ma.. why today got lei.. lolx.. den offline go see tv... see see see.. watch holland village lo.. haiz.. den after tat.. 6.30pm see chn 54 de mo fa xue yuan.. very nice.. it is a cartoon.. hehe.. den go down eat dinner wit mummy all le.. after tat come home online again.. arghz.. life is kinda boring now without sch.. go sch better neh.. but haiz.. too bad.. i like holiday but holiday wit things to do la.. haiyo.. hehe.. sianz sia.. now findin ppl to talk le.. hehe.. k la.. dun always disturb ppl ar.. hehe..

hehe.. today wake up at 12plus wor.. shiok sia.. haha.. cos only meetin zhiying at 3.30pm at orchard mrt ma.. so can sleep long long.. hehe.. den after tat.. mummy nv buy breakfast.. den she ask me eat da pau.. da pau again.. i miss canteen 1 de da pau.. cos tat one very nice neh.. hehe.. kinda miss my frenz le neh.. and the fun i have in sch.. haish..
den 2plus go take mrt le.. wah sia.. damn boring sia.. haiyo.. i bring mp3 out but who kn no batt le lo.. i oso dunno sia.. pig de.. den all the mrt keep see outside de scenary sia.. den oso waitin for him to reply my msg lo.. haiz.. wait until so long oso no reply lo.. dunno wat he is doing sia.. den after tat.. i reach le.. tat zhiying so slow sia.. wait for her to come took another 10mins.. and she is late.. late.. bleah.. cos i kn she dunno my blog so can say her late.. hehe.. bleahz.. den after.. she go take 183 de cd from wendy.. me go buy things.. me no go wendy there cos i no money now.. so dun dare go lo.. haiz.. den after tat.. we walk to scotts shoppin centre.. cos she wan take money lol.. den after tat.. we walk back to taka.. go eat mos burger.. den eat finish.. i call rain.. she say she at cine.. so me and zhiying walk there again lo.. wah.. walk so many place.. haha.. den when reach.. saw them le.. wah sia.. i jus reach lei.. ask we all go esprite.. so we walk to the shop.. den after tat.. say wan to go far east plaza take neoprint.. wah pig.. walk again.. legs very pain sia.. cos too long nv walk so far le.. hehe.. den after tat.. take neoprint lo.. eeeee... me look so ugly de sia.. dunno why always like tat de lei.. haiz.. den after tat go walk walk at level one.. hippee.. i bought an anklet.. hehe.. tat time when the old one spoilt le say wan buy but nv see the one i like den saw one i like so i buy lo.. hehe.. happy... den walk round and round level one.. den move up to other level.. after tat.. eat dinner lo.. me no eat.. me only eat the veggie all no rice.. hehe.. cos i still full ma.. den after tat.. zhiying say she wan make hat for renfu bdae.. so we go totthe shop to personalise the hat.. haha.. quite nice la.. but i guess it wun suit me de.. so lo.. hehe.. den after tat it is alrdy 9plus.. den we take mrt home lo.. den saw yiting lei.. hehe.. den talk to her lo.. haha.. after tat.. i inside mrt feel so sleepy and tired sia.. feel like sleepin sia.. but i nv sleep la.. only see there see here lo.. haha.. den after tat reach wlds.. rain parents come fetch den send us home lo.. hehe.. den reach home bath le jiu online.. wah sia.. i tot 11plus le sia.. actually online 10plus lo.. den i miss my jing san shun.. eee.. stupid.. haha..
den he reply my msg le.. wah.. imagine.. 2plus sms him den 10plus den receive his reply.. wah.. wat he doing sia.. den saw him online.. at first cant find him de cos he change nick.. lolx.. haha.. den chat wit him lo.. bully me oso.. haiz.. so ke lian de me.. bleah.. wahaha.. if he comin during my bdae i sure very happy de.. best present ever.. hehe.. den mon ask him wan go chalet ma.. he say should be can.. so hope he come ba.. hehe.. well jus hoping only la.. like tat den got ppl entertain me le.. hehe..

whole day so sianz lo.. nth to do at home.. den today damn pro sia.. i wake up at 1plus in the afternoon.. wah sia.. so pro rite.. cos ytd nite sleep at 3plus in the morning neh.. haiyo.. why like tis lei.. cos i am very sianz lo.. den cant sleep ma.. so lo.. den today online finding ppl who are over 18 years old to help me book bbq pit lo.. so find and find and find.. jie guo ne.. i find until my kor kor.. kor kor help me book le.. must really thank him neh.. cos he very good.. help me book.. not like SQ.. ask me wait until tml.. wahaha.. cos i kn he will be readin my blog.. so i must write him.. let him have some frame here.. bleah..
den after tat.. go cwp wit jazz lo.. den walk walk.. today i drink diff kind of bubbles tea neh.. green apple ice blended.. hehe.. so nice.. but after i finish the nata.. not nice le.. -_-" hehe.. wahaha.. den after tat we go MJ sia.. she la.. say wat got shuai ge over there.. wan go see.. ask me see.. lolx.. but i am not interested in shuai ge le.. lolx.. i kn wait someone will come scold me.. lolx.. hehe.. den accompany jazz eat her dinner.. den go home le.. cos she wan see ge dou tian wang!!! me cant see... cos my mummy la.. wait sat tv come.. den i can see le.. hehe..
jus now talkin to rain lo.. den she say alot of thing to me.. i ask her should i continue lurvin him or wat.. she say to me is up to me.. cos is my lurv.. she suggest maybe i talk to him more and let him feel comfortable wit me first.. den if next time i tell him den he still say this to me.. den i give up.. cos i am still young.. but i dun think i am young neh.. 18 liao veyr soon.. old le.. haiz.. so lo.. haiz.. maybe tat is fate ba.. let fate decide ba.. and hor.. cindy they all dunno wat they doin sia.. chalet still haven book den change date again neh.. haiyo.. ma fan.. must see again.. den still ask me ask him go.. den all oso haven confirm wit me.. so sad de lei.. haiz.. tml going out wit zhiying.. ask me go accompany her take her 183club de cd.. so must go lo.. den must rmb take newbie world de membercard.. so long le.. lolx.. hehe..

tis is the most worst day i ever hav for this few mths.. haiz.. today cd1.2 paper.. see le really feel like givin in blank paper sia.. i hate myself lo.. i read thru all tat b4 de lo.. but is kinda like i cant rmb anything lo.. i oso dunno why i am like tat.. so it is fate if i ever fail tat paper.. haiz.. no choice lo.. my heart wasnt there oso lo.. so lo.. who ask me ytd say le smth shouldnt be said.. i guess he tot i say real de ba.. haiz..
but my heart really pain lo.. i kn la.. lurv need to have feelin de la.. but clement say feelin can mai mai pei yang.. be frenz first.. haiz.. jus tat it is lucky tat i only say IF!!!! but the ans kinda let me feel sad ba.. it is always true tat it is better to be frenz rather den lovers??? but if tis is the case.. why are there so many ppl who are lovers in the world??? only pretty galz can help bf meh?? cant a ppl who is not pretty have bf?? i kn la.. u shuai den me not pretty.. so u indirectly de reject me le.. haiz.. tis hurt.. wei shen meh hui zhe yang??? heaven is being quite unfair to me.. it dun allow me have someone i lurv wit me and and and ... i have nth to say le..
haiz.. quite upset abt tis.. cindy say kan kai ba.. haha.. let me see ba.. hehe.. sokleng say change target ba.. haha.. cant lei.. i really lurv himt lot lot.. haiz.. i miss him neh.. why i miss him so much?? mon and tue maybe got chalet.. den all go de is pair pair de.. me alone.. can i say i dun wan go?? can i??? feel like quite extract and definitely he wun go wit us de.. cos he oso dunno all of u.. so lo.. haiz.. can i dun go?? i dun like being an extra.. haiz.. arghz.. how?? i dun go den cindy sure scold me de.. haiz.. I DUNNO!!!! HEART PAIN AND SO TROUBLE!!!

wah.. today cs1.1 paper very easy lei.. all the qn i kn how to ans wor.. so happy.. but guess got one part wrong le.. cos i think wrongly lo.. haha.. nvm.. still got others ba.. but i am so worry for tml cd1.2 paper.. wah.. is like die le lo.. i only read thru the notes lo.. i nv exactly go study on it.. die le la.. sure fail le.. haiz.. no choice le la.. cd1.2 is damn difficult lo.. haiyo.. dunno how sia.. if really fail den shi ming zhong zhu ding le lo.. haha.. bleah..
wah sia.. today go back home wit 2 zhu lo.. bully me.. so angry sia.. bully bully bully.. den i oso mei hua say liao lo.. ....... speechless.. hahaha..
jus now 5plus eileen call lo.. she say she say.. she saw him at ... wah sia.. i so long nv see him le lo.. den let eileen saw him.. heaven is unfair.. ... i wan see him.. haiz.. guess hen nan le ba.. den after tat i call sokleng lo.. i tell her wat eileen say.. she say too bad~~ lolx.. slap her sia.. den she say me why not i go tell him i like him lo.. den i wun so sad.. den got 3 outcomes.. 1 is he and me together.. 2 is still frenz.. 3 is he wun talk to me le.. haiz.. i hear tis 3 outcomes i oso xin fan sia.. dunno why.. i dun like tis kind of outcomes.. tis is bad.. haish.. wat should i really do??? haish.. i told sokleng maybe after both of us de exam den i say ba.. zhe yang bu hui ying xiang bi chi de studies lo.. so tis is better.. den cindy say wan go chalet.. den she oso got one offer de tix.. ask whether we wan go ma.. den ok lo.. we go.. haha.. she ask me ask him go oso.. let see ba.. see how lo.. haha.. actually intend say if chalet is in sept.. den maybe i can tell him during the day.. but since is next week.. den i wun say.. cos i would like to see him next sat de.. so lo.. haiz.. i am worry abt the outcomes of tis thing.. haiz..
why u think u are unwanted by ppl.. actually.. there is someone who wan u but u dunno.. haiz.. wat should i really do?? confess?? dun confess?? haiz.. someone pls lead me to wat i should do.. PLS dun ask me to think myself.. cos i really dunnO!!!!!

today a bit not in normal situation sia.. dunno why.. very high.. den online a while get scolded by rain say i siao.. cos i flood her msn wit all hahahaa hohoh heheh.. lolx.. siao le la.. haha..
i come to realise i should not everyday sad.. so i become abit siao liao.. anyway.. like tat better ma.. hao guo i mei tian dou sad dui bu dui.. haha.. ren sheng duan duan.. so must happy happy.. lolx.. i guess the feelin for him have alrdy hidden inside my heart le.. as in it is not like last time which i wan to let it out cos it is too painful.. now alrdy xi guan le.. so not so painful le.. maybe should say ma mu le.. lolx..
ya.. i kn smth.. ytd i guess i make someone sad again le.. so i must say sorry first.. i kn it is my fault again.. i promise no more this kind of thing again.. adn to another ppl.. i kn u wun forgive me.. cos i make her sad.. i dun wish for u to forgive me cos i kn i am very bad.. so it doesnt matter to me.. i only wan my friendship which will last me long long.. hehe..
jia you le for tml cs1.1 paper.. hehe.. and hor.. i realise there could be alot of ppl readin my blog neh.. but den hor.. no ppl tag me de.. so sad.. hehe.. kiddin la.. no tag no tag ba.. hehe.. bleah.. really siao liao lo.. haha...

today mood isnt there le.. no mood to study le.. dunno why sia.. suddenly de sia.. cos maybe is cd1.2 ba.. den is the worse subject i think.. haha.. haish.. so sianz.. afternoon talk to cindy on phone.. talk abit abt the cd1.2 lo.. den talk finish cd1.2.. we all change topics liao.. change to all nonsense.. wahaha.. den after tat.. 5plus go cwp eat dinner.. den walk to courts.. see all the sofa and tv lo.. mummy wan see de.. den mummy say tat day the promoter say lcd tv beta den plasma tv.. den daddy go buy lcd de tv lo.. den now another one say plasma beta.. mummy so angry le lo.. haish.. dunno.. haha.. nvm la.. buy jiu buy le lo.. no choice le.. haha.. den after tat saw he actress guo hui wen at courts.. den annabelle go take pics wit her.. aileen dun dare.. but after tat we go le she keep say wan take wit tat jie jie.. so ma fan.. in the end dun care her.. haha.. tat guo hui wen very good de.. she talk to us sia.. wahah.. only we all lo.. cos of aileen la.. see her so shy dun dare take pics lo.. she even walk to us to let them take pics wit her sia.. so good lo.. haha.. den after tat go pasar malam.. too full le.. so nv buy finger foods le.. haha.. den go home le.. go home read abit on cd1.2.. but soon.. concentration gone.. dunno why today like tat sia.. cos could be cd1.2 is really a tuff module for me.. i guess not only me.. even the whole class ba.. haha.. so lo.. but tml really need to chiong for cs1.1 le.. haha.. hehe.. hoho..
i lurv u i lurv u i lurv u.. i really lurv u lot lot.. i feel so hurt when u are sad.. wo hen xiang dui ni shuo wo xi huan ni.. ke shi.. wo you pai bei ni ju jue.. zhe meh ban??? shui neng gai wo yong qi xiang ta gao bai?? shui shui shui???

today i guess should be quite a ok day ba.. wake up early in the morning den start readin those notes on cd1.1 which i still not quite sure abt.. den go to sch at 12noon sharp.. meet godsis all at the bus stop cos they going to cwp walk lo.. pri sch today no sch cos of dunno wat psle thingy ba.. so good.. we still havin exam sia.. haha.. den after tat.. go sch alone today lo.. so sianz on the way.. haiz.. no choice le.. now must kn how to adapt to all tis le.. so no matter how sianz.. i must xi guan.. haha.. cd1.1 paper was quite ok lo.. still can do.. but i guess yin gai bu hui na hao de results ba.. haiz.. no choice lo.. i am stupid wat.. diaoz..
jus now after paper.. hav tis feeling in mind.. am i driftin away from my frenz?? i have been like unable to understand ppl nowadays.. they have been like so unfarmiliar to me.. i dunno why.. my mind was all blank after the paper.. and for tis 2 weeks.. my eyes lid is jumpin everyday and i cant sleep well during nite.. why is tis so?? am i encounterin too much pressure?? i dunno.. i hate tis feelin in me.. i am like startin to become wat i am during my primary sch life.. dun talk to anyone.. keep everything in myself and nv say it to anyone.. i dun like to become like tis.. cos tis is tiring.. but who wil be there to listen to me when i am dowm?? who will be there to comfort me when i am upset?? who will be there wit me all the while when i need them?? who who who?? my mind is very messy.. i dunno wat i should do now.. jus now talk to ting oso.. den she is kinda like down too.. same situation wit me.. haiz.. why we all fall into the lurv trap so easily?? she get out of it soon.. but not to me.. my lurv for him is really too deep le.. all i can do is to keep myself busy all day and nite.. den i wun hav the time to think abt him anymore.. ppl have no advise for me le.. no more.. i am alone.. i shouldnt bother my frenz anymore.. they hav their life to bother abt.. so i must be strong.. tears shouldnt come down so easily.. yvonne!! u must be strong.. no matter wat.. u hav to depend on yourself and not others.. bu yao guan bie ren ru he kan ni.. ni yin gai chong zi ji de jiao du qu kan zi ji!!! BU KE YI KU!!!!!

haiz.. tml is my cd1.1 exam le.. how?? i am so worry neh.. i scare when i go in the venue everything become blank sia.. haiz.. i dunno wat to do now neh.. i alrdy study for it for many times le.. but i guess i still cant really rmb all neh.. haiz.. i oso dunno wat is going on wit me sia.. last time oso wun like tat de lei.. last time study wat sure rmb de.. haiz.. i guess this could be cause by the prob tat happen recently ba.. haiz.. who ask me la.. hao si bu si pian pian zhe ge shi hou xi huan shang yi ge bu ke neng hui gei ni ji hui de ren ba.. haiz.. wat to do.. it all happen le.. cant stop or change it le wat.. really have to pray hard tml will be a paper which i kn how to do.. haish..
today go chong pang have dinner wit godma family and mummy and may auntie all.. after dinner go buy things den go home le.. back home study again.. but when at chong pang.. aileen keep wanting to take pics.. no choice.. take wit her lo.. tis is all her new barney bag de cuo.. haiyo.. hehe.. show u some pics i take wit her neh..

">

oh ya.. daddy say he buy 40" de LCD tv neh.. it will come on sat.. do u believe it?? i dun believe neh.. mummy say she oso dun believe.. dunno whether daddy got bluff us not.. hehe.. let see if it really come on sat ba.. wahaha..

bleah.. i come liao lo.. haiz.. so sianz today.. wake up at 7.40am den do everything den go out meet cindy at jurong east mrt to get back my notes.. lolx.. den go home le.. go buy breakfast eat.. den after tat start to continue reading my cd1.2 de notes.. but i fail to study finish all.. cos too chim le la.. den after tat switch to cs1.1 lo.. quite a easy modules to me la.. but simply jus cant rmb all the impt things lo.. haish.. die le lo.. fri is cd1.1 le.. still dun hav any confident tat i will pass the module sia.. haish.. den sleep at 12plus sia.. too tired le.. cant continue to study le.. so sleep lo.. sleep until 1plus den wake up.. den continue study cs again.. haish.. whole day study study only.. haiz.. so stupid lo.. my life is only study.. haish..
today i suddenly got one very serious qn on my mind sia.. why is some parents so cruel?? recently tat baby died de case make me think alot sia.. why is the mother so cruel sia.. since she alrdy pregnant.. shouldnt she be the one responsible for giving birth to the baby.. the baby damn innocent de lo.. haiz.. he jus born one day only lei.. haven see the whole world yet.. why should he die?? life is so unpredictable de lo.. u will jus die one day and u wun realise how u die de sia.. tis is so cruel..haiz.. thinkin all tis make me feel sad only.. haiz.. dun think so much le la..
today feel like chattin wit ppl on msn.. but there is no one for me to chat wit.. and i dun dare to chat wit him le la.. he like dun wan reply me.. so lo.. haiz.. den seldom talk to him nowadays le.. kinda like i scare he might not like it when i talk to him lo.. i was hopin he might jus come to me and chat wit me.. haish.. maybe tis is so unrealistic lo.. haiz.. btw.. daddy agree for me to have a bdae party le.. so happy.. hehe.. but mummy kinda like say i siao lo.. haiz.. dun care.. since daddy allow.. den can le.. cos is daddy give money de.. hehe.. happy happy.. tml going to study cd1.1 all over again le.. hehe.. haiz..

haish.. whole day readin my notes.. and finding ppl who have printer for me to print my notes.. den end up.. i found jazz!! she help me print my cd1.2 de notes.. den tml morning going to meet cindy to take back my cd1.1 de notes.. study cd1.2 is very difficult sia.. dun understand a single things lo.. and the notes she gave like so useless.. dunno sia.. haiz.. den really hav to depend alot on my cd1.2 basic text le.. haiz.. so sianz de lo.. the text so thick.. when will i finish the chapter for exam.. haish.. meet jazz at 6pm at her hse there de bus stop.. den she is late.. cos she jus realise from sch when i reach the bus stop.. so i wait for her lo.. wait and wait.. soon she come le lo.. den go her hse print all those notes den we went to pasar malam lo.. den accompany her to eat her dinner.. den i so hungry lo.. see her eat.. so i eat her fries.. hehe.. den after tat go pasar malam.. walk a while buy some finger food den went into cwp to walk walk.. den saw the who sia.. walk veyr fast cos i dun wan see him.. lolx.. den went to buy bubbles tea neh.. haiz.. talk a lot wit jazz.. den realise lurv is jus too complicated le.. i wonder why gurls always will gt struck in tis lurv cycle de.. haiz.. why guys wun lei?? maybe they do jus tat we dunno.. haiz.. only have one word to tell jazz.. follow your heart and u will find the ans.. cos by doing tis.. u will realy find your lurv.. tis is true oh.. hehe.. see i alrdy struck in tis cycle but i still can help ppl lei.. lolx..
oh ya.. i cut my finger.. so painful lo.. cos ytd la.. try to force open the printer ink cover.. den use pen knife lo.. den cut my finger.. last finger.. whole skin peel off sia.. i still dunno lo.. until i go wash hands realise why suddenly so pain den kn my finger injure.. haish.. who will be there to treat my finger?? pain neh..
3 more weeks is my bdae le.. daddy still haven give me a ans whether i can have a bdae party not.. last time he say can.. but now haven say can.. mummy say have to wait for daddy to dian tou b4 everythin is settle.. haish.. after exam must go sheng siong see the food price le.. den decide ba.. worry daddy say invite too many ppl den dun wan.. hope he dun say tat.. hope i can open a bdae party.. cos tis is my wish.. pray hard..

yoz.. hehe.. tis 3 days of mine at misa was fun.. let me start from sat k.. after the concert..
the concert is super nice.. i lurv it lot lot man.. reach danga bay at 6plus reaching 7pm le.. wah.. damn lot of ppl siao.. dunno why ppl reach so early lo.. den we oso got tix sia.. free tix by some kind ppl.. really thank those ppl who gave to us.. but although we got tix.. we oso cant stand very front.. cos too many ppl le lo.. den concert start ard 8.30pm.. cos it is a live broadcast in tv.. so lo.. 5566 is the last to come out.. and by tat time.. many ppl start to go le.. cos they scare car jam ma.. but i still remain there to see them.. shaowei korkor damn shuai sia.. i lurv him lot lot.. den renfu dye hair.. i think is grey sia.. dunno izit true ma.. mengzhe oso getting shuai le.. hhaa.. but too bad my darling xiezhi nv come la.. i hate him de lei.. why dun wan come.. got baseball can.. come msia dun wan.. pig him.. haha.. den 5566 kick soccer ball sia.. kick alot neh.. nv kick one to me.. pig de sia.. hehe.. kiddin la.. me so far.. if he can kick here.. wah mean their kickin skill very qiang neh.. lolx.. den after 5566 everyone come out.. lin junjie damn shuai and cute.. rainie very ke ai.. i like her alot sia.. den gary oso very cute.. hehe.. but my 5566 and junjie is the best.. hehe.. den everyone count down and firework come out.. wah sia.. so near.. lucky i nv walk to the car.. if not u see i will be dead by then.. cos is like jus in front of me lo.. so scary too.. den one of the firework shoot st up my head sia.. den the thing drop down onto my eyes.. so painful lo.. den got one very hot de drop on my face.. oso very pain sia.. lucky no ba hen.. if not i wan complain to the organiser le.. haha.. den after tat went home wit xiao jiu mu and minyi lo.. reach home ard 12plus le.. den bath and sleep..
sun morning damn tired.. but need to wait up so early.. cos go rebond hair ma.. sit there for 3hrs.. den so sianz oso.. forgett o bring notes to read lo.. waste 3 hrs there oso.. den after rebond.. go to xiao jiu de dian.. cos today his dian bai qi yue lo.. alot of things to eat.. btu when i reach.. almost all finish le.. so stupid.. den eat liao er jie help me xiu mei mao.. hehe.. den after tat play wit xiangfeng and chunjie.. hehe.. they so cute.. chunjie fall aslp when i feed him drink milk.. lolx.. den went to er yi hse.. er jie all went to their kampong.. den left me, er jie, zhi quan korkor, minyi, chunjie adn xiangfeng at home.. er jie and zhi quan korkor sleep le.. chunjie oso.. xiangfeng dun wan sleep.. den play wit him until 4plus den put him to sleep.. 6plus ask him wake up cos worry he at nite dun wna sleep.. den went out to eat dinner at dunno where.. den after tat go san yi hse cos mon morning need go back sg le..
haha.. back to today le.. after fetchin lei lei from sch.. we went to jb.. eat our lunch and we set off back to sg le.. haiz.. so sianz.. reach home den start studyin le.. but until 4plus..i cant tahan le.. went to take a nap lo.. den at 5plus wake up.. 7plus start studyin again.. 10pm come online.. cos wan read notes ma which is in the lappy.. hehe.. lolx..
overall... tis 3 days i have a lot of fun.. but only some saddness cos of my cousin la.. and i jus knew tat that guy didnt msg my cousin to say anything.. tis kind of guys sux sia.. haiz.. suan le.. i guess my cousin will be happy now ba.. and u guess wat.. tis 3 days i nv think of him sia!!! i make it le.. hehe... so happy.. really hope tis can last... but today come back on lappy saw the wallpaper.. it remind me again.. haish..
let me show u some pics of my nephews.. very shuai de oh.. hehe..

haiz.. wat have all of us done to make everything so bad??? i really dunno neh.. a guy can change everytime they wan and a gal cant.. guy always think of themselves and nv really spare a tot for the gal.. wat is tis.. haiz.. my cousin jus broke off wit her bf ytd nite.. and i was like huh?? true de ma.. and i saw her cry.. she actually put in alot of courage to say "i wan break wit u" to the guy.. that guy really did something veyr veyr bad.. actually they broke off once b4 but they patch again.. now i must really tall her.. if tat guy dun worth it.. dun ever turn back to him.. he is not good for u.. he cn actually lie to her and say he is tired oso dun wan meet her out.. but she found him at the acarde wit his frenz.. wat is tis man.. shouldnt guys think b4 they act?? haiz.. i realise smth.. if u really lurv tat ppl a lot.. but tat ppl dun lurv u tat much.. it really hurt and u will be damn sad.. so i guess i should reconsider my lurv my him.. should i always be sad or should i always feel tat i am fortunate.. but tis 2 is a very serious qn.. and i hate it.. haiz..
forget it.. and i am going to be ahppy like b4 next time.. i must nv let myself sad again.. i guess lurv really hurt a ppl ba.. and after tis hurtin.. u will realise u actually grow older.. haha.. later me going to seee 5566 and jj le.. so happy.. hehe.. long time no see them le neh.. lolx.. wahaha.. den tml really going to rebond my hair le.. cos cant change le.. i alrdy bbok the time!!!!! wahaha.. k la.. should be coming to blog on mon only.. so see ya.. byebye.. and rmb dun worry be happy oh.. hehe..

ya ya ya.. i am now at my cousin hse and guess wat.. zhiying they all alrdy at the hotel neh.. and zhiying saw her renfu and shi is so happy lo.. but not me.. haiz.. my xiezhi nv come neh.. he bully me.. he dun wan come see me le.. so sad.. hehe.. today whole day dun feel good neh.. cos of ytd de things lo.. trying to maske him happy de.. but i fail lo.. haiz.. no choice.. cos i not good at makin ppl happy de.. haha.. den i damn sad today.. i sms him askin how he feelin le.. he reply still sad.. i wan treat him eat ice cream de.. but too bad.. he is not in sch lo.. so cant treat.. hehe.. den went to s&w lo.. the coach dun wan let us go sia.. haiz.. den end up i have to rush home after s&w cos i am meetin xiao jiu mu ma.. so i rush home lo.. den come out again.. haiz.. so ma fan.. ahaha..
reach msia le.. haha.. den xiao jiu mu tell me all the fun she had when she go japn.. wah.. i listen le den i oso wan go.. esp disney land.. really very fun sia.. haiz.. how i wish i can get to japan and have all the fun.. haha.. biao mei not at home.. she go out wit her frenz le.. laft me alone in the room.. so sianz.. den nephew oso sleep le.. haiz.. so boring neh.. big nephew not at home.. tml morning den come back.. eee.. i wan see him neh.. haiyo.. yeah.. biao mei come back le.. hehe.. ok le.. i go le.. next time den upload my nephew de pics neh.. hehe..

yup.. today eileen and sokleng come my hse.. they come here study.. but our attention spend is only 2 hrs.. den we call cindy and talk alot of crap for half an hr.. den eileen suddenly wan eat seoul garden.. ask me along.. actually i dun wan go de.. cos hor.. eileen got her bf and sokleng got her clement.. den me?? all alone again.. but they force me to go lo.. so in the end.. i went.. eat alot sia.. eileen la.. keep put on my plate.. den no choice have to eat finish all lo.. den after eatin.. sokleng keep ask me see movie.. i dun lo.. but she keep dun let me go lo.. den clement oso say go la.. i was like dun wan la.. but both of them keep force me lo.. end up watch my super ex galfrenz.. ya ya.. quite a funny show.. haiz.. den watch half way.. he sms me.. cos i sms him earlier on.. he say he not free.. and oso apologise tat he always nv go out when i jio him out.. den he oso say if he free den next time sure go.. haha.. den i reply if u nv go den u die lo.. he say i fierce neh.. so sad.. haha.. jus cos i wan kill him ma.. lolx.. den after tat go home le.. haha.. den online lo.. finish all my hw.. yeah.. i have done finish le.. quite happy..
i dunno why neh.. i realise havin a bf is so fortunate but tis wun apply to me de.. haha.. got ppl hug you when u feel cold.. got ppl who allow u to sa jiao and got ppl to cook for u when u lazy to cook.. this really good man.. haiz.. dun wan say le.. wait i feel more worse.. eeeee... arghz..

haiz.. why?? why?? mood actually good de.. but when come online.. everything tanish le.. why why?? why like tis kind of things happen again?? arghz.. my mood is not too good le lo.. why ppl still still ... haiz.. i dunno wat to say.. lurvin one ppl is damn painful and hurt when he dunno tat u like him.. and tis make it worse.. haiz.. see all frenz havin a ppl who lurv them really make me jealous.. cos i really wish tat there is one ppl tat really lurv me and i lurv him.. haiz.. when will the day arrive?? can he dun be sad?? he sad den i oso sad.. haiz.. wat the point?? haish...

ya.. rite.. tis is my 2nd blog today.. cos i really have a lot to say.. haiz.. sokleng tell me a veyr shockin thing.. she and ... is together le.. really shock sia.. ya.. 6 of us.. 4 have steads left 2.. haha.. funny.. and me is in the 2 ppl category.. haiz.. no choice la.. not pretty ma.. so no ppl wan.. hehe..
tml eileen and sokleng come over to my hse to study neh.. u think we will study ma?? haha.. let see.. tml tell u again lo.. haha..
i guess my mood is gettin a bit better le ba.. cos i realise maybe i really shouldnt think of it too much.. cos he is not worth it le.. i realise maybe i really fall in lurv too fast le and i have fall in lurv wit the wrong ppl.. lolx.. and eileen is kinda sad.. hope she is fine.. i dun wish her to be like me.. hope everything is good for her and she is happy..
sokleng.. rmb not to drag me out wit u again when u are going out wit ... i dun wish to be the light bulb neh.. hehe.. i am all alone again wit no one by my side and i hav to learn how to survive on my own.. i have to depend on myself.. yes.. myself!!!!

ya.. my mood is gettin worse.. stayin at home is really a bad thing to do.. sokleng ask me out for movie wit her and clement.. i rejected it.. cos i kn it will be no way better den staying at home.. haiz.. we conference on phone for almost 1 hr.. but nth come out.. i dun wan to go and they are givin me reason to go.. but it jus simply cant get thru me and i jus dun feel like going.. internet connection have alot of prob today too.. argue wit my bro to get to online.. but when i online.. ppl started to go offline and i simply hate it.. i really dunno wat to do now.. life is kinda like sux.. and i dun feel good.. haiz.. world ard me is jus very plain and simply but since the day he appear in my life.. i become more and more tired and sad.. nv been happy again.. life is so different now..
tml eileen they all wan to go out and study.. i rejected it again.. i prefers staying at home alone.. cos i kn i wun be studyin tml when i go out wit them.. haish.. they wan to go esplanade.. and it will jus remind how sad i was ytd and how i wish he really come along ytd.. but time cant be revert back now... everything have been set and nth going to be change.. i really really have to think again whether i should continue to lurv him or should i jus give up on him.. tis is a very difficult qn.. my brain is kinda like stop workin le.. i cant think of a thing now.. my lurv for him is jus simply too deep and it going to hurt myself alot.. time cant erase the pain in my heart.. i am feelin damn low now.. nth can even pull me thru.. i dunno wat i should do.. tell him straight i like u??? or jus keep to myself and accept a ppl who i dun like?? or let him go???? haiz.. i dunno wat to do le.. i simply hate myself and him... i hate it i hate it.. life can nv return to the same as b4.. arghz....

wat have i done?? am i really tat fan where u can jus break your promise last min?? i dunno.. i am really very disappointed!!!!! i dunno wat to say.. u give me a empty promise..
ytd midnite.. he say he most properly will go wit us to see firwork.. i was overjoyed.. cos i kn i can kn him more thru tis.. but tis is tanish... my wei yi de hope jiu zhe yang mei le..
today mornin wake up wit a happy mood cos goin to see firework in the nite.. den today really very high neh.. very excited abt later too.. he still haven tell me where to meet him.. so i msg him when it was about 4pm.. he call at ard 4.30pm.. u kn wat.. he ask wat we doing later.. i told him everything.. and he give me an ans.. i think i am not going le.. i was in a shock.. i still very cheng qiang de tell him oh ok lo.. den nvm lo.. bye bye.. we hung the phone.. i couldnt take it le.. i lay on sokleng shoulder was abt to cry.. but i cheng qiang again.. i went back to class and feelin very very low.. eileen suggest sms him askin why he dun wan go.. i sms him.. wat he give me is i oso dunno y.. tis ans really break my heart.. i went out of class burstin into tears.. sokleng come along and see.. minloo all saw me cry.. askin me why i cry.. but i jus ignore.. i cry and cry.. i dun understand.. why he wan to give me a empty hope?? why?? i went back class awhile later and qingling all was like kinda sad too.. haiz.. i hai them sad again.. why has it always be me?? why why?? was totally feelin low.. thinkin of not goin to see firework le.. but sokleng keep askin me to go.. say wat clement is alrdy here lo.. dun let him come wasted.. so i go.. but everything was not rite!!!!!
both of them keep playing.. i feel so extra over there.. i dunno wat to do.. i sms cindy tell her.. so say why i go.. it only make me more sad and tat is true.. i see them both keep playing my heart hurt more.. haiz.. i was at a lost.. lost.. lost..
clement say u are only makin yourself sad.. and he is not sad.. he will be damn happy.. and he ask is he worth it for u being so sad?? tis qn again.. i dunno i dunno.. i really dunno wat i am suppose to do now.. i am hurt and i dun feel good.. can killing one self solve everything?? arghz.. haiz.. i guess it will be quite a while later if i am going to ask him out again.. haiz.. now most impt is i hope he can come during my bdae.. i really wish he come.. *wishing*

ya.. tml me going to see firework wit my frenz.. so happy.. cos i so long nv see firework le.. always see is on tv de.. not fun.. i still rmb last time at old hse.. every yr oso get to see de.. cos i stay so near to kallang stadium ma.. den everytime ndp my relatives would come my hse to see firework.. wah.. realy hav fun man.. now going to esplande there to see neh.. so happy happy.. hehe.. guess will be out until quite late tml ba.. cos tis will be last time i get to enjoy myself b4 exam start.. haiz.. den wed onwards really have to start studyin le.. haiz.. so tired.. lolx.. who is the idiot who invent exam on the earth?? haiz.. i hate exam man.. but no choice.. really have to study hard and pass with good grade.. i dun wish for high high grade la.. zhuo ren yao zhi dao zhi zhu chang le.. hehe.. he say he will only give me the ans tml mornin.. so i will wait for his ans tml.. waiting patiently for his reply.. hehe..
today have the public speakin thingy.. wah sia.. i go out miss chong say oh is u ar.. shock sia.. den keep laughin lo.. dunno why sia.. now i nervous i will keep smilin de neh.. haiz.. den i think i read very very the fast sia.. haha.. suan le.. since it is over le.. haha.. really really lookin forward to tml!!!

everything today is like so sianz.. wake up at 11plus today and watch tv.. den after tat go and finish up my speech and cs assignment.. and a bad thing happen lo.. the guy come and chat again.. i told sokleng abt it and she asked me to add her i the conversation.. she said a lot things to the guy.. sayin wat i got xi huan de ren le and is her stead de frenz.. and tat guy oso dui wo you yi shi.. wah sia.. she really crap a lot sia.. haiyo.. make me hen nan jiang hua neh.. haiz.. den tat guy kinda like say he wan jump off from his floor den i was like huh?? wat the hell.. den sokleng still ask him to jump sia.. lolx.. ... ya i admit i really hav xi huan de ren le.. but like tat regret a ppl seems so bad and is like i dun even kn him lo.. den he say he become my very first admirer.. lolx.. wat the hell.. i dun wish to have a admirer neh.. lolx.. he had actually come to me twice le askin whether can jio me ma.. lolx.. i have rejected it 2 times le neh.. pig sia.. today come again.. lolx.. haiz.. i hope tis time wit sokleng help can really make him off sia..
ya.. i waited for the whole day for him to online.. but surprisely.. he did not online.. and i hav send him a offline msg le.. hope tat he can see it ba.. haiz.. rain told me tat newspaper put warner maybe wan sign contract wit lucify.. i really hope they sign them.. cos they are really very keen of havin own album neh.. jus pray hard ba.. lucify will continue to rox on de.. hehe.. and san yi was askin me when i wan do bdae party and say she can come help.. hehe.. so happy.. den i can finally have a bdae party le.. whahaha.. so happy neh.. lolx.. hehehe.. and i haven start studyin!!! i jus now flip thru cd1.1 and realise there is a class quiz tml.. arghz.. i haven start revisin!!!!! ahh.. die le la.. haiz.. make go study le.. buaix buaix..

ya.. i am back from superband.. so sad lo.. lucify nv get into the second part of the comp.. but oso yu liao de lo.. cos mdc de ppl really do until very ming xian lo.. soul and mlb fans got so big space.. den lucfiy and j3 de fans have to share on veyr small de space lo.. wat is tis man.. and today ku and rain make me turn into a ghost.. lolx.. they put black eye liner on my eyes and turn me into lucify rox ppl.. haha.. still put all the make-up on my face neh.. lolx.. so long nv put le.. haha.. and i think i nv put b4 make-up in front of them neh.. lolx.. den they keep sayin i very cute and pretty.. lolx.. den keep ask me take pics lo.. i oso wan take la.. cos i seldom wear make-up ma.. haha.. den after tat rush down to expo to get the tix from ** they all lo.. den go in and have a lot of fun and enjoyin myself alot.. den vics take the letter from me neh durin last.. he very high sia.. keep playin wit kuek neh.. lolx.. throw the paper everywhere sia.. still throw tat their fans lo.. and mlb takin pics they behind do extract sia.. haha.. the letter actually should be wit misaki de.. but he dun wan ans me lo.. i call him so many times.. den kuek oso lo.. so i waited there.. den vics look here i quickly shake the letters and he saw.. he jus took it and say thankz.. haa.. he so shuai today neh.. he wear blue color eye liner neh.. hehe.. den kelvin oso veyr shuai today.. shinya look cute.. kuek look cute and misaki look so shuai oso.. haha.. all very shuai.. hehe..
got my surprise from rain le.. actually is jus kuek and vics auto neh.. lolx.. but they go ask them write full name lo.. so malu.. and i think i heard ku say she pass me and kuek de photo to kuek le.. eeee... so na kan lo.. haiz.. den ytd ku oso do smth which is very paiseh.. but lucky me not there la.. she shock "kuek.. yvonne lurv u" and u kn wat he reply?? he reply "i lurv her too" wah sia.. so paiseh lo.. and i nv say i lurv kuek neh.. lolx.. i lurv de is ...... haha.. u kn i kn can le.. wahhaa.. today really have a lot of fun.. and still wonderin for tml.. cos i am scare and worry.. and throat kinda pain le.. haiz.. die le.. mon still got public speech.. haiz.. die die die..

yeah!!! jus before i head to expo for the superband final competition.. i come to blog.. feelin really really excited.. haha.. cos beside can go in and support lucify.. i oso can have a lot of fun neh.. i guess tis should be the real fun i hav ever since tat day ba.. i should say it tis way.. it had alrdy been 1 mth before i can really feel happy neh.. and ytd i reminded rain abt the surprise she wan to give me neh.. hehe.. today come back den post again ba.. tell everyone how was today like.. hehe..
*happy.. waitin for tml to come.. cos there is a very impt things i need to do neh.. hehe.. let wait for tml to come ba.. hehe.. bleah..*

to eileen.. i have read your blog and i kn wat is going on le.. i am really sorry to everyone.. i kn tis cause a lot of trouble to u all.. but i am sure tat he is a good ppl and dun worry for me k.. i kn wat lies in front of me.. and to cindy.. sorry to make u angry.. i dunno why tat day i am feelin like tat.. so sorry.. and for sokleng.. sorry too.. i kn i have make u very very tired.. thank for your help too.. and let hope tue will be the last and everyone is happy..
to everyone who is concern abt me.. dun bother up the feeling tat u think.. tell me straight whether i am in the correct way ma.. i need help.. thank for those yi zhi zai support wo de.. i treasure everyone and everyone rox!!! pls forgive me on my action.. so sorry...

hello.. arghz.. today go s&w do nth neh.. haha.. i nv play bb wit the others cos i accompany eileen ma.. we talk and talk.. den coach keep use the leaves to throw at me lo.. childish.. wahaha.. lucky sia.. today tat xiu han nv come.. if not i die again.. coach say actually he need to go wit his yishun town sec de bb competition.. but he ask other ppl to go instant.. wah sia.. so lucky.. hehe.. den after tat.. we left bb at 4.20pm.. den went to the library to xiang shou air con.. hehe.. den saw chong yee.. and hor.. i nv buy tat bag le.. cos i think maybe next time den buy ba.. haiz.. saw korkor.. and i ask him buy me tat bag.. he say he nv bring money today.. den i say we go bugis street buy.. he sianz half.. haa.. den go canteen 1 lo.. sit at there and nth to do sia.. so boring neh.. den play games usin chong yee lappy.. den guess wat.. ard 6plus.. i saw him.. he wear until so formal today.. dunno why sia.. but i heard from my frenz tat BA de students if got presentation must wear until veyr formal.. so i think he havin presentation ba.. haha.. and hor.. he today look so shuai.. haha.. really very shuai lo.. hehe.. den 7plus go astro.. apply for GL together wit tinshen and laisheng.. haha.. den have lot of fun today.. but clement, victor and jun wei keep bully me lo.. esp jun wei.. he beat me until so red.. pig him de lei.. so painful lo.. and shun qiang oso bully me.. he make stupid face at me.. i hate him!!! bleah~~~ haha.. eyes very very pain.. and today damn blur lo.. take out contact lens from left side le.. but forget i take out le.. keep go find where it the lens so worry sia.. den realise i alrdy taken out.. pig sia.. haiz.. den thank rain today neh.. cos i zuo le yi jian dui bu qi ta de shi.. lolx..

hello... haiz.. really i think tat wat done have been done.. haiz.. i dunno why sia.. i think things are unable to be turn back by now.. lurvin him is very impt to me.. i dun really care if he lurv me not.. cos i really lurv him.. and not to worry.. i lurv all my frenz too.. hehe..
today saw a puma bag which i wan to buy long ago but too exp nv buy.. den it is sellin at $20 at my sch bazzar.. and i wan buy.. but.. i no money le.. if i buy.. sat go out cant use much money le.. haiz.. wat to do neh??? arghz.. i really wan it.. maybe i will see how ba.. see whether i really wan buy ma.. if wan den jus buy it ba.. haha..
ya.. ytd was abt to offline le.. but he suddenly pm me lo.. saying good night.. i shock sia.. cos ytd whole day i nv go and talk to him.. den he suddenly come and talk to me neh.. haha.. den i call sokleng lo.. she say i got 2 ways to go.. either to online back or tml den say.. so in the end i decided to online it back.. lolx.. so i online back and he came to talk to me.. he tell me all the things tat is related to lurv and tell me it is true if tat ppl lurv u 100% and u lurv him 99%, u will be very xing fu.. and he say lurv hurt ppl too.. haiz.. same ideas wit sokleng ar.. so xiang neh.. den he oso talk alot to me.. den went to sleep at nearly 2am le.. den today very tired neh.. wan sleep.. haha.. haiz.. but really very happy tat he actually talk to me.. and he is feelin fine..
but i am not feelin fine neh.. i think i going to be sick very soon.. haiz.. throat a bit pain le.. haiz.. den gastric pain is acting again lo.. haiz.. i got eat lunch and dinner neh.. but why still will pain.. pig de neh.. haiz.. who can help me cure my illness?? i dun wan see doc.. hehe..

haiz.. kinda like being bother by a lot of things today.. i realise i hav actually become a very stupid ppl and i think i am drifting far apart from all my frenz le.. sometimes i am really very tired.. i dunno why.. i cant sleep early and i dun feel like sleepin.. my mind is full of nonsense and i cant think well.. i dunno wat i doing is rite or wrong.. i jus feel tat i need a long time break.. i dun wan to be bother by all tis things again and again.. i wan to be alone.. i wan to.. but i am afraid to be alone.. i dunno why.. i am jus too scare.. life isnt easy after enterin poly and esp now when u realise u are in lurv wit someone who might not be acceptin u.. haiz.. wat should i ever do?? arghz.. i hate myself.. i really hate.. i am not wat i am in the past and i guess all this lead to alot of things.. arghz.. why why?? haiz.. why ppl like to see u suffer?? why?? ppl can make u very very high.. but who kn.. they jus drop u down like tat.. why are they doing tis?? i dun understand.. haiz..
actually morning was ok and everything fine.. esp when saw him.. he is on his way to u guess canteen 2 ba.. wit his frenz den i smile at him and he smile back too.. ya tat alrite.. but ***** jus say smth.. he is not lookin at u... oh gosh.. ***** say smth which really really hurt me.. i was totally in blank tat time and dunno wat to say.. i jus reply her he got.. he got smile to me and he always look on the floor when he walk.. ***** gives me a very funny look.. i was totally depress but wat can i do?? i cant say tat ya he is not looking at me and i am smilin to myself.. ok forget it.. at least i got see him.. ya and sokleng and cindy were keep making me sad cos they were sayin "i saw your ....... lei.. he today quite shuai neh.." all sort of things jus to make me envy them lo.. and sokleng saying he was walking beside her.. add on to my envyness.. arghz.. suan le.. guess heaven dun allow us to meet ba.. there it come again.. in the evenin.. staying back to do our project.. more hurtin things come and gosh.. my mind isnt working after hearin all those things.. and i am really hurt.. i nv joke much.. although i talk to them but deep inside hurt alot.. arghz.. feelin isnt good and everything was not in the rite track for me tat moment.. haiz.. and i have decided.. i wun talk to him during msn le.. only occassionally i will talk.. if not.. i guess maybe i REALLY did disturb him ba.. since they said tat he might say something which is different from wat u think.. so i have make up my mind.. pls dun support me anymore.. i think i should jus add normal le.. things is not going to be RITE to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

another damn sad thing is mummy say dun let me rebond my hair!!! wat the hell.. she promise say aug can rebond and i have decided to go rebond on 14 aug cos since i am still in msia after seein 56.. but she jus spoilt my plan.. arghz.. pig her.. and she oso say dun wan open bdae party le.. my god!!! she is really being so unfair lo.. my bro have been havin his bdae party for the past 2 yrs.. and i nv lo.. arghz.. hate her sia.. must ask daddy to make for me.. cos daddy sure listen to me de.. i dun care.. i wan!!!!!!! i wan rebond my ugly hair and have bdae party!!!!

happy thing: xiao jiu mu today come back from japan le.. hehe.. so fast.. i wonder wat she buy for me neh.. cos i cant wait to see those things she buy and those pics she took over there.. ah ma, xiao jiu and cousins and mummy have went over to airport to fetch her.. her plane wil arrive at 12.04am.. haha.. damn late neh..

hi.. haven been thinkng abt tis qn from ytd to now.. haiz.. i really dunno wat i should do.. i realise i have been givin ppl alot of troubles and ppl are actually sick and tired of me le.. i think i should have jus stop tis and dun say it to anyone at all.. arghz.. i shouldnt have speak it out in the beginning.. haiz.. wat i have done really smth wrong.. den i have no choice.. i have no one to speak to.. i really need a person there to talk to me and guide me along.. haiz.. but i realise i have been givin them alot of pressure too.. haiz.. wat should i do?? by bothering up the things to myself could be a good choice but tis will in turn hurt myself.. and sooner or later u will find me died cos i am too pressure liao.. i guess tis is a foolish way to end a thing ba.. killin one self is very stupid lo.. but why does tis kind of things ever come across me?? haiz.. really.. i am thinkin if i jus end my life and leave tis world.. maybe i will find it happy as there is really nth for me to be bother abt le.. haiz..
ya.. today miss the chance of seeing him again.. actually tot of if i am able to see him.. i will ask him is he feeling alrite.. cos i guess he hasnt been feel good from ytd ba.. and plus maybe he is still sick lo.. haiz.. but i saw a ppl.. tat is my bb yr 2 coach.. his name is called xiu han.. lolx.. i tot i walk slowly up the stairs den i wun be able to meet him.. but i alrdy walk very slow.. he is still there waiting for lift.. den he suddenly turn tis side and he saw me.. he give a kind of like evil smile.. lolx.. den i smile back la.. wait he say i so impolite.. haha.. den wait for lift to come.. den go to belinda de class.. den she was givin us notes for our exam.. haiz.. kinda like very difficult neh.. but i dun hav the mood to study now lei.. all i do is last min work.. tat wat i do fro my exam during sec sch.. but not for o lvl.. cos o lvl is really very very impt.. haha.. i guess i really really have to start readin up notes by next week le.. den i guess wun be able to go online so often next week ba..
ya.. i guess he is sick again ba.. haiz... ytd talk to him den he like so restless.. den today appear to be sick.. haiz.. i cant do anything to help.. i pm him but he oso no reply.. wat can i do neh?? pls.. someone pls teach me.. why is he always liek tat?? i am kinda of like sad le lo.. i guess he has been givin cold shoulder to me most of the time ba.. haiz.. why is heaven so unfair de?? chat wit other ppl sure chat a lot de lo.. but not to him.. he like dun feel liek talkin de nneh.. haiz.. sianz.. and plus sad.. =(
and 5566 is comin on next fri.. but i got sch until 5pm.. arghz.. den guess should be going to msia only on sat ba.. den meet zhiying they all lo.. haiz.. yvette say she might be going den say she will talk to me on those days.. still ask me stay at the hotel wit them.. but i kn mummy wun allow de lo.. haiz.. see how lo.. and guess wat.. i am not very high tis time round when 5566 is coming.. tis isnt the usual me neh.. i oso dunno why.. maybe cos of sudden things ba.. haiz.. mood for xiezhi totally change le lo.. but i guess on tat day of the concert.. den i will be high and my mood to him will come back de.. i really think so.. hehe.. =D
lastly wat i say is.. i am very very sorry to all my frenz.. i kn i hav been disturbin u all for the past few weeks.. and i have started to realise wat i did is wrong and i am here to apologise de.. SORRY(x100) >.< pls dun take it to heart and i will be happy de.. dun worry.. >.<

Profile

princess sotong
forever young 18
5th september
virgo/dragon
cedar pri -> admiralty pri -> riverside sec -> ngee ann poly -> wheelock singapore

hugs and kisses

families loves
sweetie loves
princess loves
kuku family loves
winnie the pooh
purple
vonnie baby
sotong baby

big hugs

families dates!
shopping dates <3
sleeping!!!!
watch nice shows
chatting online
sitting at boat quay with loves <3
clubbing with loves
dating with loves <3

protest

liars
backstabbers
smokers
cheaters
broken promises
things not done
heartbroken
crying
loneliness

chatbox

leave a mark behind..

wishes

▪ slim down
▪ prince sotong
▪ graduate from NP
▪ samsung f480 pink
▪ burberry bag
▪ gucci/burberry wallet
▪ make over of my room
▪ hamsters
▪ sentosa dates
▪ ride bicycle
▪ get my degree successfully

linkkks

alan_ane
binnyi_ech
bridget_ech
cindy_ech
clement_astro
daryl_ane
eileen_princess18
ervin_ane
ery_ech
evelyn_astro
felicia_ane
huili_ane
janice_ech
jiabao
jiashan_ane
junri_ane
karyan_ane
kelly_sjab
kokheng_ane
kuku_rain
kuku_stella
kuku_yvette
lihui
linxi_ane
lisa_sjab
maylyn
melissa_ech
mengyong_ane
myra_ech
nicole_ech
samantha_ech
sheryl_ane
simtheen
siuqing_jiejie
suyin_sjab
weeling
weifu_sjab
wendy_ech
xinyi_sweetie
xueli_ech
yangmeng_ane
yusliza_ech
zaijie
zhiying

memories

July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009

applauses

designed by lil.queens
photos: bexidaisy on DA
host: imageshack & imeem
inspiration & lyrics: TLG
title script source unknown.


Youre My Angel - Loretta Chow