Wednesday, February 06, 2008
supposed to go boat quay yesterday night.. but ended up at heeren balcony.. -.- all because of that sweetie girl.. she changed and changed location lah.. =.= i still miss my boat quay date can! roar! some day i shall go back there again.. =)
yesterday met her at bukit gombak mrt and we head down to somerset mrt.. i was so afraid to step into somerset mrt.. i dont noe why.. i got the fear to step into somerset mrt.. and worse.. i think i saw him.. but heng is he never see me.. that the heng part.. but i not sure whether is him.. i do hope that that person isnt him.. =) i walked out of the mrt feeling very vex.. sweetie hold my hands and i feel the warmth.. stood in front of heeren and i feel that scared-ness.. i dont noe why.. i just have the fear when i step into heeren.. the impact of his face and everything is there.. so i worried.. i panicked and i nearly cried.. haish.. many many things flashed back in my mind.. i dont noe what to do neh.. maybe is just all my bad can.. my bad my bad.. =(
okay stop talking about that.. if not i will cry again.. =) sweetie brought me to go and meet her frenx.. 2 guys actually.. they were at cineleisure playing pool.. haha.. then we headed to balcony to have a drink.. sweetie ordered vodka orange and we shared.. we chat and we intro and i get to know 2 more guys from ngee ann.. but all graduated liao.. sianx lah! i am still in ngee ann.. haha.. okay later another person came over le.. then the 3 guys all siao one.. play until like siao can.. =.= then we played games too.. but i was too gong also lah.. sometimes i need to drink i still dont noe still keep waiting then they tell me then i noe.. haha.. gong can.. =.= but i had fun yesterday.. at least my mind wasnt thinking much when i was playing with them.. so i enjoyed too.. =))
later we walked all the way from heeren to bugis junction.. initially they wanted to play pool.. but most of the shops already close cause it was wednesday midnight.. so loh.. dont have le.. so we slowly walked to bugis junction just to find a 24hours mcdonald.. cool right.. it was a cool night.. i was feeling cold.. sweetie was either walking in front of me or behind me.. she never hold my hands that night.. i feel sad can.. we promised to hold each other hands.. but she didnt.. and i dont noe whether to believe her.. cause she doesnt seems to be alright afterall.. =.= we took the first mrt home too.. reached home i cant take it liao.. bath and sleep on my lovely bed.. =)
finally i had my reunion dinner.. and here i am rotting in front of the lappie again.. haish.. i looked at my msn contacts.. i feel weird.. i dont noe why.. i wish that he is online now.. but he is not.. i just cant stop myself from thinking.. how how how! told leen about it liao but then also no use.. i still will keep thinking leh.. roar! please stop me from looking at the list and think.. i am the strong one.. i am the good one.. i shouldnt make myself like this.. so i have to stop myself from all this shit.. and i asked again.. who is responsible for all this shit?? i wonder.. he or me?? haish!
yesterday met her at bukit gombak mrt and we head down to somerset mrt.. i was so afraid to step into somerset mrt.. i dont noe why.. i got the fear to step into somerset mrt.. and worse.. i think i saw him.. but heng is he never see me.. that the heng part.. but i not sure whether is him.. i do hope that that person isnt him.. =) i walked out of the mrt feeling very vex.. sweetie hold my hands and i feel the warmth.. stood in front of heeren and i feel that scared-ness.. i dont noe why.. i just have the fear when i step into heeren.. the impact of his face and everything is there.. so i worried.. i panicked and i nearly cried.. haish.. many many things flashed back in my mind.. i dont noe what to do neh.. maybe is just all my bad can.. my bad my bad.. =(
okay stop talking about that.. if not i will cry again.. =) sweetie brought me to go and meet her frenx.. 2 guys actually.. they were at cineleisure playing pool.. haha.. then we headed to balcony to have a drink.. sweetie ordered vodka orange and we shared.. we chat and we intro and i get to know 2 more guys from ngee ann.. but all graduated liao.. sianx lah! i am still in ngee ann.. haha.. okay later another person came over le.. then the 3 guys all siao one.. play until like siao can.. =.= then we played games too.. but i was too gong also lah.. sometimes i need to drink i still dont noe still keep waiting then they tell me then i noe.. haha.. gong can.. =.= but i had fun yesterday.. at least my mind wasnt thinking much when i was playing with them.. so i enjoyed too.. =))
later we walked all the way from heeren to bugis junction.. initially they wanted to play pool.. but most of the shops already close cause it was wednesday midnight.. so loh.. dont have le.. so we slowly walked to bugis junction just to find a 24hours mcdonald.. cool right.. it was a cool night.. i was feeling cold.. sweetie was either walking in front of me or behind me.. she never hold my hands that night.. i feel sad can.. we promised to hold each other hands.. but she didnt.. and i dont noe whether to believe her.. cause she doesnt seems to be alright afterall.. =.= we took the first mrt home too.. reached home i cant take it liao.. bath and sleep on my lovely bed.. =)
finally i had my reunion dinner.. and here i am rotting in front of the lappie again.. haish.. i looked at my msn contacts.. i feel weird.. i dont noe why.. i wish that he is online now.. but he is not.. i just cant stop myself from thinking.. how how how! told leen about it liao but then also no use.. i still will keep thinking leh.. roar! please stop me from looking at the list and think.. i am the strong one.. i am the good one.. i shouldnt make myself like this.. so i have to stop myself from all this shit.. and i asked again.. who is responsible for all this shit?? i wonder.. he or me?? haish!
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