Sunday, September 30, 2007
okay my nephew went home today.. my house seems a little empty and quiet now.. haha.. back to normal liao.. he will be back in another one week time.. haha.. cool right.. =)
alright.. school starting soon.. and i feel very very unstable.. maybe i am just feeling scare and afraid bah.. i dont even noe myself neh.. =.= i noe i enjoy school life.. but then new semester make me feel stress.. haish.. everything is getting harder now.. study and study.. assignments coming in again and again.. wah.. stress ar!!! havent school reopen i already think of this.. mad!!! -__-"
alright.. certain things are unable to be kept as secret already.. it will be open secret very very soon.. but then please.. things are not always true.. whatever.. people mouth just couldnt stop talking for a while.. their mouth will talk to others and then gossip begin.. rumours and everything started flowing and flowing.. people coming to you asking and asking.. sometimes it might seems unfair you noe.. i hate it when people gossip behind your back and never approach you to ask for the truth.. then people start to imagine and think badly about you.. i feel bad.. if only i am more confident and i noe myself more.. i wont get into this mess.. i am feeling very very luan now.. i dont noe anything.. the heart doesnt link me to anywhere.. i need help.. who willing to help me now?? haish.. blame myself for getting into this mess again bah.. i am such an idiot who always get into troubles..
thinking and thinking.. i couldnt find the answer.. my mind is blank.. haish.. why is it so unfair one.. maybe.. i am the only one thinking that it is unfair.. haha.. i look down on myself.. noe why.. cause i am not slim.. i am not pretty.. anyway.. many things make me look down on myself.. so dont ask me why also.. haha.. =))
alright.. school starting soon.. and i feel very very unstable.. maybe i am just feeling scare and afraid bah.. i dont even noe myself neh.. =.= i noe i enjoy school life.. but then new semester make me feel stress.. haish.. everything is getting harder now.. study and study.. assignments coming in again and again.. wah.. stress ar!!! havent school reopen i already think of this.. mad!!! -__-"
alright.. certain things are unable to be kept as secret already.. it will be open secret very very soon.. but then please.. things are not always true.. whatever.. people mouth just couldnt stop talking for a while.. their mouth will talk to others and then gossip begin.. rumours and everything started flowing and flowing.. people coming to you asking and asking.. sometimes it might seems unfair you noe.. i hate it when people gossip behind your back and never approach you to ask for the truth.. then people start to imagine and think badly about you.. i feel bad.. if only i am more confident and i noe myself more.. i wont get into this mess.. i am feeling very very luan now.. i dont noe anything.. the heart doesnt link me to anywhere.. i need help.. who willing to help me now?? haish.. blame myself for getting into this mess again bah.. i am such an idiot who always get into troubles..
thinking and thinking.. i couldnt find the answer.. my mind is blank.. haish.. why is it so unfair one.. maybe.. i am the only one thinking that it is unfair.. haha.. i look down on myself.. noe why.. cause i am not slim.. i am not pretty.. anyway.. many things make me look down on myself.. so dont ask me why also.. haha.. =))
i want to live far away!!
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