Friday, June 15, 2007
last night godsis spent the night at my house.. they were telling me and mummy what happened in the hospital.. ah gong hands was cold and he didnt answer them when they talked to him.. aileen felt weird.. she didnt noe what is going on.. annabelle knew.. she told aileen ah gong fell down and now in hospital.. they called godma.. and annabelle first question was how is ah gong.. i didnt noe what was godma answer.. but annabelle said "i lurv you mummy" this was nice.. aileen only said yes yes and no no.. no i lurv you mummy.. she hang the phone and went to bed..
morning their chatting woke me up.. 7plus in the morning.. was feeling so tired.. i couldnt sleep last night.. middle of night received sweetie sms.. wanted to reply but i didnt noe what to say.. ignored it and went back to sleep.. godma called at 7plus.. annabelle first question was still the same.. how is ah gong.. mummy took the call the knew her ah gong had passed away at 10plus last night.. his heartbeat stopped.. everything ended.. everyone started to grieve.. being a young child.. aileen still dont noe what is going on.. so kept pestering me where is mummy and daddy.. she also asked where is ah gong.. mummy told them ah gong had gone to a far far land.. daddy said to them that ah gong went to heaven.. can they understand?? i dont noe.. =((
things have come to an end.. i couldnt say much.. i only noe i felt scare.. it just a month.. another person had gone.. haish.. i began to worry.. i dont noe how to cherish.. i dont noe how to lurvthem.. i want to learn to cherish my lurv ones.. but many things stop me.. i fear.. i scare.. i lurv my family and frenx.. but to the extend i cant force myself to lurv all my frenx.. i want t lurv them all.. but there are certain people who i cant lay my lurv on them.. why why?? am i being a little too petty or what?? should i learn to forgive and forget?? what if i cant do that?? what if i regret one day?? what if what if what if.. there are so many what if inside me..
i guess everything will be fine.. let me grieve hard just once more.. i will be fine soon.. give me time to stand up.. support me if possible.. i need my sweetie my dearie and my bestie to be around.. i noe they will..
meet bestie today but i was late cause i was busy in the morning.. we went plaza singapura to search for our materials.. went to daiso and got everything.. bestie coming my house tomorrow to complete our play kit.. we will finish it by tomorrow and i will start on mine de.. need to get those materials soon.. tomorrow!! let's work hard!!
dear god.. dont take my lurv ones away anymore.. i will grieve.. i will cry.. bring me away first so that i dont grieve and cry when they are gone.. lurv ones.. never leave before me.. i lurv you!!
morning their chatting woke me up.. 7plus in the morning.. was feeling so tired.. i couldnt sleep last night.. middle of night received sweetie sms.. wanted to reply but i didnt noe what to say.. ignored it and went back to sleep.. godma called at 7plus.. annabelle first question was still the same.. how is ah gong.. mummy took the call the knew her ah gong had passed away at 10plus last night.. his heartbeat stopped.. everything ended.. everyone started to grieve.. being a young child.. aileen still dont noe what is going on.. so kept pestering me where is mummy and daddy.. she also asked where is ah gong.. mummy told them ah gong had gone to a far far land.. daddy said to them that ah gong went to heaven.. can they understand?? i dont noe.. =((
things have come to an end.. i couldnt say much.. i only noe i felt scare.. it just a month.. another person had gone.. haish.. i began to worry.. i dont noe how to cherish.. i dont noe how to lurvthem.. i want to learn to cherish my lurv ones.. but many things stop me.. i fear.. i scare.. i lurv my family and frenx.. but to the extend i cant force myself to lurv all my frenx.. i want t lurv them all.. but there are certain people who i cant lay my lurv on them.. why why?? am i being a little too petty or what?? should i learn to forgive and forget?? what if i cant do that?? what if i regret one day?? what if what if what if.. there are so many what if inside me..
i guess everything will be fine.. let me grieve hard just once more.. i will be fine soon.. give me time to stand up.. support me if possible.. i need my sweetie my dearie and my bestie to be around.. i noe they will..
meet bestie today but i was late cause i was busy in the morning.. we went plaza singapura to search for our materials.. went to daiso and got everything.. bestie coming my house tomorrow to complete our play kit.. we will finish it by tomorrow and i will start on mine de.. need to get those materials soon.. tomorrow!! let's work hard!!
dear god.. dont take my lurv ones away anymore.. i will grieve.. i will cry.. bring me away first so that i dont grieve and cry when they are gone.. lurv ones.. never leave before me.. i lurv you!!
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