Thursday, May 31, 2007
another time of the day.. i had been onlining offlining for the whole day.. i on and off my lappie for 4 times.. imagine.. just a day.. mind was wondering to elsewhere which make me feeling very sianz and emo.. arghz..
preparing the cards for my classmates tomorrow.. cutting drawing and keeping it inside my file.. didi is kind enough to go to causeway point and helped me print out the namelist for the jupiter watch which i need it tomorrow.. and he is kind enough to buy me my curry puff and popiah for my breakfast cum lunch.. mummy wasnt home.. daddy was going out.. didi was at causeway point.. i am all alone at home again.. i dont even understand.. things are so unpredictable.. still remember last time i would be the one always not at home.. but now everything turn the other way round.. ha~~ whatever.. yvonne is always feeling lonely de.. so no different!!
wanted to sleep at around 3plus.. cause i was really tired.. it could be the reason cause yesterday got one very funny ger called me up at 2plus in the night.. this ger noe who is she.. she made me eyes big big after that.. the sudden urge of going there to find her was coming into me.. haha.. at 3plus i was lying on my bed.. tears roll down once again.. i admit i was not alright.. cause of what happened yesterday.. my mind was in a mess again.. i didnt noe what to do.. i really hate everything.. i couldnt make my mind clear now.. this is dragging long.. haish.. let's count how long i have been emo-ing.. one week!! after tomorrow will be one week le.. haish.. i always seems so strong.. but i dont think i am..
i gave up after that.. i force myself to stop thinking.. i get out of my bed and tried to watch whatever is on television.. and it was time when i watch shao gong.. when i saw him.. i was feeling a little weird.. i still miss him much like before.. i guess he will always be the one who will be able to make me smile and happy.. a little gesture by him.. i will be contented.. i truely miss him and i want him to be in front of me now.. but is that possible?? rain rain~~ will is he coming?? you noe?? ha!
okay due to the boredness inside me.. i decided to try making the gui lin gao after taking the recipe for my cousin.. heex.. initially it wasnt sweet at all.. so mummy ask me to pour everything inside and cook.. imagine i have added the whole packet of cane sugar lah!! wah.. but it wasnt that sweet.. should be just nice bah.. i pour it into one big one two small one.. let see who i shall give this time round.. =))
preparing the cards for my classmates tomorrow.. cutting drawing and keeping it inside my file.. didi is kind enough to go to causeway point and helped me print out the namelist for the jupiter watch which i need it tomorrow.. and he is kind enough to buy me my curry puff and popiah for my breakfast cum lunch.. mummy wasnt home.. daddy was going out.. didi was at causeway point.. i am all alone at home again.. i dont even understand.. things are so unpredictable.. still remember last time i would be the one always not at home.. but now everything turn the other way round.. ha~~ whatever.. yvonne is always feeling lonely de.. so no different!!
wanted to sleep at around 3plus.. cause i was really tired.. it could be the reason cause yesterday got one very funny ger called me up at 2plus in the night.. this ger noe who is she.. she made me eyes big big after that.. the sudden urge of going there to find her was coming into me.. haha.. at 3plus i was lying on my bed.. tears roll down once again.. i admit i was not alright.. cause of what happened yesterday.. my mind was in a mess again.. i didnt noe what to do.. i really hate everything.. i couldnt make my mind clear now.. this is dragging long.. haish.. let's count how long i have been emo-ing.. one week!! after tomorrow will be one week le.. haish.. i always seems so strong.. but i dont think i am..
i gave up after that.. i force myself to stop thinking.. i get out of my bed and tried to watch whatever is on television.. and it was time when i watch shao gong.. when i saw him.. i was feeling a little weird.. i still miss him much like before.. i guess he will always be the one who will be able to make me smile and happy.. a little gesture by him.. i will be contented.. i truely miss him and i want him to be in front of me now.. but is that possible?? rain rain~~ will is he coming?? you noe?? ha!
okay due to the boredness inside me.. i decided to try making the gui lin gao after taking the recipe for my cousin.. heex.. initially it wasnt sweet at all.. so mummy ask me to pour everything inside and cook.. imagine i have added the whole packet of cane sugar lah!! wah.. but it wasnt that sweet.. should be just nice bah.. i pour it into one big one two small one.. let see who i shall give this time round.. =))
in life.. shouldnt i be contented with everything?? but i dont think that is the case.. i am always complaining that i dont want this.. i dont want that.. i hate this i hate that.. i guess i shouldnt complain that much bah.. can i dont noe why.. i dont have courage.. whenever i got this feeling to say something.. i called that person everything will not come out.. i dont like this at all.. haish.. forget it bah.. like what i wrote in my SAM reflection.. i am a timid ger who is afraid of everything.. so no different at all.. =)
who will dry up my tears??
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