Friday, May 11, 2007
early morning i was woken by the thundestorm.. i was scared.. i hid under my blanket.. out of sudden handphone rang i got a shock.. i slowly opened my blanket to see my message.. bestie sms.. she was also scared too.. after much decision.. we decided to give up on going to our frenz wake today.. we silently prayed hard for her..
the sudden raining and thunderstorm made me think a lot.. i was not in myself.. things started flowing in my mind.. i remembered mummy once said when a person died and cant bear their families and frenz.. it will rain.. especially during the day when he/she was about to de bury or creminate(dont noe how to spell).. this was bad.. and i was totally scared.. is not i dont want to send her off the last journey but i just cant bear it.. furthermore it will be a more sadden-ing sight.. my heart break totally..
i was tearing under my blanket.. couldnt get into sleep.. finally i fall asleep at 7plus.. i thought everything will be fine once i woke up.. everything will be fine when i woke up.. but no.. i still couldnt accept the fact.. no one was at home today.. i didnt go lecture today too.. i couldnt concentrated.. haish.. hopefully i will be fine after this sunday.. =)) i cant stay at home.. once i at home my mind started to run everywhere.. haish..
so in the end.. i went BPP with bestie.. and i finally bought the sandals.. bestie also have one too.. we have same sandals!! =)) then we also walked around at BPP to search for our frenz birthday pressie.. we finally found some but she didnt find her mum pressie for mother's day.. we got ourselves a nail polish too.. i got a weird color which no one will think yvonne will get one.. haha.. bestie got herself one gold color.. we agreed to exchange our colors on tuesday.. =))
i am trying to let myself feel a little happier.. hopefully everything will be fine for me.. i still lurv the wonderful smiling me.. =D
friendship is another problem for me.. i dont understand certain things.. why people always see the surface?? i dont noe what i should do.. seeing my bestie feeling so sad.. i dont noe what i should do.. something i was thinking.. if i didnt get into ECH.. things might be different.. if i didnt get myself into lurv this issue.. maybe things are not going to be this way.. many many things will be different.. bestie wouldnt be feeling that sad.. =(( haish.. somehow thinking it was my fault.. really mine.. haish..
i want my guardian angel beside me.. i want them.. haix.. why everything so different now?? i want to cry but i control.. hopefully everything will be fine soon.. i hope i hope..
the sudden raining and thunderstorm made me think a lot.. i was not in myself.. things started flowing in my mind.. i remembered mummy once said when a person died and cant bear their families and frenz.. it will rain.. especially during the day when he/she was about to de bury or creminate(dont noe how to spell).. this was bad.. and i was totally scared.. is not i dont want to send her off the last journey but i just cant bear it.. furthermore it will be a more sadden-ing sight.. my heart break totally..
i was tearing under my blanket.. couldnt get into sleep.. finally i fall asleep at 7plus.. i thought everything will be fine once i woke up.. everything will be fine when i woke up.. but no.. i still couldnt accept the fact.. no one was at home today.. i didnt go lecture today too.. i couldnt concentrated.. haish.. hopefully i will be fine after this sunday.. =)) i cant stay at home.. once i at home my mind started to run everywhere.. haish..
so in the end.. i went BPP with bestie.. and i finally bought the sandals.. bestie also have one too.. we have same sandals!! =)) then we also walked around at BPP to search for our frenz birthday pressie.. we finally found some but she didnt find her mum pressie for mother's day.. we got ourselves a nail polish too.. i got a weird color which no one will think yvonne will get one.. haha.. bestie got herself one gold color.. we agreed to exchange our colors on tuesday.. =))
i am trying to let myself feel a little happier.. hopefully everything will be fine for me.. i still lurv the wonderful smiling me.. =D
friendship is another problem for me.. i dont understand certain things.. why people always see the surface?? i dont noe what i should do.. seeing my bestie feeling so sad.. i dont noe what i should do.. something i was thinking.. if i didnt get into ECH.. things might be different.. if i didnt get myself into lurv this issue.. maybe things are not going to be this way.. many many things will be different.. bestie wouldnt be feeling that sad.. =(( haish.. somehow thinking it was my fault.. really mine.. haish..
i want my guardian angel beside me.. i want them.. haix.. why everything so different now?? i want to cry but i control.. hopefully everything will be fine soon.. i hope i hope..
treasure whatever you have
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