today lesson ended at around 11am.. actually having AW tutorial at 2pm but it was shifted to 12noon and those class which not having tutorial today will be excused.. so being the only one dont noe what to do.. i decided to not go for that tutorial.. initially plan was to have our lunch then proceed to our SAM activity discussion.. but it didnt go very well.. everything was cancelled.. so we went to play games for a while.. but everyone was tired.. so we didnt stay long.. we went off at around 1plus..
some random photos when we were playing uno tacho.. wah kaoz.. it always fall when it was my turn!! so suay can.. then was like shouting and laughing like mad.. the people sitting near us must be thinking we are crazy.. haha.. but i had a good laugh kays!!
okay fine i didnt noe where to go after everything.. i called up everyone and none is free.. okay loh.. initially staying at clubhouse to help shuling to clean up but i was very restless and so i didnt stay.. went home alone.. not noe-ing what i should do to kill time.. so i took a super long bus home.. on bus was thinking quite a lot.. rain dearie was sms-ing me.. and she was shock that i was alone.. too bad she cant come out cause she wasnt free.. nevermind then.. i went causeway point alone.. imagine!! i went alone kays!!! i was strolling there not noe-ing what i need to buy and do.. wanted to go library but decided not to.. went to pasar malam stroll around again but it was far tooo humid inside.. so went back causeway point.. loitering everywhere i could.. buy things needed for lesson on monday and making cards.. now i finally noe loitering around in shopping centre can kill one person kays.. so i decided to go home when it was around 4pm.. reached home do nothing.. online online online.. no one there too.. what the point man...
okay i shall say everything before i decided to go MIA for days.. i need to stay alone.. somewhere in my heart there is a line which make me lose faith in everything.. how come when i need people no one is there.. i am feeling a little not okay!! i hate everything now!!! really hate it.. haish.. i am losing to the world.. losing terribly!! i dont noe is it my thinking or what.. when i am alone my mind start to wonder.. wonder to different world which no one will noe it went to.. i want to boat quay man.. if i am a little bit more daring.. maybe now i already heading there sitting there listening to my heart beat.. but i am not.. staying at home seems boring.. nothing seems to make me feel better.. i vent my sadness on my bears.. they will feel the pain too kays.. ha ha ha.. tomorrow shall be a day for yvonne to reflect and think.. okay fine.. i shall go away and miss me people.. =))
i miss my frenz suddenly.. i realised how important they are to me.. ha ha ha.. but sometimes you dont seems important to them.. they treat you and you treat them differently.. so we cant possible be selfish.. i need to learn liao.. learn everything on my own.. i fall down i have to learn to pick up myself.. okay fine.. let me just be emotic for a while.. once i have my next posting.. i will be fine again.. alright people.. give me a call or sms kays.. i will be waiting.. =))
look up the sky and i only saw clouds..where is my stars which bright up my road??
