Saturday, May 26, 2007
i thought i can force myself to MIA from blog and msn for a few days.. but i realised i cant.. this shows that this 2 things are very important to me.. there are basically some reasons why i cant mia.. firstly if i got nothing to do.. my mind wonder and my mood will wonder too.. secondly if will get emo when i am alone.. dont even noe why.. haha.. so i still come online and i still blog.. i need to blog in order to get everything out of me..
today i did my lesson once again with my godsis.. but the timing like sure will be very long too.. because i am taking 2 groups.. that why i cant extend more time.. but actually i can right?? one group 30mins.. which means my whole lesson for 2 groups will be 70mins.. kinda long right.. so i cant.. at most only 60mins.. haish.. so i am rather worry that monday will be again a slow one.. haish.. and this time my mentor will be assessing me.. haish..*worry* i noe my mentor is nice but being teacher i must be up to standard too.. hopefully everything will be well bah..
took some photos when they are doing the art pieces.. it turn out to be a nice one.. but mummy commented that aileen one look like hua lian mao.. cause she used the 3 colours which are blue red and yellow on the face.. cute kays.. that how kids nowadays.. creative!! and they do whatever they like.. =D i had fun looking at them making the doll..
after that they went home straight cause they need to go to her grandfather's house.. so didnt have a chance to play with them.. but soon.. cause they already having their holidays.. haha.. oh ya.. steven uncle de new car coming this tuesday.. woohoo!!! so shiok!! heex.. i cant wait to sit his car and go out.. haha.. i will have chance soon.. cause i am going genting!! i shall get my rice hp chain again.. i dont care.. mine already spoilt so i shall have one again.. =))
i am feeling moody today.. should say start from yesterday bah.. i tears 3 times yesterday kays.. recently i am getting a little more and more crybaby.. haish.. i didnt cry in the past de loh.. maybe now i need to cry so that this is to cover last time never cry de.. wah weird lah.. simple things make me cry.. yesterday i tears and cindy saw.. she also shock.. but i cant control.. then when i was inside 960 heading home.. my eyes filled with tears.. then it drop down.. luckily i was at the back not much people.. then at home.. i tears inside my room.. when want go to sleep also tears.. then ended up couldnt sleep.. slept at only 3plus.. didnt sleep well too.. morning woke up headache.. then hen xing ku kays.. today whole day didnt really laugh.. only smile.. even i watch the funny show also no use.. my didi is laughing like mad when he is watching the zhou ri ba dian dang.. i was like huh what the hell.. haish.. mood not good also very xing ku kays.. arghz.. life isnt peaceful..
where are those who i need them now.. i need them real bad.. i scold myself dumb.. i hate myself.. come to think of a lot of things.. i was thinking.. if i didnt change my primary school when i was primary 3 i wouldnt get into RSS then.. no more rain dearie.. then there will be no kuku family for me.. and no more my close and cheerful pals in secondary school.. if i managed o get into another school.. i might be dont noe where.. maybe right now i already waiting for university life.. cause i might go JC that time if i score well.. if i dont have the passion for kids.. right now i wouldnt be in ECH and wouldnt get to noe eileen bestie and my sotong family which is name after a blur sotong like me.. furthermore.. if i never join astro with shuling.. i wouldnt fall in lurv and i wouldnt get to noe xinyi sweetie.. things might not be what it should be right now.. how i wish i stay in the past.. when rain dearie and i would always go out together.. take neoprints together whereby only we 2.. i miss those time.. i also miss the time when my sotong family get together and can you imagine.. it had been half a year since my sotong family last gathering.. when will it be?? although it wasnt long i went out wit xinyi sweetie.. but things change kays.. she is busy with everything and i am busy with everything.. i dont have time.. dont have time for everyone.. haish.. i still miss all my frenz..
i may be free sometimes.. but when i am free none is free.. when i am not free.. everyone asking me when i am free.. what the.. haish.. i need a serious talk.. a very very serious de talk.. i am emo cause of this.. none will forgive me.. haish.. dont bother about me bah.. let me rot here kays.. =)
today i did my lesson once again with my godsis.. but the timing like sure will be very long too.. because i am taking 2 groups.. that why i cant extend more time.. but actually i can right?? one group 30mins.. which means my whole lesson for 2 groups will be 70mins.. kinda long right.. so i cant.. at most only 60mins.. haish.. so i am rather worry that monday will be again a slow one.. haish.. and this time my mentor will be assessing me.. haish..*worry* i noe my mentor is nice but being teacher i must be up to standard too.. hopefully everything will be well bah..
took some photos when they are doing the art pieces.. it turn out to be a nice one.. but mummy commented that aileen one look like hua lian mao.. cause she used the 3 colours which are blue red and yellow on the face.. cute kays.. that how kids nowadays.. creative!! and they do whatever they like.. =D i had fun looking at them making the doll..
after that they went home straight cause they need to go to her grandfather's house.. so didnt have a chance to play with them.. but soon.. cause they already having their holidays.. haha.. oh ya.. steven uncle de new car coming this tuesday.. woohoo!!! so shiok!! heex.. i cant wait to sit his car and go out.. haha.. i will have chance soon.. cause i am going genting!! i shall get my rice hp chain again.. i dont care.. mine already spoilt so i shall have one again.. =))i am feeling moody today.. should say start from yesterday bah.. i tears 3 times yesterday kays.. recently i am getting a little more and more crybaby.. haish.. i didnt cry in the past de loh.. maybe now i need to cry so that this is to cover last time never cry de.. wah weird lah.. simple things make me cry.. yesterday i tears and cindy saw.. she also shock.. but i cant control.. then when i was inside 960 heading home.. my eyes filled with tears.. then it drop down.. luckily i was at the back not much people.. then at home.. i tears inside my room.. when want go to sleep also tears.. then ended up couldnt sleep.. slept at only 3plus.. didnt sleep well too.. morning woke up headache.. then hen xing ku kays.. today whole day didnt really laugh.. only smile.. even i watch the funny show also no use.. my didi is laughing like mad when he is watching the zhou ri ba dian dang.. i was like huh what the hell.. haish.. mood not good also very xing ku kays.. arghz.. life isnt peaceful..
where are those who i need them now.. i need them real bad.. i scold myself dumb.. i hate myself.. come to think of a lot of things.. i was thinking.. if i didnt change my primary school when i was primary 3 i wouldnt get into RSS then.. no more rain dearie.. then there will be no kuku family for me.. and no more my close and cheerful pals in secondary school.. if i managed o get into another school.. i might be dont noe where.. maybe right now i already waiting for university life.. cause i might go JC that time if i score well.. if i dont have the passion for kids.. right now i wouldnt be in ECH and wouldnt get to noe eileen bestie and my sotong family which is name after a blur sotong like me.. furthermore.. if i never join astro with shuling.. i wouldnt fall in lurv and i wouldnt get to noe xinyi sweetie.. things might not be what it should be right now.. how i wish i stay in the past.. when rain dearie and i would always go out together.. take neoprints together whereby only we 2.. i miss those time.. i also miss the time when my sotong family get together and can you imagine.. it had been half a year since my sotong family last gathering.. when will it be?? although it wasnt long i went out wit xinyi sweetie.. but things change kays.. she is busy with everything and i am busy with everything.. i dont have time.. dont have time for everyone.. haish.. i still miss all my frenz..
i may be free sometimes.. but when i am free none is free.. when i am not free.. everyone asking me when i am free.. what the.. haish.. i need a serious talk.. a very very serious de talk.. i am emo cause of this.. none will forgive me.. haish.. dont bother about me bah.. let me rot here kays.. =)
i miss my frenz but i miss my darlings most!!
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