Tuesday, May 15, 2007
today i saw weeling serene and jieying at interchange.. so we happily went to board 187 and went to school together.. but it was not a pleasant trip.. cause we were caught in the jam at expressway to bukit panjang.. for around 1hour we were inside the bus worrying for our lesson.. cause we were all late.. gosh!!! i was late for class.. and today was a special programme for SAM.. a psychologist came into to class to give us a talk.. it was on stress management.. the C and D classes didnt have this talk.. haish.. and this talk retrived up the feeling which was inside me.. i nearly cried..
our lecturer so called purposely organised this talk for our class because of the death of our dear frenz.. but it wasnt that good.. it made me feel down and people were all tearing around you.. and i really want to tears liao especially when we break up into groups and we were attached to one of the psychologist.. she made us to talk about everything.. i couldnt talk.. through out the whole session i kept very quiet.. i dont feel like saying anything.. bestie cried.. weisian cried.. and th psychologist was saying what can we do if another this incident happen.. i control kays.. i didnt tears when she asked this question.. but i sincerely pray that none of this will happen again.. i will break down really jia lat.. i cant take it.. even my family.. i cant take it.. i prayed hard for it not to happen again.. i began to worry.. i hide everything inside me.. no one noe happened except for me.. i seems to be enjoying myself during the time with my frenz but the hurt inside no one noe.. it is terrible.. i am lucky that i have a blog to vent out everything.. but certain things i couldnt say out.. i feel horrible.. i dont feel like talking but if i dont talk i will burst out.. what to do?? haish..
many things rushed to my brain during break time.. i didnt talk and i didnt smile.. i was keeping myself occupied by trying all the way to get my FM tutorial homework done.. i tried my best to teach bestie and explained everything to qingling.. hopefully i do help.. thursday will be FM quiz.. i got no confident.. i didnt study i didnt listen in class.. i hate studying out of the sudden.. usually i dont hate it.. but now i hate it.. i lost interest in everything.. in other words i lost faith.. haish.. trying very hard now.. but nothing seems to work.. haish..
it has been long since i last went out with sweetie darling xinyi.. i miss her!! but where is she?? she is busy with her assignment too.. haish.. dearie darling rain also busy at home watching show.. haish.. i miss my sweetie darling and my dearie darling.. haix.. bestie leen also becoming a little crazy with all lesson plan.. and i am turning mad!!! many many things to do.. but i simply got no mood in doing..
haish!!! 2BO1 is tyring very hard to get everyone together after this incident.. but it seems like we can do nothing.. but i believe everything will be smooth and fine for us.. i pray for it.. =)) i shall give a lovely smile for this.. i hope i get over everything soon.. but i cant.. i need to make myself busy.. fine this week will be a busy week for me.. i am not free everyday.. maybe like that then i will feel a little happier bah.. numbing myself.. ha ha ha~
our lecturer so called purposely organised this talk for our class because of the death of our dear frenz.. but it wasnt that good.. it made me feel down and people were all tearing around you.. and i really want to tears liao especially when we break up into groups and we were attached to one of the psychologist.. she made us to talk about everything.. i couldnt talk.. through out the whole session i kept very quiet.. i dont feel like saying anything.. bestie cried.. weisian cried.. and th psychologist was saying what can we do if another this incident happen.. i control kays.. i didnt tears when she asked this question.. but i sincerely pray that none of this will happen again.. i will break down really jia lat.. i cant take it.. even my family.. i cant take it.. i prayed hard for it not to happen again.. i began to worry.. i hide everything inside me.. no one noe happened except for me.. i seems to be enjoying myself during the time with my frenz but the hurt inside no one noe.. it is terrible.. i am lucky that i have a blog to vent out everything.. but certain things i couldnt say out.. i feel horrible.. i dont feel like talking but if i dont talk i will burst out.. what to do?? haish..
many things rushed to my brain during break time.. i didnt talk and i didnt smile.. i was keeping myself occupied by trying all the way to get my FM tutorial homework done.. i tried my best to teach bestie and explained everything to qingling.. hopefully i do help.. thursday will be FM quiz.. i got no confident.. i didnt study i didnt listen in class.. i hate studying out of the sudden.. usually i dont hate it.. but now i hate it.. i lost interest in everything.. in other words i lost faith.. haish.. trying very hard now.. but nothing seems to work.. haish..
it has been long since i last went out with sweetie darling xinyi.. i miss her!! but where is she?? she is busy with her assignment too.. haish.. dearie darling rain also busy at home watching show.. haish.. i miss my sweetie darling and my dearie darling.. haix.. bestie leen also becoming a little crazy with all lesson plan.. and i am turning mad!!! many many things to do.. but i simply got no mood in doing..
haish!!! 2BO1 is tyring very hard to get everyone together after this incident.. but it seems like we can do nothing.. but i believe everything will be smooth and fine for us.. i pray for it.. =)) i shall give a lovely smile for this.. i hope i get over everything soon.. but i cant.. i need to make myself busy.. fine this week will be a busy week for me.. i am not free everyday.. maybe like that then i will feel a little happier bah.. numbing myself.. ha ha ha~
a shoulder to lean on will be best for me now
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