Saturday, April 21, 2007
oh i realised something.. it truely hurting and pain.. it had cause a hurt cut inside my heart.. and now i noe everything.. what a shock.. and it actually kept inside a innocent ger for almost a year.. and kept a naive ger not noe-ing for almost a year too.. it is far too cruel.. am i really being too naive?? i thought everything was over cause this happened long ago when i fall in lurv.. but now i begin to noe more things..
i noe something is wrong about the friendship i had during my first year in poly.. but i tried my best to solve everything.. i realised my mistakes so i apologised and always trying to save and made it better.. i thought we were okay and fine as nothing seems to have any problem le.. but now i was WRONG!! totally wrong..
am i such a bad ger whereby you can backstabbed behind me and trying to make yourself seems so great?? you once promised to be by my side when i need you but you actually running away.. you said you were tired so i tried to keep everything to myself and making you relieved.. you were happily in a relationship while me trying hard to protect myself.. you made me thought i can trust you so i told everything to you.. thinking that since you were once in a relationship before would eventually helped me solve my problems.. you always said i dont have the confidence in myself and always tried to make me feel confidence.. but now.. you turning your head off.. you have made me see through you.. you are such a fake person.. if you are tired of being by my side.. just tell me straight away.. dont tell it to another person and keeping me in the dark for so long.. since you are tired.. i am also tired.. i hate fake friendship.. you made me starting to feel uncertain about frenz..
i dont noe why you were telling stories about me.. i didnt do all those things you said.. you are trying to make use of me and then just throw me aside after this.. dont you noe how hurt it will be.. i never encounter this before in my whole 19years of life.. and now you are coming to me making me as if i am that useless.. I HATE YOU!! i definitely hate you.. you made me feel like a shit now.. whatever you said out will no longer be able to turn back.. i believe what xinyi said karma do exist.. whatever you do to me will get back to you one day.. i am not being cruel.. but i am being truthfully to myself.. i hate to do this.. but you made me to.. I AM GOING TO WASH MY HANDS OFF YOU!! i mean what i said.. you made me feel totally disappointed in you.. you will never gain my trust again.. I SWEAR!!
you made me cried.. and i actually cried when talking to xinyi.. i actually cried for 3 times in just a day.. why why.. my heart is so fragile.. but i cant be strong anymore.. i need to have a shoulder to lean on.. i have to learn to make frenz only if they are true.. i will never made a frenz who is like you who always put on a mask.. i have seen through you and i noe you are such a person.. forget it.. you dont worth me anymore..
i am great that my close pal see through and noe what kind of person i am.. she will never be tired when she with me.. she never complain like you do.. she is worth of me but you are not.. i dislike your attitude.. you made me hate you forever..
yvonne is life is going to be very fragile.. i am going to break down any time.. i find myself being useles.. i hate myself.. i hope i can see shooting star which will grant my wishes for me.. i want to leave this untrue world.. i want to live far far away.. i dont want to stay here.. the scar will be forever there.. and it will never be mend.. i have made a wrong choice to be frenz with you and treating you so well.. i should have listen to the others.. but i just want to prove them wrong.. but now i noe they meant well..
you are such a disgrace.. i hate you!!!
who will be there to allow me to cry on.. my heart feels the pain.. really pain.. i am really really feeling PAIN!!!!
i am happy enough to have rain xinyi and eileen by my side.. they made me understand.. but can i have their assurance too?? *wondering*
i noe something is wrong about the friendship i had during my first year in poly.. but i tried my best to solve everything.. i realised my mistakes so i apologised and always trying to save and made it better.. i thought we were okay and fine as nothing seems to have any problem le.. but now i was WRONG!! totally wrong..
am i such a bad ger whereby you can backstabbed behind me and trying to make yourself seems so great?? you once promised to be by my side when i need you but you actually running away.. you said you were tired so i tried to keep everything to myself and making you relieved.. you were happily in a relationship while me trying hard to protect myself.. you made me thought i can trust you so i told everything to you.. thinking that since you were once in a relationship before would eventually helped me solve my problems.. you always said i dont have the confidence in myself and always tried to make me feel confidence.. but now.. you turning your head off.. you have made me see through you.. you are such a fake person.. if you are tired of being by my side.. just tell me straight away.. dont tell it to another person and keeping me in the dark for so long.. since you are tired.. i am also tired.. i hate fake friendship.. you made me starting to feel uncertain about frenz..
i dont noe why you were telling stories about me.. i didnt do all those things you said.. you are trying to make use of me and then just throw me aside after this.. dont you noe how hurt it will be.. i never encounter this before in my whole 19years of life.. and now you are coming to me making me as if i am that useless.. I HATE YOU!! i definitely hate you.. you made me feel like a shit now.. whatever you said out will no longer be able to turn back.. i believe what xinyi said karma do exist.. whatever you do to me will get back to you one day.. i am not being cruel.. but i am being truthfully to myself.. i hate to do this.. but you made me to.. I AM GOING TO WASH MY HANDS OFF YOU!! i mean what i said.. you made me feel totally disappointed in you.. you will never gain my trust again.. I SWEAR!!
you made me cried.. and i actually cried when talking to xinyi.. i actually cried for 3 times in just a day.. why why.. my heart is so fragile.. but i cant be strong anymore.. i need to have a shoulder to lean on.. i have to learn to make frenz only if they are true.. i will never made a frenz who is like you who always put on a mask.. i have seen through you and i noe you are such a person.. forget it.. you dont worth me anymore..
i am great that my close pal see through and noe what kind of person i am.. she will never be tired when she with me.. she never complain like you do.. she is worth of me but you are not.. i dislike your attitude.. you made me hate you forever..
yvonne is life is going to be very fragile.. i am going to break down any time.. i find myself being useles.. i hate myself.. i hope i can see shooting star which will grant my wishes for me.. i want to leave this untrue world.. i want to live far far away.. i dont want to stay here.. the scar will be forever there.. and it will never be mend.. i have made a wrong choice to be frenz with you and treating you so well.. i should have listen to the others.. but i just want to prove them wrong.. but now i noe they meant well..
you are such a disgrace.. i hate you!!!
who will be there to allow me to cry on.. my heart feels the pain.. really pain.. i am really really feeling PAIN!!!!
i am happy enough to have rain xinyi and eileen by my side.. they made me understand.. but can i have their assurance too?? *wondering*
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