Wednesday, March 07, 2007
today date was cancelled yesterday night.. eileen was unable to make it as her bf is sick.. so we cancelled our date..
rushing my proposal and send it to the rest of the in-charges.. but none of them read through my proposal yet.. haish.. hopefully either one of them will reply me soon bah.. then i am able to send it to evelyn as soon as possible.. wishing that i never do a bad job..
currently my mood totally change.. i am not longer feeling happy.. i am worried and afraid.. many many things for me to worry.. what should i do.. nothing i guess.. hmm.. today shall be an emo post whereby people will come by killing me if possible.. well kill me le i die isnt it be good?? no one will ever pity you de.. i am lost once again in the woods without knowing what i should do.. who want to pull me out of the woods once again and be my jiu xing??
i had enough of complains.. i am tired.. why cant i stop having complains for just one day?? i have lot of things to do but people are just coming in telling what what what.. i had enough.. i want to make a stop.. but it doesnt stop at all.. no one noe how tough it is inside me.. no one.. and none noe what to do.. leaving it to me and i start to feel the stress.. i dont noe what is going on.. i begin to worry.. next week astro chalet no one come and it is not a success.. why am i always the one worrying while the rest can still freely go anywhere they like?? they never ask.. they dont even bother.. i feel scared.. things go wrong whoes fault? all mine.. just mine.. no one will care.. i am also lousy.. i feel lousy too.. why am i so lousy that everyone tend to comment so much?? haiz..
i cried once again for some stupid reasons.. cried twice for another stupid thing.. why am i always that foolish one to keep crying?? =((
actually should be going to club with xinyi tml de.. but somehow daddy says i can go if i will be back around 12am.. i was like.. huh.. how can that be.. it is totally impossible.. cause entering time is 9pm and maybe later queue until 9plus go in.. which means i need to go home at 10plus.. maddie.. so i choose the path of not going.. daddy didnt scold but he just worry that i am going home alone in cab.. haish.. and i guess i made xinyi disappointed bah.. honestly.. i did want to go.. but somehow cause of certain things.. i am unable to go.. ger.. sorry.. i noe somehow you feel irritated lah cause last minute you got a group of frenz not going.. even now i am not going.. your msn-ing to me seems angry.. just now when i called you also not like that de.. that why i noe.. haish..
what should i do?? i am useless.. i am sad.. =((
rushing my proposal and send it to the rest of the in-charges.. but none of them read through my proposal yet.. haish.. hopefully either one of them will reply me soon bah.. then i am able to send it to evelyn as soon as possible.. wishing that i never do a bad job..
currently my mood totally change.. i am not longer feeling happy.. i am worried and afraid.. many many things for me to worry.. what should i do.. nothing i guess.. hmm.. today shall be an emo post whereby people will come by killing me if possible.. well kill me le i die isnt it be good?? no one will ever pity you de.. i am lost once again in the woods without knowing what i should do.. who want to pull me out of the woods once again and be my jiu xing??
i had enough of complains.. i am tired.. why cant i stop having complains for just one day?? i have lot of things to do but people are just coming in telling what what what.. i had enough.. i want to make a stop.. but it doesnt stop at all.. no one noe how tough it is inside me.. no one.. and none noe what to do.. leaving it to me and i start to feel the stress.. i dont noe what is going on.. i begin to worry.. next week astro chalet no one come and it is not a success.. why am i always the one worrying while the rest can still freely go anywhere they like?? they never ask.. they dont even bother.. i feel scared.. things go wrong whoes fault? all mine.. just mine.. no one will care.. i am also lousy.. i feel lousy too.. why am i so lousy that everyone tend to comment so much?? haiz..
i cried once again for some stupid reasons.. cried twice for another stupid thing.. why am i always that foolish one to keep crying?? =((
actually should be going to club with xinyi tml de.. but somehow daddy says i can go if i will be back around 12am.. i was like.. huh.. how can that be.. it is totally impossible.. cause entering time is 9pm and maybe later queue until 9plus go in.. which means i need to go home at 10plus.. maddie.. so i choose the path of not going.. daddy didnt scold but he just worry that i am going home alone in cab.. haish.. and i guess i made xinyi disappointed bah.. honestly.. i did want to go.. but somehow cause of certain things.. i am unable to go.. ger.. sorry.. i noe somehow you feel irritated lah cause last minute you got a group of frenz not going.. even now i am not going.. your msn-ing to me seems angry.. just now when i called you also not like that de.. that why i noe.. haish..
what should i do?? i am useless.. i am sad.. =((
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