Wednesday, January 03, 2007
suddenly i hav the feeling to post another post today.. i dunno when.. why am i suffering from all tis?? i wanted to cry out.. but i am afraid.. i dun have the mood to do anything.. i cant finish up my assignments.. and worse still my brain is not working.. how am i suppose to do my assignments?? and i had to discuss it tml.. wat am i going to do?? i hate it.. haish..
my mood had nv been peaceful ever since last fri.. everything making me feeling very uneasy.. i could be seen smiling and laughin wit my frenz but my heart is breaking into 2 part.. i am really really feeling very very jia lat.. nth seems to make me smile.. i wan to make myself happy but i jus cant do it.. whenever i wit sockping.. she laugh i will oso laugh and my mood will automatic turn better.. but today no.. i will still laugh but it is not like last time..
HAISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i jus told shuling i wan to make the relationship between me and him more like frenz and not those kind of stranger.. but i guess tis wun come true ba.. there is still some kind of barrier between me and him.. it jus cant be broken down.. sometimes i tot i can overcome the barrier and reached the other side.. but i realised cant.. i still feel scare.. especially now.. i am scare tat i hurt another person feeling.. haish..
i noe i once said tat i wan to leave tis relationship and i will always give my blessing to the 2.. but it seems like wat i said i din apply.. i still feel miserable abt it.. u worry u hurt me but i worry i hurt u.. so wat the point.. no one will eventually get smth from the relationship.. haish.. back out actually is the best choice for everything.. but... haish.. rain noe.. she told to me but i jus cant make myself stop liking him.. he is somehow far too impt for me.. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really dunno.. my mind cant think and make conclusion..
i making ppl upset.. making ppl worry.. making ppl torturing themselves.. YVONNE!!!! is tis how u repay to ppl who are close to u???? IS THIS????? u simply jus an IDIOT!!! U MAKING YOUR FRENZ UPSET AND U MAKING THEM FEELING MISERABLE.. THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE LIKE TIS!! COS OF YOUR STUPID HEART WHICH FALL FOR PPL WHO IS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE FALL FOR!!! yvonne!! wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
my mood had nv been peaceful ever since last fri.. everything making me feeling very uneasy.. i could be seen smiling and laughin wit my frenz but my heart is breaking into 2 part.. i am really really feeling very very jia lat.. nth seems to make me smile.. i wan to make myself happy but i jus cant do it.. whenever i wit sockping.. she laugh i will oso laugh and my mood will automatic turn better.. but today no.. i will still laugh but it is not like last time..
HAISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i jus told shuling i wan to make the relationship between me and him more like frenz and not those kind of stranger.. but i guess tis wun come true ba.. there is still some kind of barrier between me and him.. it jus cant be broken down.. sometimes i tot i can overcome the barrier and reached the other side.. but i realised cant.. i still feel scare.. especially now.. i am scare tat i hurt another person feeling.. haish..
i noe i once said tat i wan to leave tis relationship and i will always give my blessing to the 2.. but it seems like wat i said i din apply.. i still feel miserable abt it.. u worry u hurt me but i worry i hurt u.. so wat the point.. no one will eventually get smth from the relationship.. haish.. back out actually is the best choice for everything.. but... haish.. rain noe.. she told to me but i jus cant make myself stop liking him.. he is somehow far too impt for me.. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really dunno.. my mind cant think and make conclusion..
i making ppl upset.. making ppl worry.. making ppl torturing themselves.. YVONNE!!!! is tis how u repay to ppl who are close to u???? IS THIS????? u simply jus an IDIOT!!! U MAKING YOUR FRENZ UPSET AND U MAKING THEM FEELING MISERABLE.. THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE LIKE TIS!! COS OF YOUR STUPID HEART WHICH FALL FOR PPL WHO IS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE FALL FOR!!! yvonne!! wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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