Monday, January 29, 2007
wat should i say?? my life simply sux and nothing is seem to be happening in the way it should be.. sad and miserable.. where is all my lovely angels?? i miss them.. now there are only hating devils around.. no more angels who bring joys and laughter to my life.. i hope the time can turn back and always remain at the part where lovely angels are around with me..
today should be a very important day.. cause the lecturers will be going thru te exam format and things to focus on.. but want really make me feel miserable was that i STUDIED my CD1.3 mock exam.. but what i got in the end.. NOTHING!! my brain dun work and i CANT remember anything for the test.. and i actually leave some questions blank.. although she didnt collect it back.. i still felt very angry with myself.. i studied dunno how many times yesterday night and i even read it when i was in the bus today.. how can i dun remember anything?? am i useless or what?? the brain is retarding.. and i am suffering.. exam is just starting next friday.. if this continues.. i am going to be dead.. i am really worried.. why things dun just go the way it should be.. why has it got to change the ways of travelling?? life is always complicated and things happened in just a blink of your eyes.. you never get to choose anything.. so what is the point?? i am tired of living like this.. i hope to stop.. but i cant really stop it.. things are all piling up high in my heart and sooner or later.. you will see me breaking down.. i really want to lean on someone's shoulder and dun get up.. who will be the kind soul?? many many things we are unable to predict.. we are born with a simple life.. why do we have to add in things to make it complicated?? WHY?????? i am shivering.. i need a time to be isolated and think.. but whenever i am alone.. i want to have peers around me.. i cant afford to be alone.. many crazy things will come out of my brain when i am alone.. I WAN COMPANY!!!!
AAHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i also dunno why i am feeling this way.. i just feeling very scare and nervous.. i want to settle down to study.. but my mind just dun wan to cooperate.. poly life is really relaxing and thus it leads to me unable to concentrate.. i regretted not listening in class.. not listening in class made the life of mine difficult as i am unable to concentrate well.. hoping that i will be able to concentrate after my last assignment..
anyway.. went to astro main comm interview and i was very very nervous.. i was not really prepared as i dun have any positions in mind.. but just now evelyn sms me and told me i was being shortlisted.. wed i need go back for astro again.. so let hope it will be fine ba.. *PRAY*
anyway.. praying hard that leen will be fine and everything will be over..
today should be a very important day.. cause the lecturers will be going thru te exam format and things to focus on.. but want really make me feel miserable was that i STUDIED my CD1.3 mock exam.. but what i got in the end.. NOTHING!! my brain dun work and i CANT remember anything for the test.. and i actually leave some questions blank.. although she didnt collect it back.. i still felt very angry with myself.. i studied dunno how many times yesterday night and i even read it when i was in the bus today.. how can i dun remember anything?? am i useless or what?? the brain is retarding.. and i am suffering.. exam is just starting next friday.. if this continues.. i am going to be dead.. i am really worried.. why things dun just go the way it should be.. why has it got to change the ways of travelling?? life is always complicated and things happened in just a blink of your eyes.. you never get to choose anything.. so what is the point?? i am tired of living like this.. i hope to stop.. but i cant really stop it.. things are all piling up high in my heart and sooner or later.. you will see me breaking down.. i really want to lean on someone's shoulder and dun get up.. who will be the kind soul?? many many things we are unable to predict.. we are born with a simple life.. why do we have to add in things to make it complicated?? WHY?????? i am shivering.. i need a time to be isolated and think.. but whenever i am alone.. i want to have peers around me.. i cant afford to be alone.. many crazy things will come out of my brain when i am alone.. I WAN COMPANY!!!!
AAHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i also dunno why i am feeling this way.. i just feeling very scare and nervous.. i want to settle down to study.. but my mind just dun wan to cooperate.. poly life is really relaxing and thus it leads to me unable to concentrate.. i regretted not listening in class.. not listening in class made the life of mine difficult as i am unable to concentrate well.. hoping that i will be able to concentrate after my last assignment..
anyway.. went to astro main comm interview and i was very very nervous.. i was not really prepared as i dun have any positions in mind.. but just now evelyn sms me and told me i was being shortlisted.. wed i need go back for astro again.. so let hope it will be fine ba.. *PRAY*
anyway.. praying hard that leen will be fine and everything will be over..
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