Thursday, October 26, 2006
ytd after posting the entries.. everything seems so fine.. but during nite.. when i saw him online.. it is like going back to the past.. hen xiang hen xiang zai chat wit him again.. but i dun hav the courage.. so end up din chat wit him.. chat wit ting and rain instead.. askin ting to make me occupy if not i will return to the past.. altot i put i am back to normal.. but i feel i din turn back enough.. dennis come and chat wit me again.. he say i was not back to normal and i qn him why.. he say i nv send him songs.. diaoz.. jus cos of tis.. haha.. den nvm lo.. end up i still din send him songs.. cos i dun wan.. wahaha.. den i suddenly feel heart ache again.. i tell ting.. i tell her alot.. she jus cant bother abt me anymore.. she scolded me once again.. she say i am fortunate.. jus cos i haven really get involve in tis rs.. but i told her things are not as simple as she thinks it is.. she scolded me and said alot of things.. i dunno.. rain said she cant possible ask me to be back to myself in jus one day.. time is all i need.. den i cried again ytd.. i may seems strong and nv show ppl how my mood was.. but i still tried my best to put on a smile when i went to sch.. i told rain let it be the last time i cried over for him.. last time and i meant it.. she nv said anything.. and i assume she agreed.. so i cried for a few mins.. and ytd suddenly so many ppl come and chat wit me.. is like huh.. wat is happenin today man.. jiabao come over.. seein my nick ask me wat happened.. but i din said it out.. all i said wat nth ar.. and she left the conversation.. xinyi come oso.. cos she kn wat actually happened.. she was trying to tell me alot of things.. she said after all tis is shopping time.. and i told her i was broke.. haha.. altot i really wan buy nice nice de clothes and cosmetics.. but i am really broke.. the very first thing i wan buy first is my hp.. cos i really hate e hp i using now.. so i wan get it change faster!!! xinyi wanted to treat me lollipop.. haha.. her xing gan bao bei neh.. still willin to share wit me.. thank gal.. hehe.. altot i and her bu shi hen shou but she still willing to share wit me.. =)) and there is tis irritating guy la.. i am kind anough not to block him or wat la.. last time he alrdy come and disturb le.. shuling chase him away.. and mths later he is back again.. keep tellin me all stupid wat u should kn my feelin towards u.. i pui.. i barely kn him.. i kn him thru mirc de.. but it had been 3yrs le la.. pig lo.. if he come again.. i sure block him..
today woke up at 8plus le.. cos cindy msg me askin me whether i wake up le ma.. but i lazy reply.. den fall back to sleep.. an hr later.. she called.. askin me to online and do the research for cd1.3.. and i hen bu she de de crawl out of my cosy bed.. haish.. den online and do all the research lo.. wah piangz.. so difficult.. haish.. den i tried so hard and finally finish 2qn le.. left wit one last qn.. and i dunno how to do tat one.. no choice neh.. wait for cindy to come lo.. den i realise wat i do is found in my book la.. so i change the ans for my 2qn and find new ans again.. cos find from book easier to do citation lo.. hmph.. den the internet resource de citation i dunno how to do.. asking others how to do.. hmph.. bad gal.. hehe.. den jus now finally gu qi yong qi le.. talk to him in msn.. den chat awhile.. cos he at lesson.. so nv continue much le.. i hope to return to the pass soon.. real soon.. forget abt the lurv for him and treat him like a korkor to me.. tat the very best i can do.. oh god.. help me return to the usual area.. and bless me wit all u can.. thank..
today woke up at 8plus le.. cos cindy msg me askin me whether i wake up le ma.. but i lazy reply.. den fall back to sleep.. an hr later.. she called.. askin me to online and do the research for cd1.3.. and i hen bu she de de crawl out of my cosy bed.. haish.. den online and do all the research lo.. wah piangz.. so difficult.. haish.. den i tried so hard and finally finish 2qn le.. left wit one last qn.. and i dunno how to do tat one.. no choice neh.. wait for cindy to come lo.. den i realise wat i do is found in my book la.. so i change the ans for my 2qn and find new ans again.. cos find from book easier to do citation lo.. hmph.. den the internet resource de citation i dunno how to do.. asking others how to do.. hmph.. bad gal.. hehe.. den jus now finally gu qi yong qi le.. talk to him in msn.. den chat awhile.. cos he at lesson.. so nv continue much le.. i hope to return to the pass soon.. real soon.. forget abt the lurv for him and treat him like a korkor to me.. tat the very best i can do.. oh god.. help me return to the usual area.. and bless me wit all u can.. thank..
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