Friday, October 06, 2006
today is the day.. i am going for a 3days 2 nites camp le.. abit scare.. cos tis is the first time i overnite in np ma.. den i so timid de.. haha.. so la.. scary.. >.<
dunno why.. today de mood bu shi hen hao la.. maybe cos of ytd ba.. and i alrdy say lo.. he tis kind of ppl sure last min dun wan go de.. see i nv guess wrongly.. indeed.. he might not be going le.. i dunno why la.. he say he bz.. dunno whether true ma.. everytime wat he say i cannot believe de.. so lo.. ytd ask him do tat test.. the test which rain send me.. and i was damn hurt la.. he put me on the left down.. and it means the one u hate.. and when i saw the ans.. i really feel like crying lo.. but i nv la.. den i told him i sad le la.. cos he hate me.. he den say no la.. is he purposely put de.. cos he say tat words look like human.. so he alrdy kn ans will be smth like tat.. so he put me there.. den he keep smilin la.. but i still hurt la.. told rain abt it.. she say dun care so much.. tis only a game.. nth much.. i oso kn la.. haiz.. den ytd oso talk to sq.. he talk alot la.. but nth get into my brain lei.. i still dunno wat i should do.. and i kn smth which i shouldnt be knowing.. he agree to go out wit others.. but when i ask him out.. he jing ran last min dun wan.. hurt again.. i dunno la.. like wat others say.. maybe he not the one for me.. but the lurv for him is too deep le.. cannot control de.. he make me tot i might actually hav a chance to be a close fren to him first.. but now.. things did change.. jus cos i mia in msn for almost a week.. haiz.. xin hen luan ye shi.. dunno la.. if i give up now.. u see la.. next few days.. i will come back saying my heart hurt and i cant let go.. but if i dun give up.. hurtin myself day by day.. seein him make me think of wat happen everytime.. if i tell him i like him.. ans will be be frenz better.. tis is the ans i got last time.. haiz.. bu zhi dao bu zhi dao.. wo xi huan hen tong ku neh.. zhen de hen tong ku!!! sometime i hate him.. sometime i like him.. is tis all call mix up?? i dunno wat i wan.. i really dunno.. arghz.. god pls help.. guide me to where i should head for.. luan luan.. someone who kn wat to do oso guide me along.. i in need of help!!!
dunno why.. today de mood bu shi hen hao la.. maybe cos of ytd ba.. and i alrdy say lo.. he tis kind of ppl sure last min dun wan go de.. see i nv guess wrongly.. indeed.. he might not be going le.. i dunno why la.. he say he bz.. dunno whether true ma.. everytime wat he say i cannot believe de.. so lo.. ytd ask him do tat test.. the test which rain send me.. and i was damn hurt la.. he put me on the left down.. and it means the one u hate.. and when i saw the ans.. i really feel like crying lo.. but i nv la.. den i told him i sad le la.. cos he hate me.. he den say no la.. is he purposely put de.. cos he say tat words look like human.. so he alrdy kn ans will be smth like tat.. so he put me there.. den he keep smilin la.. but i still hurt la.. told rain abt it.. she say dun care so much.. tis only a game.. nth much.. i oso kn la.. haiz.. den ytd oso talk to sq.. he talk alot la.. but nth get into my brain lei.. i still dunno wat i should do.. and i kn smth which i shouldnt be knowing.. he agree to go out wit others.. but when i ask him out.. he jing ran last min dun wan.. hurt again.. i dunno la.. like wat others say.. maybe he not the one for me.. but the lurv for him is too deep le.. cannot control de.. he make me tot i might actually hav a chance to be a close fren to him first.. but now.. things did change.. jus cos i mia in msn for almost a week.. haiz.. xin hen luan ye shi.. dunno la.. if i give up now.. u see la.. next few days.. i will come back saying my heart hurt and i cant let go.. but if i dun give up.. hurtin myself day by day.. seein him make me think of wat happen everytime.. if i tell him i like him.. ans will be be frenz better.. tis is the ans i got last time.. haiz.. bu zhi dao bu zhi dao.. wo xi huan hen tong ku neh.. zhen de hen tong ku!!! sometime i hate him.. sometime i like him.. is tis all call mix up?? i dunno wat i wan.. i really dunno.. arghz.. god pls help.. guide me to where i should head for.. luan luan.. someone who kn wat to do oso guide me along.. i in need of help!!!
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