Wednesday, August 09, 2006
wat have i done?? am i really tat fan where u can jus break your promise last min?? i dunno.. i am really very disappointed!!!!! i dunno wat to say.. u give me a empty promise..
ytd midnite.. he say he most properly will go wit us to see firwork.. i was overjoyed.. cos i kn i can kn him more thru tis.. but tis is tanish... my wei yi de hope jiu zhe yang mei le..
today mornin wake up wit a happy mood cos goin to see firework in the nite.. den today really very high neh.. very excited abt later too.. he still haven tell me where to meet him.. so i msg him when it was about 4pm.. he call at ard 4.30pm.. u kn wat.. he ask wat we doing later.. i told him everything.. and he give me an ans.. i think i am not going le.. i was in a shock.. i still very cheng qiang de tell him oh ok lo.. den nvm lo.. bye bye.. we hung the phone.. i couldnt take it le.. i lay on sokleng shoulder was abt to cry.. but i cheng qiang again.. i went back to class and feelin very very low.. eileen suggest sms him askin why he dun wan go.. i sms him.. wat he give me is i oso dunno y.. tis ans really break my heart.. i went out of class burstin into tears.. sokleng come along and see.. minloo all saw me cry.. askin me why i cry.. but i jus ignore.. i cry and cry.. i dun understand.. why he wan to give me a empty hope?? why?? i went back class awhile later and qingling all was like kinda sad too.. haiz.. i hai them sad again.. why has it always be me?? why why?? was totally feelin low.. thinkin of not goin to see firework le.. but sokleng keep askin me to go.. say wat clement is alrdy here lo.. dun let him come wasted.. so i go.. but everything was not rite!!!!!
both of them keep playing.. i feel so extra over there.. i dunno wat to do.. i sms cindy tell her.. so say why i go.. it only make me more sad and tat is true.. i see them both keep playing my heart hurt more.. haiz.. i was at a lost.. lost.. lost..
clement say u are only makin yourself sad.. and he is not sad.. he will be damn happy.. and he ask is he worth it for u being so sad?? tis qn again.. i dunno i dunno.. i really dunno wat i am suppose to do now.. i am hurt and i dun feel good.. can killing one self solve everything?? arghz.. haiz.. i guess it will be quite a while later if i am going to ask him out again.. haiz.. now most impt is i hope he can come during my bdae.. i really wish he come.. *wishing*
ytd midnite.. he say he most properly will go wit us to see firwork.. i was overjoyed.. cos i kn i can kn him more thru tis.. but tis is tanish... my wei yi de hope jiu zhe yang mei le..
today mornin wake up wit a happy mood cos goin to see firework in the nite.. den today really very high neh.. very excited abt later too.. he still haven tell me where to meet him.. so i msg him when it was about 4pm.. he call at ard 4.30pm.. u kn wat.. he ask wat we doing later.. i told him everything.. and he give me an ans.. i think i am not going le.. i was in a shock.. i still very cheng qiang de tell him oh ok lo.. den nvm lo.. bye bye.. we hung the phone.. i couldnt take it le.. i lay on sokleng shoulder was abt to cry.. but i cheng qiang again.. i went back to class and feelin very very low.. eileen suggest sms him askin why he dun wan go.. i sms him.. wat he give me is i oso dunno y.. tis ans really break my heart.. i went out of class burstin into tears.. sokleng come along and see.. minloo all saw me cry.. askin me why i cry.. but i jus ignore.. i cry and cry.. i dun understand.. why he wan to give me a empty hope?? why?? i went back class awhile later and qingling all was like kinda sad too.. haiz.. i hai them sad again.. why has it always be me?? why why?? was totally feelin low.. thinkin of not goin to see firework le.. but sokleng keep askin me to go.. say wat clement is alrdy here lo.. dun let him come wasted.. so i go.. but everything was not rite!!!!!
both of them keep playing.. i feel so extra over there.. i dunno wat to do.. i sms cindy tell her.. so say why i go.. it only make me more sad and tat is true.. i see them both keep playing my heart hurt more.. haiz.. i was at a lost.. lost.. lost..
clement say u are only makin yourself sad.. and he is not sad.. he will be damn happy.. and he ask is he worth it for u being so sad?? tis qn again.. i dunno i dunno.. i really dunno wat i am suppose to do now.. i am hurt and i dun feel good.. can killing one self solve everything?? arghz.. haiz.. i guess it will be quite a while later if i am going to ask him out again.. haiz.. now most impt is i hope he can come during my bdae.. i really wish he come.. *wishing*
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