Tuesday, August 01, 2006
hi.. haven been thinkng abt tis qn from ytd to now.. haiz.. i really dunno wat i should do.. i realise i have been givin ppl alot of troubles and ppl are actually sick and tired of me le.. i think i should have jus stop tis and dun say it to anyone at all.. arghz.. i shouldnt have speak it out in the beginning.. haiz.. wat i have done really smth wrong.. den i have no choice.. i have no one to speak to.. i really need a person there to talk to me and guide me along.. haiz.. but i realise i have been givin them alot of pressure too.. haiz.. wat should i do?? by bothering up the things to myself could be a good choice but tis will in turn hurt myself.. and sooner or later u will find me died cos i am too pressure liao.. i guess tis is a foolish way to end a thing ba.. killin one self is very stupid lo.. but why does tis kind of things ever come across me?? haiz.. really.. i am thinkin if i jus end my life and leave tis world.. maybe i will find it happy as there is really nth for me to be bother abt le.. haiz..
ya.. today miss the chance of seeing him again.. actually tot of if i am able to see him.. i will ask him is he feeling alrite.. cos i guess he hasnt been feel good from ytd ba.. and plus maybe he is still sick lo.. haiz.. but i saw a ppl.. tat is my bb yr 2 coach.. his name is called xiu han.. lolx.. i tot i walk slowly up the stairs den i wun be able to meet him.. but i alrdy walk very slow.. he is still there waiting for lift.. den he suddenly turn tis side and he saw me.. he give a kind of like evil smile.. lolx.. den i smile back la.. wait he say i so impolite.. haha.. den wait for lift to come.. den go to belinda de class.. den she was givin us notes for our exam.. haiz.. kinda like very difficult neh.. but i dun hav the mood to study now lei.. all i do is last min work.. tat wat i do fro my exam during sec sch.. but not for o lvl.. cos o lvl is really very very impt.. haha.. i guess i really really have to start readin up notes by next week le.. den i guess wun be able to go online so often next week ba..
ya.. i guess he is sick again ba.. haiz... ytd talk to him den he like so restless.. den today appear to be sick.. haiz.. i cant do anything to help.. i pm him but he oso no reply.. wat can i do neh?? pls.. someone pls teach me.. why is he always liek tat?? i am kinda of like sad le lo.. i guess he has been givin cold shoulder to me most of the time ba.. haiz.. why is heaven so unfair de?? chat wit other ppl sure chat a lot de lo.. but not to him.. he like dun feel liek talkin de nneh.. haiz.. sianz.. and plus sad.. =(
and 5566 is comin on next fri.. but i got sch until 5pm.. arghz.. den guess should be going to msia only on sat ba.. den meet zhiying they all lo.. haiz.. yvette say she might be going den say she will talk to me on those days.. still ask me stay at the hotel wit them.. but i kn mummy wun allow de lo.. haiz.. see how lo.. and guess wat.. i am not very high tis time round when 5566 is coming.. tis isnt the usual me neh.. i oso dunno why.. maybe cos of sudden things ba.. haiz.. mood for xiezhi totally change le lo.. but i guess on tat day of the concert.. den i will be high and my mood to him will come back de.. i really think so.. hehe.. =D
lastly wat i say is.. i am very very sorry to all my frenz.. i kn i hav been disturbin u all for the past few weeks.. and i have started to realise wat i did is wrong and i am here to apologise de.. SORRY(x100) >.< pls dun take it to heart and i will be happy de.. dun worry.. >.<
ya.. today miss the chance of seeing him again.. actually tot of if i am able to see him.. i will ask him is he feeling alrite.. cos i guess he hasnt been feel good from ytd ba.. and plus maybe he is still sick lo.. haiz.. but i saw a ppl.. tat is my bb yr 2 coach.. his name is called xiu han.. lolx.. i tot i walk slowly up the stairs den i wun be able to meet him.. but i alrdy walk very slow.. he is still there waiting for lift.. den he suddenly turn tis side and he saw me.. he give a kind of like evil smile.. lolx.. den i smile back la.. wait he say i so impolite.. haha.. den wait for lift to come.. den go to belinda de class.. den she was givin us notes for our exam.. haiz.. kinda like very difficult neh.. but i dun hav the mood to study now lei.. all i do is last min work.. tat wat i do fro my exam during sec sch.. but not for o lvl.. cos o lvl is really very very impt.. haha.. i guess i really really have to start readin up notes by next week le.. den i guess wun be able to go online so often next week ba..
ya.. i guess he is sick again ba.. haiz... ytd talk to him den he like so restless.. den today appear to be sick.. haiz.. i cant do anything to help.. i pm him but he oso no reply.. wat can i do neh?? pls.. someone pls teach me.. why is he always liek tat?? i am kinda of like sad le lo.. i guess he has been givin cold shoulder to me most of the time ba.. haiz.. why is heaven so unfair de?? chat wit other ppl sure chat a lot de lo.. but not to him.. he like dun feel liek talkin de nneh.. haiz.. sianz.. and plus sad.. =(
and 5566 is comin on next fri.. but i got sch until 5pm.. arghz.. den guess should be going to msia only on sat ba.. den meet zhiying they all lo.. haiz.. yvette say she might be going den say she will talk to me on those days.. still ask me stay at the hotel wit them.. but i kn mummy wun allow de lo.. haiz.. see how lo.. and guess wat.. i am not very high tis time round when 5566 is coming.. tis isnt the usual me neh.. i oso dunno why.. maybe cos of sudden things ba.. haiz.. mood for xiezhi totally change le lo.. but i guess on tat day of the concert.. den i will be high and my mood to him will come back de.. i really think so.. hehe.. =D
lastly wat i say is.. i am very very sorry to all my frenz.. i kn i hav been disturbin u all for the past few weeks.. and i have started to realise wat i did is wrong and i am here to apologise de.. SORRY(x100) >.< pls dun take it to heart and i will be happy de.. dun worry.. >.<
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